Sweetie, if you see your glass as half empty
I'll use my half to fill yours up.
I'm just grateful I have the cup.
I'll give you E v e r y t h i n g.
Just as long as I have you I'll have enough.
Missing you stings so bad I have honey for blood.
I think you find comfort
in the look in my eyes when I've been hurt.
And now I'm just pondering what made your eyes start wondering
And I think that's a good enough cause of death, just to know you looked away.
You say you t r i e d to get over me
So I know you didn't want to stay.
Maybe I just wanted too much from you.
You being my pain killer
I may have overdosed.
maybe I just can't have you so close.
but don't you know I'm addicted.
The thought of you and someone else sickens me
And now that you've seen how wicked I can be.
Do you still love me?
I know you're afraid you might be lost,
But I'm afraid I'll never be found.
I just wish you hadn't tossed my battered heart on the ground.
so many wrestles nights I scratched your name
in to my bed frame.
making it as close to the same
as the name engraved
on my bones.
when you were with her did you feel alone?
Because I'd like to think so
You know?
I'd like to think so.


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How do I get over the past,
when it was supposed to be my future you and I were meant to last
So don't ask me for my heart back when you've thrown it in my face.
cleansed of your fingerprints, you didn't even leave a trace.
It's frustrating.
how trusting I am of your loving hands
that caressed someone else.
I'm just stressed, Can not stop thinking
Thinking about her lips on your lips
instead of my name.
I'd give anything now
for things to be the same
as they were
And there's really no cure
for love.
It's a miserable thing
no matter how lovable how kissable
I need to be closer
A tattoo on your skin
But even as ink I'd never soak in
deep enough.
Its a miserable thing, this thing we call love.
You don't have to believe in us
because
I know it's unlikely
The fact you even think of me is striking.
Just tell me you're willing to try
You're killing me,
I cry and I cry
How in the world do you sit there dry eyed

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I was hoping there was an alternative universe
where "I Love You" is good enough.
But I've already seen the entire solar system in the round bones of your spine.
the ride through space is tough, You and I could lay down and enjoy a glass of whine. You don't need to share feelings.
I'll just lay awake at night telling love stories to the ceilings.
wishing there was an alternative universe where promises had meaning.
And I'm leaning against the false hope that I could be an astronaut
and discover a loving alien who's everything you're not.
And we could live Happily on our own star.
Where I'd lay awake wishing he was less of what you aren't and more of what you are.
I love you for you and there's nothing that I'd change
I still love you with a smile, I still love you full of rage.
I thought, Maybe in an alternative universe
We could rehearse my dreams without a stage.
But this isn't a play.
there are galaxies  in your eyes
And there's nothing I can do or say
absolutely nothing, I just can't make you stay.
You really are a great actor, one of the great few
I mean there for a second, You had me believing you


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I'll tattoo ****** on your lips
That's what its like to kiss you.
the smell of death
lingers in my hair where your fingers ran
I don't understand.
why would you **** me with your empathy.
I know nobody cares for me.
the quieter it gets
the more voices I hear.
you had too many choices
And I think you made it clear.
I'm not what you wanted
I let you inside and you left my body haunted.
You taunted me with kisses.
You made me feel false love.
I know no one misses me.
I miss you though.
I'll just go, I'll leave you alone.
But I'll tattoo dead across my eye lids.
So they all know what you did.
I won't live for anyone but you.


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Momma may have called her a bad influence.
But, aren't you still on Daddy's insurance plan?
C'mon step up, and be a Man.
Go out to dinner with the dangerous girl blowing smoke rings.
She's the same as you, were all sinners.
You never know she could be hiding angel wings
under all that thick Blue hair.
She's sort of like a car crash
you can't really help but stare.
What if she's an Angel and God sent her to you as a test.
to see if you'd give his beloved angel your best.
But you were to busy worrying about what
Mom would think and Dad would say
And how She might effect your grades.
But..What if you failed the most important test one day?

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I burnt the roof of my mouth on the words I Love You.
I swallowed the fire so it wouldn't hurt you.
but those words never left the tip of my tongue
they should have been shouted
they should have been sung.
I keep telling myself you knew
but that's just for comfort.
I just knew those words would have burnt.
But now I'm afraid the silence could have hurt you.
I guess a boy who has never been kissed
Had no reason to believe he'd be missed
If he just disappeared.
he may have driven off the road
But it was the Devil himself who steered.
You told your Brother you loved me.
That is, If I'm
"The quiet girl in band merch
Who turns off the world with her headphones
She's just on a search
For lyrics
She cares not for the rhythm or tone.
But to lyrics,
She's addicted.
Her heart is sick
And They're the cheapest medicine
Love is so expensive"
Love is so expensive
That's right, you're brother told me you're secret last night.
He told me what you said.
Your secret really wasn't  safe with him
everything comes out when you're dead.
You should have told me you loved me.
We could have written our own song.
Now I always have my headphones on pretending you're not gone.
It's just pretend.
Once shaken to reality, I remember when we met.
the voice I read and think in
that sounds like no one I've ever met
I heard it come out of you're mouth.
That was it.
I was set.
Once shaken to reality I remember how you left.
******
You were ****** when you took you're last breath.
I never washed the blood off my clothes
It's proof, It shows me you were alive.
You weren't just another imaginary friend.
You were so very very real
It's hard to feel anything but numb
After I'm shaken to reality and realize It's the end.

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