I guess I miss the texts
I guess I miss the love
I guess I miss it all
I guess I fell real hard
For a cruel man
Playing
with a
girl's
mind
and

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Pieces of my heart
are scattered on the floor
and no, it's not fun
and yes, it is mean
the way you tore me up
the way you broke me down
as I was holding on
and being let down
clinging onto you
blinded by the love

I feel so ashamed
the way I let you in
into my heart again
begged myself to be strong
and not to give in
but yes it was hard
trying to be smart
when you were there sitting
messing with my heart
it's breaking
it's bleeding
aching for someone
to heal it again

No amount of alcohol
could make me numb out
the thoughts of you in my head
Desire, lust, love
I have the symptoms
of all of the above
You fit me well
like a glove
You fill me up
like alcohol fills up
an empty glass
You're the champagne
of the night
the thrill I seek
my medicine
my remedy
my one need
You're the venom
without the poison
the love, my hunger it feeds
You set my body free
Spiritually
Emotionally
*Psychically

Constantly hot
Like a cigarette
Always lit

Burning up
Like the sun
Trying to stay cool
Like the midnight moon

Fierce and feisty
Sweet yet spicy
A little sarcastic
A little electric

When you touch
When you kiss
It's like magic

I know me best, who even cares about the rest?
You don't know me, babe, but you wish you did
Oh yes, I bet you do, well no, ***** you
People can say whatever they like
I'll still be the greatest ***** by a mile
Go on, keep hatin' and I'll show my smile
Come on, take my picture if you care so much
You think you know me, you only knew my name
You didn't know my story or my personal pain
Oh you amuse me when you assume ****
You think you're smart, well, you're just an ***
I know me better than you, than you, than you
Don't even fight me 'cuz it's true, so true
Baby, you know me none at all
Excuse me if this sounds criminal
But I think you're a stupid mind
Can't keep on wasting my time
You make me laugh so hard
When you claim to know me well
But you only knew my name
That's all you'll ever know
Because I hate people who assume

Our love is laid bare
It's always here
Every kiss
Every gaze
Is enough
To keep me smiling
For endless days
Your bed is my happy place
Cuddles until the sun shines
Something rare and sweet
You sweep me off my feet

Went to an ice bar
I guess you could say
I felt quite cool
Pardon the pun
If there even is one
Ice queen
NY scene
With my crew
I love them

L.O.V.E you

your words bleed me out
like a razor sharp wound
dying with each cut
that sheds blood
my veins
are almost
certainly empty
just like you left me
decomposition
is in progress
sooner or later
my organs will fail
just like our flawed love
you brought out the best
and worst parts of me
and now as I
bleed dry
I feel dizzy
but free
of my demons
and feelings
broken heart
and false hoping
as well as
these emotions

The worst

It's a weird feeling
Not talking to the one
Who at one point
Meant everything
Used to be a
Potential love
But it was fake
And so was his name
I guess I wish
I could rewind
Maybe we could
Have made it right
But we couldn't
Because I found out
What didn't seem right
I still miss those moments
Even though you
Left my heart
Aching &
Breaking

Do you wanna hold hands?
'Cause I've got no plans
Do you wanna share that blunt?
'Cause I've got none, nothin'
Let's take a walk
Down that road
In the cold dark
Where it's cold
So I got a reason
To pull you in
Don't resist
We both need it
Our love is still there
Just need to remind ourselves
That what we had is precious, my dear
And that no one else can make an ''us''

Always at war with myself
Constantly self-loathing
Lacking in confidence
Blaming my problems
On everybody else
Shutting people out
Is what I'm best at
I'm **** at showing emotion
Although sometimes
My smile cracks
And my pain shows
In my sunken eyes

It's such a pain
Just waking up
Every day
I act like
I'm fine
When in reality
I'm far from
That state of mind
I hide my body
Except my face
So I can fool everyone
With that lie of a smile
That I always embrace
Even though my thoughts
Are always of suffocation
And painful death
No one would know
Because the pain I feel
I never show and tell any soul

I could be smiling so bright
As I'd constantly think
Of the ways I could die
I could laugh out loud
And think of those razor blades
That I'd love to use on my pale skin
But you'd never suspect me thinking of this
Because, there's a lie of a smile on my face

Constantly triggered, yes I am indeed
But that's something you'd never see
Because that's the part of me
That I hide away from every soul
The ones I love mean more to me
Than my own tragic self

Kinda stuck on what to write
or what words to use
to write this
writer's block
or maybe not

I guess when I'm happy
there's not as much creative flow
within me and my body
not as much as when
I'm breaking down
in tears and
trying to heal
my soul

Not much else I can say
or write about
except
happiness
and love

Intense kisses
In the morning
Hot cuddles
In the evening
That is a good
Reason for
Living

Just the feel
Of it all
Makes you
So much more
Comfortable

We have that fire, the kind that makes my heart burn up
An explosion of emotion, and so much
Of that intense love

There's so much of that
My heart goes into overdrive
I guess it's weird
Falling in love
With a guy
Who is different
Than the others
On this planet

No one makes me feel the way he does
He gives me that love buzz
His words bring a warmth
A sense of
'This is love'

Not just a temporary flame
But a more deeper love
The man I've been dreaming of
The one who is part of my thoughts
And those beautiful, fairytale dreams

He gives me a love buzz
He once said
I was the Queen of his heart
What a cute thing
Quoting a Nirvana song
Which is now a part of us

Sometimes I don't seem to realize
How much I love this guy
Until I speak
Before I think
Which makes me feel so tragic
Because he constantly shows me
What true love is
What happiness is
But I'm too blinded to see it
But he knows
I like danger
So he holds on
Just like a devoted lover

Wish he was here
Maybe I'd feel happier
I wish I could cuddle him
And be close to him forever

A bit lovestruck by a perfect guy
who always makes my day
he makes me smile
he makes me laugh
I've definitely got a crush

he takes my breath away
with every word
and sentence
I feel like
I'm in heaven
completely lost in fantasy
day dreaming is now
my favorite hobby

My brain is losing touch with reality
I wish you were here with me
So lonely on my own
Be my everything
And let's make a home
For us to live in
A future for us
To look forward to
Me and you

Heart malfunctions
When I think
Of the times
We made this
Connection

I thought I was insane
This shouldn't be happening
You somehow affected my brain
It left me constantly
Losing my sanity
I shouldn't
Miss you
But I do

Out of nowhere, you call
Tell me you wanna talk
Made me smile
You make
My heart
Beat

yesterday was truly fun
let spring break begin!
I love car selfies
with my besties
so happy
truly

Money means nothing anymore
All it does is ******* up
It gives you power
Maybe that
But mostly
Damages your life

Early morning tea
Sets my soul free
Calms me down
Takes pain away
When by
Myself

Nothing hurts
Nothing aches
In the morning
And I am coping

Mulled wine is so divine.

When I think of love
I think of your smile
When I think of bliss
I think of your arms
When I think of happiness
I think of you and I
to me, you're my love
the angel sent from above
who saved my life
just by being in mine
completing my heart
I found the last puzzle piece
it's you, baby
it's you

My soul ignites when I see your face
my heart races when you speak
I feel like all the puzzle pieces are in place
all I need is your affection
**all I need is your heart

I feel like I have a lump in my throat
Oh wait, those are my unsaid words
I can't seem to fully understand any of it
Is this what a slow, painful death feels like?
Feels like I'm being punished
My throat is choking
On what?
Oh yeah, on all these unsaid sentences
That I can't swallow down
My throat

You're the one I want, nobody else is good enough