he inspires me
to be me
all the ugly and all the beautiful
parts of myself
that i thought i had lost forever
i had almost forgotten what it felt like
now i can never let it go
i can never let him go

you need to eat
they say
but i do eat
little blue pills
soft white powder
warm brown liquor
inhale
exhale
gray toxic smoke
a well balanced meal i'd say
i'll keep eating
until i am nothing