I'm a little lonesome
And it's nothing new to me.
I've been lonesome before,
Thought it's not the way I want to be.

I'm a little lonely,
I have been for some time.
I'm missing someone now.
It's not okay, it's not fine.

I'm a little alone,
Stuck inside my own mind.
I'm surrounded by people,
Though there's no comfort in them I can find.

I'm a little lost
Without your guiding hand.
I'm okay on my own though,
I have two feet, I can stand.

I'm just a little sad
That I'm without you,
But that's a part of moving on,
That's just what I have to do.

"yeah i'll help but i'm not doing all those dishes
i'll do
a few."
"i did those dishes every single week you were gone
by myself.
i've already done the living room
and
the bathroom
i just need help
with the dishes."
"i can't handle that huge pile. it's too overwhelming for me."
"well i'm sorry that you can't handle a stack of ******* dishes."
"well I'M sorry you can't handle being in a crowd without anxiety medication."
"why the **** would you say that?
i was fine until you left all summer
i was fine.
90% of this anxiety is your fault
why the **** would you even say that?"
"i reject that. don't even try to put that on me."
"i'm leaving."

One moment I'm fine
The next I find myself on the floor soaked in tears
You pick the time when you want me to notice you
I was doing just fine until I saw your eyes
It's been months without your touch
It's been hell, but I've been tough
I know there's a reason
For every little thing
I just want to know what happened to you and me

And my mother tight lipped smile
My fathers "I don't even want to know"
Makes it obvious Im the black sheep.
My sister is an ivy league college girl
And my brother is so smart and the favorite,
But I'm the one who has fallen in love
And has taken the price for it twice.
I see the disappointment in their eyes
Feel them shadow me away
As if me dating another girl
Is the worst thing possible.
Once I can leave this godforsaken house
I will be free
To love her freely.