JOUSKA
Talking to myself
Just talking to myself
Debating the pros and cons
Within my own head
Keeping myself amused
In my own bed
By talking to myself
Within my own head
Duality exists
As two thoughts in my head
The good and the bad
Trying to gain control
In my stupid head
As thoughts do patrol
Opposing thoughts in my head
As I talk to myself in my bed
“Jouska” is a Polish word that refers to a hypothetical conversation that someone compulsively plays out in their head. It can be a cathartic dialogue, a devastating comeback, or a crisp analysis. Jouska can generate emotion, which can lead to a corresponding physical reaction. It can serve as a psychological batting cage where someone can connect more deeply with people than in everyday life.
The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows is a compendium of new words for emotions. Its mission is to shine a light on the fundamental strangeness of being a human being—all the aches, demons, vibes, joys, and urges that are humming in the background of everyday life.
The compiler of the Dictionary is John Koenig a video maker, voice actor, graphic designer, and writer. Born in Idaho and raised in Geneva, Switzerland, he created The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows in 2009, first as a blog before expanding the project to YouTube. He lives in Minneapolis with his wife and daughter.