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Every time I close my eyes
I hear a disembodied
Heart beat.
Something is just outside
Walking around.
At night time my fears come
alive
There is no escaping them
They come from all around.
A wicked laugh,
The beating of a heart,
The madding steps
Coming ever closer.
Coming from all over.
My fears come alive,
As soon as the sun sinks down.
No where to hide in this little town.
Even the most normal of sounds,
Turn terrifying when it
Gets dark
Dog barks,
heart stops.
Cat meows,
The tears fall down.
Nowhere to hide,
No way to make it stop.
Every sound I can hear
Brings me even more fear.
Icy chill runs down my spine,
When I hear that dog whine.
Begging please just go away,
Knowing every fear is here to stay.
What's worse is realizing ill
**Never get away.
Your goofy grin
Makes my world spin.
A single whisper across my skin
Makes me fall for you all over again.
Listen girl,
Never have I stopped loving you.
You are one of the only ones
I have ever let in.
From  our silly silly notes then
To our heartfelt texts now.
We really never let eachother
Go.
My heart skipped several
Beats,
When you said "I missed you"
I knew right then I needed to kiss you.
Too much history to ever let go.
It's probably not right,
We seem stuck in this cycle.
Always coming back to eachother.
Always knowing we will be there.
But girl seriously,
Why did I ever let you go.
 Oct 2013 Nicole Pierson
Kagami
I've never been a fan of suspense. Time seems to stand still
Until
Something jumps, pops, screams in your face. And it is ******* scary.
Finding  the thing that scares you most and having it scare the **** out of you.

Nothing is worse.
The white, blank, haunted eyes that mirror your pain.
And everything seems to be turned against you. Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Will ever work for you.
Unless you believe it will.
The power of positive thinking. Reflecting the image in your third eye into the waters that spread
In front of you. A mirror pool.

And the fix it guy in your neighborhood will fix your toys.
Thirty seven years will take a lifetime to complete.
I don't know why.
Ask the reaper, the shadow people, the guardian angels that whisper in our ears at night.
But you won't get a response.
They can't speak. They can sing and scream and stare. Scare.
They whisper in a language lost
By those who once spoke it. They threw it out
With the *******. And killed themselves trying to remember.

But all will be well. Your playtime will be fixed and set up. Your entire life bending backwards.
Because you are a control freak.
You can't let people shape who you are because you are important. More important than others' Emotions.
False.

You are a selfish *****, you know? Let people tell you that.
Be kind. The golden rule was taught to you in elementary, remember that.
You're letting your demon out.
Kick it to the curb. Send it back.  To oblivion. This is not fantasy.
You can not just let yourself go.
That toy is not yours to break.

It's time to swim. But don't fall in. There are evil things in that mirror pool.
Make sure to just look. Project the image of diving in. And you will.
Without releasing the dragon.
Volcanoes erupt on both sides of my skull
Simultaneously spewing out lava,
it creates permanent craters in the mountainside created by flesh and bone,
It burns like a hot fire,
But it actually has meaning this time.
A watery clear lava erupting from my eyes causes more damage to my mind than pompeii,
wiping out villages of whatever self confidence I had left,
leaving only the scraps and ashes for me to work with until the next eruption,
at this point,
I don’t even bother building the villages back up.
They create more obstacles that I don’t have the patience for,
but it’s not like they were much to begin with.

While villages are ruined an empire gains their power.
An evil kingdom of what used to be a happy go lucky teenager,
now filled with depressed thoughts and hateful words only used upon himself,
who’s only skills are to talk others out of suicide where sometimes he doesn’t know what to do with his own self.
Trapped inside of a sad kingdom lives one happy soldier who wants to break out but isn’t strong enough to break down the walls and reveal the dark secrets to the world,
I think what he is missing is someone to understand him,
Join his rebellion against the sad army,
And defeat the war on depression.
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
i'm not scared of the dark
or being alone
or crowds
or monsters
or strangers
i'm not in fear of things
but i worry
i worry over everything
it stresses me to my core
devours my mind
makes me sleepy
if only i could sleep
i worry about the stupid things i said
i worry about the work expected of myself
i worry about my future
i worry about the judgements others make of me
i worry about the way i stepped left today
as i rip myself to pieces
just because i should have stepped right
i cry over my own thoughts
the worries i create drown me
literally
i worry about a mole on my skin,
what if it's melanoma?
i worry about how much i worry,
what if it's anxiety?
well i think it is
but i don't want to say it
what if people think i'm crazy?
i would rather be stressed
Losing my touch on reality,
as my hand print fades off the window screen
and I'm waiting, waiting but I don't know what for...
Living for now but I'm lost in a vision
I'm Alice,
I'm falling,
falling
because I think all the crazy people are the best too.
Wishing I was crazier and you were too.
Why do you plaque my dreams but never appear in my reality?  
Only to leave dust covered thoughts
that are suspended in the air
words never said.
You don't know how I love too much, too passionately.
Do you know me at all?  
With a heart so malfunctioned and constant as mine.
Does this scare you? Is that my crime? 
 You don't know me, not really
but you've stolen your way into my nightly monologue 
 like a thief in the night. 
It leaves me to wonder-
 Will I dream tonight?
Or will I see you and your forget me knots in real life?
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