i search for you,
parts of you,
between thick smoke
and mixed drinks,
in dark faces shadowed
by moonlight

let me swallow your words
until my lungs are
filled
let me drink until
i drown

i keep thinking about
how we were once strangers
that we didn't know
anything
about each other

that didn't think
about each other

that never hurt each other
or loved each other

there was a time in my life
where i never knew your name
where my head wasn't filled with conversations
with the past, present,
and
imaginary you

there was a time in my life
where i didn't wake up missing you
or go to sleep to the thought of you

there was a time in my life,
where we were once strangers

and i now sit
in awe of the random,
colliding aspect of all our lives

how one person or moment
can set off a chain reaction
how one person
can one day
mean so much

because i met you
and
all the sudden
and permanently,
life changed

if
the sunlight
can
surround your
bed
and the
yellow haze
that cuts
through
the window
blinds
causes
geometric
lines to
form against
on your
skin
and bones

and if
the rays
can
kiss your
skin,
sink
in your
body,
and stain,
your cheeks,
lips,
eyes--

then
why,
oh
why,
can't i?