Maybe you’re the reason why I’ve kept myself working
One day you were the best thing that came into my life
And the next you gave me the worst heartbreak
Taking me back to a state I swore I would never be at again
I can’t believe I let myself get hurt the way you did me
& it’s worse because you don’t even care.
You live your days with joy and laughter
While mine are constantly filled with thoughts and memories of you
You didn’t deserve me..
You never did.
But I gave you another chance because I had seen the potential
And look where that took me.

- nsw

I'm not a poet. I don't feel like one at all. I just like to twist my thoughts together to form sentences, but often times I get lost in my imagination of what could've been.
Though I provide beauty through my words, I lack in caring for my mental picture. These thoughts of mine are pushed to the back of my mind and because of this, terms do not flow so easily, delaying my poetry into bliss.
I believe that I just rearrange letters in a variety of ways to encompass the thoughts running through my mind, without providing the concept of vulnerability so I remain unknown.
I am terrified of letting an individual get to know me, especially when 2022 became the year of nonchalance and breaking hearts.
I'm not a poet. I don't feel like one at all. I simply just state what everyone else is thinking, onto a piece of paper for the public to read.

- nsw 08/18 12:14 am

Tell me the beauty of this life without pain. Explain to me how we are to be immensely grateful of things that are easily accessible when we see them, every single day. Talk with me about the wonders of how life would be if time was of our essence in the virtue of prosperity. Stimulate my mind by discussing the endless possibilities of what our true purpose is, and how we will reach our objective. When you sit back and realize that this dunya (world) & haya (life) is temporary, you will understand that the temptations deriving from our peers daily, are here to set us onto the wrong path. The road frequently traveled that we choose to follow is filled with mistakes and bad dealings, yet we allow this in hopes of gaining happiness, joy, excitement. When it is understood that the world's answers are right in front of our eyes, just needing to be recognized, we will be full of power. Let me be your light.

- nsw 08/17 11:57 pm

Sometimes I feel like my mind is corrupting
Constant thoughts being hidden
Behind the surface of my driven smile
Drained from the manipulation by my peers
The continual run-throughs over my beautiful heart
Maybe I just need to recognize the individuals I am in contact with
See through their half-assed efforts
Steer myself away from their egotistical thoughts
My mind is simply distorted
But not because of self-corruption, but more
Because of deception and persistent pain
Needing to be recognized for my efforts
My worth, my power
Soon my mind will be in its golden form
Healed from the core
& that is when I will become truly unstoppable.

- nsw 08/17 11:46 pm

Do you ever sit in the corner of your room, and wonder where you belong in this world?
In a way where you feel like your purpose has not been found and that time is escaping you quickly?
Where everyone around you is dropping like flies at such a young age and you feel as if it could be so easy for you to be next?
Do you ever sit in the corner of your room, and think to yourself how you have taken steps towards your goals, and sometimes doubt that it will even matter in the end?
If today was the day that you got put to rest, would there be waves of loved ones behind you in tears, or are they just acquaintances with a guilty heart?
Do you ever sit in the corner of your room, force yourself to get back up and continue to reach towards what you desire out of this world, even with the lack of motivation and laziness you have been drowning in?
I wish I could do the same.
Pain and fear has immobilized me from leaving the corner of my room.

- nsw 03/15/22

Sometimes I feel like I am at a lost of words, dwelling in this writers block. Other times, I think maybe it is because I do not want to truly face my emotions, because of the pain that life has caused me. I do not want to regress back into a negative state so I take life as it comes and continue to move forward, but sometimes I feel like I am disregarding how I truly feel. I am running away from my own self such as a coward simply because I do not want to be an adult and handle the thoughts that go through my mind, so I turn the other way and act like all is fine. How can I expect someone else to give my emotions and I acknowledgement and respect when I can't even do the same?

- nsw 03/15/22

Sometimes I feel like time is escaping me and the world is disabling me from my true self.
I am in immense pain all throughout my body and sometimes it feels as if it is a slow and painful death.
I have seen the angels and I have felt their presence grab me within my dreams.
I've seen my past memories flashing by, and at this moment in time I can say that I am prepared.
Sometimes I feel like time is escaping me, but I feel like I am the one disabling me from my true self.
Maybe this is just a sign to keep going, and this is not really the end.

- nsw 03/15/22

I am going through these phases in my life at the moment,
Easing into them and learning not to stress, I am often reminded that life stops for no one, and it adds upon the feeling.
I am taking it day by day yet sometimes my mind takes control over my body, and I feel like I am stuck in this realm of disturbance and agony.
The concept of change is an alternative reality for me, and I feel like I am heavily lacking in the sense of understanding that this is the stage of adulthood.
Time is taking me over day by day and sometimes I can't even imagine myself growing older, and it is almost my time. I feel like I have cheated death for the past four years, and that I am an outsider on this land.
The disturbance and agony quickly grows into suicidal and depression with no way of escaping. Slowly, I feel like I am deteriorating in my own body, and at this point in time,
I am letting go of myself, and putting all things above me.

I just apologize if I have ever wronged you, pray for me and forgive me.

This Earth is a vacation.
Pack your bags, but only bring a few suitcases.
Travel lightly, because you are not staying long.
60, 70, 80 years max, with an eternal life in Heaven.
This Earth is temporary, yet we make it seem like
- Every obstacle in our path is the end of the world
- Flaunting what we have, even though it won't stay
- Not understanding the true meaning of relationships
Although every tangible thing is temporary,
So are people, any moment could be a person's last
Yet we hold these petty grudges and
Disrespect straight to the face..
Then mourn and regret as we're taking them to the grave.
This Earth is a vacation, so let's act like it.

My head has been spinning around for what it feels like ages.
Constant thoughts hiding behind one another
It feels as if I am running through these circles, rampaging through the events occurring within my life
I do not understand the meaning of fun, or enjoyment.
I live life on the daily to experience, not knowing what exactly I am searching for.
My life is full of purpose, but I have yet to find what I am on this earth for.
My mind tells me that I am finally enough, and my body is entering the door of self-love, I am fully content with my natural self.
I am in control of my mind, but of that I need reassurance.
Sometimes I feel like I am not doing enough.

Pain only develops if you let it. People only hurt you if you let them. Your mind is so powerful that you are capable of never being in pain again, think about it.

Everything is rooted from your mind.
Everything is rooted from your mind.
Everything is rooted from your mind.

Years ago, if you told me that I would still be alive here today in 2021, I would not believe you. The rough patches of my past had taken over me many times, but if you sat here with me today, and told me that I would be okay, I would not believe you. If you told me how confident, loving, and happy I am today, I would not believe you. I was so stuck in my mind that I never let myself feel properly. I ran away from my thoughts, so if you told me today that I have healthy coping mechanisms and if you told me that I would be thriving today, I would not believe you at all. But guess what?

It's true.

This year is full of constant changes. New feelings and experiences, I will get hurt and I will be happy, it is life and I realize that. I forgive myself for my mistakes of this past year, and I forgive those who have hurt me as well. This new year will be fresh, and without any grudges, I am releasing my past from my mind. I am proud of the person that I have become, and I am ready to move on without any mental damages, and any shackled conversations or uncomfortable feelings. I know what I deserve and I will get what I deserve. This year forward, everything is about me, and only me. My future, my joy. Affirmations.

I gave 9 months to you.
You led me on, told me you wanted to be with me, and all of that was a lie.
The worst part of it all was that I had to pull your true feelings out of you.
You were someone I really trusted, and really loved
It hurts to look back and relive our memories, and realize that half the times we were even together, you felt unsure about me.
It hurts to hear that you already moved on a couple of days after we were done.
It hurts to know that you are completely happy without me, and that I did not even leave any dent in your life.
It hurts to feel like I was so useless to you, and that you could not even reassure me otherwise.
It hurts, because I expected so much out of you.
You acted like you were such a grown man, who is a great communicator, but in reality..
You're one of the most childish mentality than I've ever met in a person.

Lots of time has passed..
My mind has become clear
I feel refreshed and energized
But one thing that stays in my mind daily
Is how untrustworthy everyone is
How others can love you to your face
But be plotting behind your back
The ones you are closest to,
Hurt you the deepest

I've come to the realization that I found myself, and I can only trust myself. Everyone is on their own journey, with every man to himself, so who am I to expect they'll treat me with same respect?

I want to be loved in the way my daddy loved my mom.
I want to be loved in a way where I won't ever have to question your feelings.
I want to be appreciated in a way where I truly feel appreciated.
I want to be appreciated in a way where it benefits the both of us, no matter our relationship.

Why do people feel like they have a right to control you?
I do not care who you are, but I am my own person.
I am not obligated to respond to calls, texts, and if I am not in the mood to hang out, then there's your answer.
In this generation, everyone is so backed up on the wrong things.
My mental health and my priorities come before anything else, and that doesn't matter whether you're a friend, family, or a significant other.
I live my life for me, and I will continue to please myself in the way that I want to.
So, again, forgive me if the shoe fits to you.. but I came into this world alone, and that is how I will leave.
The things happening in my life are a self-battle, so I have to make sure I do things for me.

Before I met you, I was completely fine.
I was learning to love myself, and I was on a good path.
You becoming an addition to my everyday future, was a blessing in the beginning.
Now I just look at you, and our relationship as a curse.
I had the signs placed right in front of my eyes, but I was too blinded by the way I had felt about you
All for what?
All for you to leave me in the end, to treat me as if you never cared
..To move on, like our relationship, our time spent together had meant nothing to you.
I had so much pain for the past month, that I did not even know how to handle it.
The one person I talked to every single day, who I confided in, trusted, turned back around and hurt me.
So I felt lonely, and you knew that, but yet you still went ahead and moved on with your life..
You were the person that I thought I was going to be with for a long time
You were the one that showed me many things and I don't regret our relationship, but I do regret it being with you.
Because before you even came into my life, I did not want a relationship.
But now I know how a woman should be treated, and I will never let anyone give me less than I deserve ever again.
I was head over heels over you, and none of that was reciprocated.
So now because of you, I have to deal with many other issues in my life, and the biggest one of all.. is that you broke my trust.

My past memories and experiences come to haunt me on the daily.
I am crept up at the most unusual times and placed with a wave of sadness over my head.
In these times where I am being tested and I am caught up in the pain of my past, I realize.
That it is called my past for a reason.
I am now in the present, in a much better, gifted state.
I am confident, loved, beautiful, and I will get everything that I desire in this life.
Ya Allah, I just pray that you help me through my journey.
Ya Allah, all I yearn for is constant positivity throughout any experience that I go through
Ya Allah, I pray that my father, my mother, and my brothers wake up everyday, being proud of their little princess.

I have searched for self-love for years, and now I can greatly say that I am in love with myself. I am confident in my own body, in my own mind.

You hurt me to the point where I began to feel numb.
God had risen up and shown me plenty of signs but I ignored them all because I wanted you.
I passed through all of the pain and all of the nights crying myself to sleep wondering how you felt about me.
I loved you more and more everyday, I sacrificed things for you, I was genuinely here for you.
You led me on with no remorse, you didn't even bother to come back and check up on me.
I told you my past, I explained how I was afraid, I opened up and showed you my pain..and all you did was reenact my torture
So forgive me if I act like you are a stranger, and forgive me if I treat you as if I never wanted you
That is how you know that you hurt me to my core, and the worst of it all, was that it was unexpected.
..you were the one that told me to expect the unexpected.

I hate showing my emotions.
I don't like other people getting the satisfaction of knowing how I feel and having that over me.
I have been gaslighted, manipulated, emotionally abused.
So how much of a fool would I be, to sit here and become vulnerable with another human being.. who has the power to do that to me again?

It gets draining trying to have conversations with people who go out of their way to look for something to complain about.
It gets draining trying to even converse with others when you aren't in the right state of mind to.
It gets draining to have to start over and learn everything about another person.
It gets draining to take things back to square one and become vulnerable with yet, another person
Who's just going to end up leaving again..

Now that you've been with me for a bit, you've seen just about every part of me.
The frustration that comes from just about everybody
The depression that rots inside of my mind, no matter how much I write or how much in peace with life I am
The anxiety that takes over me, no matter the dosage of medication nor breathing that helps long-term
You've seen me be a mess and that is why I'm so afraid.
I'm afraid that you've seen me in these ways, especially in my vulnerability, you've seen me want you
I've told you I love you
I'm afraid now that you know these things.. you'll leave me
Because honestly, these parts of me.. my anxiety especially
My mental need to want to be with you at all times
Especially each night..
Is what I've been trying to hide from the beginning.
I'm scared. I get so scared.
I want to be someone you choose, and someone you'll eventually love. Not someone who bothers you constantly, nor someone who distracts you from your passion.
I'm learning TJ and I see my faults.. please bear with me.
But most importantly, please don't leave me.

Many times I feel lonely
I don't know why or what's wrong with me
I thought that leaving home would be my complete peace
But it's been worse since then.
I feel like I have no friends
And I feel like I bother everyone I meet.

Sometimes I want to bawl and let all my emotions out
I just can't take my thoughts or handle my feelings most times.
My heart is at a disadvantage
My mind is eating itself and pulling my thoughts apart
Who knew
A person who is all smiles and has everything she needs,
Could still be in so much internal pain?
I need help..

I feel like your pawn
I feel like a burden in your eyes
I feel like.. maybe we aren't meant for each other.
I feel like I bother you more than keep you happy
I feel like I'm just another girl and not someone you want to make yours
I feel like.. I'm too attached to you.
I care too much about you
I want to do everything for you
I'm starting to feel too much for you
I don't know how to not be so attached to you, when you're perfect to me.
No I'm not saying humans can be perfect, but you are what I've been looking for this entire time.
I'm just afraid, just like I've always been.
I don't want to be too much for you, I don't want to keep bothering you
I just don't know why I'm so attached to you.

I said "I love you" for the first time last night.
I was sitting there in a comforting space, with the person I'm meant to be with.
He pushes me to communicate, he is my definition of perfection.
He knows me completely, from head to toe.
Every curve on my body to every thought in my brain.
At first I was afraid of what his response was going to be..
But he gave me the perfect one.
"I'm getting there."

I want him forever.

I'm not used to being treated with love, so forgive me if I am unexperienced.

My heart breaks every single time I try to imagine the sound of your voice and I'm not able to.
My eyes begin drowning with tears when I try to remember the way you look, the way I was treated by you.
My body begins to internally collapse when I realize that you were a prominent character in my life, in my story.
My rose began to die, the same day you did.

Time and time again, people disappoint me.
Whether it's friends, boyfriends, even family.
At this point it's something I should be able to just accept and move on, but it's not that easy for me.. I care too much.
Regardless of who comes and goes in my life,
Besides the fact that you're my man, and I will have you as mine for as long as time lets us..
I've also realized that you are someone who is meant to be in my life.
You make me stronger, you pull me through many situations I would be still stuck in if it wasn't for you.
You've blessed me in so many different ways and I can confidently say that I've never experienced that from someone before.
Your advice has caught me from doing the same dumb things that I've done for others in the past.
This is the time where I'm trying to understand my own identity, and you've been a huge part of that.
So maybe this IS my time of new beginnings.
As you've said.. new job, new apartment, new semester, and new boyfriend..

I feel like everyone's little pity party.
People only see me with those low eyes and a string in their heart because my daddy died.
I've said it before and I'll say it again,
Nobody cares until it's time for them to show out in public.
Nobody cares about you until it's too late.
Nobody cares until you're on your deathbed.
Nobody cares until you're up in the sky.
Nobody cares.
And that's the hardest ******* pill to swallow.

i'm typically good with words
i can place them together
to create something similar to when
you wake up at dawn and see the
beautiful different colors all throughout the sky
while standing in the middle
of a dense forest

i'm typically good with words
i've strung plenty together about you
but i'm getting to the point where
the letters slowly disappear from my mind
and suddenly i'm at a loss of words
it's like this lost frame
being snatched away
from my own mind

you've taken my vocabulary
and mixed it all together
stealing loves and hearts
and plenty of thoughts
replaced with nights
and virtual days
thinking what it would be like
to finally be at peace with you again
with your head on my chest
hearing my heart beat

we flirt
all the time
we smile and laugh
but how am i
supposed to know if this
is real?
i feel like i can't control
my emotions as easily.
it's so hard talking to you
everyday and not saying
all the things that i want
you to hear.

i'm too afraid
to tell you
how i really feel

so i'll hide behind
small jokes
and soft phrases

i'm too scared
if i ask you
"do you feel the same
about me?"
your reply will be

"not yet."

You remind me of home, you remind me of my father.
Your personality, your constant motivation, your style.
You remind me of hope, you remind me of all things joyous.
The beauty of the sea and the sky, collided together.
You are the sky, my guiding light. I am the sea, full of storms on the inside, yet beautifully kept together.
Every hug makes me feel instant comfort, it's a need.
I have flown around the world and met no one like you..
Because you are all the things I kept coming back to.

Some people get lost in their heads, some people get lost in their hearts. Some feel so lost to the point where they only find true guidance in paradise. For me, I get lost in you. I get lost in your heart. I get lost in between us. The most confusing part of this relationship is wondering how it will go months.. even years down the line. A part of me wants to worry too much and save myself from pain, and another part wants me to live life to its fullest until time comes to an end. I'm mistaken inside my own head, but I'm also falling astray from yours. I'm lost.

Within the past few months, my eyes have opened.
I finally see the true beauty of nature
I understand what things are meant for me, and what to stay far from
I recognize my talents and push myself to go further, instead of staying surrounded by my comfort
I began to love more, be more open.. work on myself more.
The pandemic did change many things in life but even more than that.. you helped my true inner self be portrayed on the outside.
You guided me to feel safe with my feelings rather than run from them.
You've taught me how to really love someone, but even more than that.. you've shown me how to be treated.
You see, my problem is..
Unhealthy relationships is all that I'm used to, it feels like a small part of me.
You coming in, treating me with care and genuine love, is not what I'm used to.
It's taking time for me to settle within this relationship, but I wouldn't want to grow individually and together with anyone else.
You are not perfect, but you are my perfection.
You bring me feelings I've never felt before, you're like my miracle in human form.
I can't wait to live the start, and the rest of this relationship with you.. I adore you.
But most of all, I appreciate you.

When I feel your touch against my skin, it's instant comfort.
It's as if this specific warmth fills up my heart
My mind is suddenly at ease, my body is full of energy.
I hear your voice and it feels like a soft melody passing through my ears, surrounding my brain.
My mind is full of boxes - boxes filled with the small memories of us.. as well as physical representations of the ways you've made me feel.
My heart.. my heart is at ease, there's this moment of joy passing through my body mixed in with my blood.
I don't understand how you make me feel the way that you do, it's something I've never experienced before.
That may be why I get so anxious, and worried to lose you.. because I don't want to picture the rest of my life without you.
I've said it before and I'll say it again..
My love for you is a portrayal of how you treat me.. nothing more.
& That is why I'm falling deep.

The rain hits the ground and thunder starts to crackle.. reminding me of the sound of a knife inching deeper into my skin.
The sky is the color of my face when I hold my breath to try to make myself suffer for my behavior.
All of the sudden the electricity begins to turn on and off, mocking the misery of this world in my face.
The feeling of raindrops pelting across my skin, only a few shades lighter than my fragile parts after each bruise he gave me.
The paranoia that comes with every human instinct, only intensified.
The worries of the future, the self-hatred..the sensitivity of my heart as another person steps on it one more time.
I grew up with a fascination of this world and what it has the offer.. but now I've entered the age of fascination with death.
My heart begins beating faster than ever before, my skin is turning a darkish blue, my words are no longer coming out of my mouth, my breath is stuck deep inside my diaphragm, my mind is circling around and next thing you know..
7 minutes of my past life are flashing by and at this time it is way too late..
I'm entering the world of paradise.. and hopefully I find some sort of comfort here.

I  often feel neglected.
My heart is too good for this world, I'm too kind, too caring.
Everyone wants to be nonchalant.
People would rather hurt others before they get hurt themselves.. like some sort of competition.
I often feel hated,
Why does it seem like everyone is against me?
It must be myself that's the problem.
All these people have their own close friends.. healthy relationships..
While I'm sitting here.. 19 years old.. wanting to end myself.
It feels like I'm losing my best friend.. which I am.
It feels like everyone around me is dying.. which they are.
It feels like I'm not capable of love.. I doubt myself.
I keep things inside. I'm too worried about the future. I'm too sensitive. I'm too moody.
And the worst part of it all.. it seems like it's my fault..
All.
The.
Time.

You've never been hesitant in helping me in my time of need, and sharing your wisdom. You've always allowed me to operate in my manner of comfort, yet you also push me further.. out of my zone. You've believed in me when it felt like the whole world was against me. You reminded me that I have potential, that I am fierce.. in those times where I would doubt myself and what I have to offer. You've been my light, my guiding candle through this tunnel of darkness. You've stuck with me every single day.. making sure that I was okay, giving me advice when I need it, listening to me.. which is more special to me than the rest. You listen. I know sometimes I can be petty, and stubborn. I know sometimes I say I'm okay when I'm not. I know sometimes I get upset at things that don't even make sense, I'm very emotional.. and that's okay. I'm still learning you the same way you're learning me. I just want to thank you for staying with me, beside me.. every single day. You are cared for, you are appreciated, and you are loved.

Do you know how much I appreciate having you not only just in my life.. but as mine?
A friend, a lover to share the good times with and express all my troubles to.
A friend, a lover to be myself around and care for.
A friend, a lover who's too important to not be appreciated daily.
Even though I'm certain you already know how loved you are by me, I'd still like to tell you.

I love your laugh, the way you can just light up anybody's day with your smile. The way just about anything you make into a joke, and you always chuckle at things that aren't even funny, it's cute.

I love your voice, the way it makes me feel some type of way when you get stern. By type of way I mean I'm motivated but at the same time *****. The way you wake up and make those small moans as you're trying to awaken. The tone you use to talk about important things versus light-hearted topics. I love it.

I love your personality, this was the catch. You caught me with your heart before your ****, but you definitely got me with both. The way you're so honest and don't care what who thinks. The way you're mature and understand me. The way you not only support me, but push me further. I appreciate you.

I love your face. The way you look at me when you're *****. The way you look at me interested when I talk about anything. The way you admire me the same way I admire you. The way you're so  passionate about your goals and so independent. I'm proud of you.

Though you've heard all of this many times, you will continue to hear them over and over again. I love every single inch of your body. I love every part of your personality that I've met, and love double the parts that I haven't met yet. I love the way I feel with you, around you, near you, talking to you, just.. you. I love your heart. I love how you make me feel loved with such simple things yet.. simple goes so far. I feel appreciated by you, I feel loved by you, I feel happier with you, I feel supported by you.

I appreciate you more and more every single day. I will always remind you how you make me feel because you have made me stronger already. You've helped me shape myself into this woman that I love, that feels unstoppable at times. You help me in my time of need, you tell me what needs to be said. You read me, you read through me. I feel special with you.

You're my baby, my lover, my future boyfriend and I'm becoming in love with all of you.

It would be a beautiful sight when we realize that racism is the deep root of chaos. Supporting individuality and freedom, off the chains of those trying to oppress us. When we greet one another with open arms, the world would be bliss.

It would be a beautiful sight when the police, a group made solely to protect its citizens regardless of gender or race, do what they were trained for without the disdain and mockery. An organization that every person can rely on in a time of need, instead of the constant triggers every time a they pass by.

It would be a beautiful sight when every person is joined together in unity and treated with equality, the end of systemic racism. Those fighting different battles come as a team, and assist one another. Nobody is more privileged, and everyone is granted with the same opportunities.

It would be a beautiful sight when women will be able to walk freely without the terrifying anxiety of being assaulted. We have our own mothers, our own sisters.. how could we not provide them safety without a male presence?

It would be a beautiful sight when religions do not see other ones as threats, but a difference in beliefs. When we respect one another and their faith, rather than position one superior over the others. We deserve to have our own customs without the fear of constant outside judgement and disapproval.

It would be a beautiful sight to see families reunited, children taken out of detention camps. When other countries come to America for opportunity, they get the help that is needed, rather than being driven away. A society where everyone is there to not only support, but provide resources.

We were placed onto this Earth to love one another, to care for one another. A world free from hate and oppression would be a world full of love and harmony.

No matter what other traumatic experiences may occur in my life
I feel I've gone through more than enough
I'm intact with my emotions and I am in control of my mind
My anger will not overbear me
My sadness will never take over again
I'm growing.

A wise woman once sang this beautiful phrase,
"You have got to trust the signs, everything will turn out fine."

After hearing this, my mind has been at peace
My thoughts have become clear, positive, loving.
I have found my guiding light.

"W.A.Y.S." by Jhené Aiko.

Years ago, I would look in the mirror and see pain.
I used to hate myself more than I ever disliked anybody else.
I loathed every inch of my body
I despised my personality
I underestimated my own self
I was my biggest enemy.

Today, I look in the mirror and see beauty.
I see through the hatred of my past self
I see elegance.
I love my personality
I'm in love with the warmth placed in my heart
I'm attached to myself through every perspective
But most of all..
I realized that I'm unstoppable.

Lately my mind has been unraveling in ways I can't even describe.
My heart is full of beautiful roses and my emotions..
Well my emotions.. for the first time in forever..
Are what is bringing me joy.

I appreciate your presence
Along with everything you do
Your kind words presented towards me by your soft heart
Your gifted brain helping me understand topics I'm not too familiar of
...Including myself.
I am falling completely in love with you and I'll say it proudly.
What caught me the most about you, is that you treat me the same as you did when we first met.
That's how I know I can trust you, because you treat me with the exact same love and respect every single day.
I'm still learning to be free with you
I'm learning to love you
I'm learning to trust you
And I wouldn't want to do any of this for anyone else.

love is my oxygen, and I can't breathe.