nuggz

nuggz Nov 2018

so i’ll keep writing about you
praying that these words
will speak you back into existence
and everything will be as it was

nuggz Nov 2018

no more happy endings.

as we laid there
with my head on your chest
our breaths synchronized
and i realized
how much i truly missed this
our lives were so simple
so long ago when we were just kids
our souls became tortured
and we started to ruin each other
i know it would not last
and in the end i had to leave
all these feelings came rushing back
and though i felt lucky
i knew it would eventually be ripped away
it’s too late to go back
and now we’ve grown apart
living different lives
and you’ve found someone new
i just hope she loves you
as much as i do

nuggz Nov 2018

blindsided.

she was heartbroken
and we cried over our losses
but he was there to mend
we all took a trip to the city
and downed whiskey the whole way
before i knew it he kissed me
and i thought "oh ****"
"he's going to change everything"

nuggz Nov 2018

silent thoughts.

i need to breathe you in
fill up my lungs
like the cigarettes i smoke
you taste so much sweeter
than any candy i’ve tasted

nuggz Nov 2018

to self.

you were raised to not let anyone
steal your independence from you
if he truly loved you
he would not expect you
to be less than yourself

nuggz Nov 2018

stronger.

i love seeing my body bruised and broken
i know that sounds morbid
but they tell their own story in a way
just like the scars on my arms and thighs
i have been through hell and back
but somehow i’ve survived it all
and i’ll keep fighting until i am at peace

nuggz Nov 2018

untitled.

you never truly realize
how much you've missed someone
until you hear the sound of their voice
like it's the first time again