It was like the clouds had read my mind,
They all had started to get in line,
to swim across the open sky,
close up the holes, and shield your eyes,

I wanted the sunlight to go away,
Turn back time to another day,
The clouds continue and do not cease,
Not one bit of sunshine, not one piece,

And as the blue turns into gray,
I lift my head and start to pray,
I still feel warmth despite the cold,
Too young to die, for someone so bold.

You're so close to me,
And yet you feel so far,
Gone much too soon,
and that's the hardest part.

I can't believe the fact,
That you've left this world for good,
I wish I'd spent more time with you,
And hugged you when I could.

Your smile lit up the nighttime,
Your frown dimmed the brightest of days,
You left for once but not for good,
I'll see you in a better place.

You had so much to live for,
You always exuded such life,
No matter how dark the times,
You could always find the light.

You may not be here anymore,
But you'll always be in my heart,
No matter how far away you may seem,
We'll never be apart.

For awhile,
I thought it would actually work,
I truly believed myself,
I tricked myself into thinking that,
You would like me just enough,
That I would be Just good enough,
to tell you my secret,
and have you still like me,
My face is strong in company,
but quietly,
You'll see,
tears will fight their way,
onto my face, forever etched, will forever stay,
I can't be cured.
Can't be loved, won't be heard,
not much worth, too hurt,
to try anymore, given the situation,
and the situations inflation,
I can expect no less, not one to impress,
I'm okay with being alone.
I know I'll have me. And I'll never
Let me down
a third time.

I don't need you
To tell me I'm not good enough
Who do you think you are?

Do you honestly, truly, believe,
that you're better than what I give,
you have no battle scars?

And who are you,
to make me wait,
So patiently, for your decision?

I don't wait, don't trip,
don't need your ****,
you act like I need to be forgiven.

Never once did I ask for this,
This is just the hand
I was dealt,

It's my life I have to live,
And I won't live it for anybody else.

If you'd just give me a chance,
one shot to prove myself,
I'll show you I'm worth it,
Unlike anybody else,
I can be what you've wanted,
What you've been searching for,
If you'd only let me,
It can be just like before,
Before I opened my big mouth,
But it's part of who I am,
A part of me I've grown to hate,
I wish you'd understand.

Wake me up,
When I can be free,
From this wretched body,
That's restraining me,

Wake me up,
When I can go home,
and be loved by somebody,
Or not be alone,

Wake me up,
When this pain will go away,
Please don't be afraid of me,
Please promise you'll stay,

Wake me up,
When I've slept through all of this,
I tried to be worth it for you,
But it seems I won't be missed.

I watched your hands run through my hair,
and I knew you had me, right then and there,
You kept me going long with your lies,
I know I shouldn't be quite so surprised,
but once I had a bit, I knew I'd never have enough,
That's what made losing you so mother ******* tough,
I know you're not really gone from me yet,
It's just an inkling inside me, I feel you regret,
The time we've spent and how close we got,
Or how close I got, you never even fought,
To keep me with you but I'll try not to notice,
Try to be hopeful and try to keep focus,
on keeping you happy, and maybe you'll stay,
And If I try hard enough, You'll love me one day.