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eli Oct 2023
once again
i start to feel your
*****
hands
on my body

and

i feel

digusting.
eli Sep 2023
I DONT NEED YOU ANYMORE.
i truly, from the bottom of my heart, hope you die.
eli Dec 2022
i read and i read and i read
until there is no more to read

am i punishing myself?
reading every word you wrote,
just to remember,
to reminisce.

you make me scared,
sick,
anxious.

please get off of me.
eli Dec 2022
some days

i can't even look at my body.

is it even my body?


once iwas violated
by you
and now
i feel *****
and disgusting
and i just think
there is no way this is my body

i need to get out
eli Dec 2022
you make me sick to my stomach,
saying those things.

i have never done anything to you,
a few hurtful words,
maybe,

but god i never took
that
away from
you


like how you did to me.

i still feel your hands on my body,
i still hear your booming voice
telling me its all my fault,
i still hear you telling me
that you'd leave
if i didn't do something you wanted.
so sure,
i said a few mean things,
but you
ruined me
my life
everything.

so sure,
i said a few mean things,

but i had to get
OUT.

out of your home,
out of your arms,
out of your head,
out of your heart.

you make me sick to my stomach,
so sick
that i shake and i cry and i *****

over just the thought of you
and your ***** hands on my body.
i wish
we just never
met

but i am grateful
for now
i know what
is not okay

because what you did
wasn't.

and as i
defended you
for all these years,

i realize i was blinded,
manipulated,

i didn't want you to leave.

so i left first.
eli Nov 2022
i live in fear
eli Aug 2021
live
past
16.
my only goal.
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