when we learned about you
we had no clue how much you would mean to us
you saved us
your laugh
your smile
your sass
your everything
you are my whole world and more
you were there when i tried to **** myself
you were there in my darkest moments
you were there when i did wrong
and you loved me unconditionally
when my whole family turned against me

smoke fills her lungs
alcohol drowns her stomach
pills cloud her head
heartbreak numbs her heart

his hands touch her body
his tongue fills her mouth
his voice lights up her soul
his love warms her heart

she is whole

when i met you
you peaked my interest
you didn't care about anything
i admired that
i was drawn to you
but i never expected anything
i was numb and heartbroken
i never wanted to feel anything again
after only a week i fell for you
you fell for me too
we only had days left
on our last day together
you asked me to be yours
now we have forever

why did you leave me all alone?
was my love not enough
to keep you around
i look for you in every man i meet
maybe that's why i stick around
when men abuse me
they yell
they manipulate
they lie
and then they apologize
i forgive them
like i keep forgiving you

my therapist told me today
"you seem lighter this session than all the rest"
maybe that means i'm getting better
or i'm getting better at hiding it

i failed her when she needed me the most
but when i needed her
she dropped everything for me
she brought the light back into my life
when everything had been a black cloud over my head
she is my soulmate
she made me feel alive again
when i had been dead for years

i don't remember much from that night
i was told that i vomited in your hat
we had a good time getting wasted
but i do remember the way your hand touched me uninvitingly
on that drive home
i remember i was too drunk to talk or move
i remember screaming "no" and "stop" in my head
but my tongue couldn't cooperate with my mouth
i guess that made you think that i liked it
but you left scars deep inside of me
that will never heal