"Why do i have these thoughts all the time?"
You screamed as the blade cut open your wounded mind
Blood rushing down your wrists hitting the cold, dense floor
"Why doesn't anybody understand!" you cried "They just think i'm crazy!"
The pills fly through the air
You scramble to grab them, but you down them in half a second
Your body slaps the ground
Covered in your own the ****** mess you created
Your pronounced dead


Hours later your sister and mom come home
"DEE DEE!" your little sister squeals "DEE DEE!"
The house is silent
She rips up the stairs knowing what you've been through
Tears streaming down her face
She busts down the bathroom door and is unable of finding words to say

Your mother knows something is up since you didn't answer her phone calls
Suddenly her 2nd daughter is yelling and crying for you to wake up
Little did she know what you had been up to while you were home alone
Your mom collapses by your side instantly in tears whimpering for you to come back
Not even worrying about the blood splattered all over the both of you

The last place alive you saw was the bathroom since you had been bagged up
And didn't even give you a chance at the hospital
Your dad gets the news and races home as soon as the ambulance is taking your body away
He starts crying which he never does since he didn't get a chance to say goodbye
"My little girl" he says getting choked up "is gone..."

The next day they announce your death over the loudspeaker
Your two best friends heads are racing a mile a minute not being able to comprehend what happened
You called them last night but they had other bigger problems
They still tried to talk you through it even though it just made things worse

You even tried one of your old friends but she didn't come either
She was too hung up on her own life
Since she had the same problems you did but bottled them up
But that morning she was hysterical
She went home that night and didn't even think twice but hung herself
Because she was dating the guy you liked and was gonna breakup with him the next day
You didn't even give her a chance to explain

Well at least you thought of all this before taking out the blade

Story..
Stories
I have a story to tell
It's a tragic one as usual

A day goes by. Silence reigns and birds cuckoo
While this happens..
Two people sit under a tree
Using it as a rendezvous
For usual meetings
They met...
Once...
In ten days

They enjoyed it
I helped another person
and he tried to help me
I did a better job of helping him
that's what I think..

Anyways, once they met
they enjoyed it
they would talk together
and climb a tree
Play with a dog, which was a
golden retriever
They are big!
It was a lot of fun
Often playing Videogames
like..
Mario kart..?

That was a day
and it happened on
an occasional basis
when both of them could spare some time
from their daily *time consuming life

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One day however
A bright sunny day
A sunday afternoon
filled with birds flying about
nearly the end of the school year
It was all going by wonderfully

We had met another time
because you called me
and told me to help you out
and just to relieve the stress
that the school year had put on us

We climbed a tree
with a rope on it
it was pretty tall
about 10 feet high

I remember talking about self harm..
..and ways to **** oneself
and I gave up climbing and jumped off
the rope
6 feet
straight down
on my back/ankles

It hurt like batshit crazy
but i told you I managed through it
then later
when talking to our friends
I let it slip

I told her about my failed attempt
I was really depressed after that
It actually FAILED!

Well, now more people knew about it
and these rumors spread fast
as you would know
I was still fine with school
just.. I  became more depressed
My grades were fine
I was nearly at the end of the year
nearly there.
nearly

And then
I realized
that
Mockingbirds
are similar to humans
they don't talk much
at the time of crisis
but they remember
it, and pass it onwards

They don't lie.

*Mockingbirds dont lie