I guess I can admit this
I hate your ******* guts
I never truly loved you
Nothing but silly lust
A way to waste time
A way to forget my ex
And since he's mine again
I can finally confess
I used you like a toy
And I have no regrets

I let you go not because I didn't love you, but because I knew that I couldn't be the girl of your dreams. As a girl who falls for people easily, it's hard to maintain a relationship with just one person. I love multiple people. I have never denied that, and no, I don't play with people's feelings, neither do I sleep around or cheat. I just never got over the other breakup, I never healed properly, I just pretended to be fine with how things were, despite it breaking me apart. People call it being a player, I call it being in love. Love makes us want people we can't have, people we can't be with, people we are with but can't see it working forever. I feel like a bad person, for not being able to love just one person and be happily ever after. Emotional attachments are easy to form, but harder to deattach yourself from, it doesn't matter if you're strong or not, if you love more than one person, then you do, and that's just how it is. It doesn't define you, it doesn't make you a **** or a *****. If you're a faithful, loyal person who happens to like or love more than one person, it's okay. It's different if you cheat and lie and date several people at the same time. People never think of the difference before they judge someone and it sickens me. Love isn't a sin, feelings aren't a sin. Breaking hearts and cheating - now that's a sin.

you would've been 59 today
I wish I could have seen your face
it's so sad you passed away
quite long ago
but your memory
it lives on
through me
through your poetry
you were a true artist
I admire that
you were
and always
will be
a talent

Let's party.

This is our second Valentine's Day together
And it seems like forever
Since the day we met
Since the day we spoke
Since the day we fell in love

You mended my heart
Caressed every part
And made me
The happiest girl
To ever walk this earth

Your love is like
A diamond
Precious and rare
Beautiful and magical
The spark is always there

You are my Valentine
You always will be
Because you ignite
The happiness in me

I could write for hours
About what is ours
But I'd rather exchange
A thousand kisses
A million hugs
To celebrate
Our love

You don't need
To buy me flowers
Or expensive gifts
Or red roses
I already
Have this
Diamond ring
Which is truly
Precious

expressing emotion
is not a crime
nor a sin

His face makes mine blush
Reminds me that
I have a sweet love
Who needs me
As much as I need him
He makes me so happy
My heart is smiling within

As much as I despise it
My love for you is

                                    F A R
Beyond the hatred.

I love your sinful,
beautiful ways,
of playing with,
my heartstrings.

I guess I love...everything.
Your ugly sins.
Your beautiful lies.
Your tainted feelings.
How I wish I could despise.

Oh, your anger.
Oh your clever ***** ways,
of playing with my heartstrings.

Your filthy hands covered in my blood of love.
You never even had the chance to put on gloves.

Got a concrete heart and a mind of stone
But whenever he sends me a text
I lose myself
I wanna have him in bed
I wanna kiss him
When we're all alone
He's constantly on my mind

I want to be his wife
Be his forever
He's my life
I hope he knows
That my heart
Is falling under
Feelings dragging me down
But it feels so good
I wanna drown in his love
And take him with me
To heaven

He's my light
He's my heart
He keeps it beating
I love that man
He keeps me sane
Keeps my heart warm
With tender love
And filthy lust
I could kiss him forever
And never get enough
Just the way I feel
When he talks to me
Drives me crazy
Put it on repeat

I want him next to me
I want him on me
I want him to strip my soul
Of it's fear and self control
I want the *** to make me insane with lust
I want this love to last
Like a song that plays
On repeat

The thought of seeing your face today
is enough to make me smile with joy
not sure if you even still like me
but your words say the truth
and I know it's going to be
a very beautiful day
to be alive and sane
and to be insane
with lovely hope
and maybe
bittersweet
intense thoughts
of the one I
haven't seen
in all these months
I hope you like me
just as much as I
like your face

Love can heal you
Love can damage you
Even the best
Can hurt the most
Not always
Just sometimes

Friends like these
I truly love
These girls
Are my life
They've been
A part of mine
For so long
17 years strong

Your words affect me
More than they should
You're so heavenly
Couldn't give you up
Even if my heart tried

You ignite the happiness in me
You make me feel worthy
You have such a hold
I honestly hope you know

You spark a fire in my heart
I swear without you
I would fall apart

You are everything
All I want and more
One hit of your love drug
And I'm hooked for life

Sweet and mysterious
Your love is my weakness
Can't live without it
If I even attempted
My heart would break

Love has gone to my head
Losing my mind over this
But I know that this is real
I can't deny what I feel

We exchanged expressions
We shared our emotions
We gave each other love
We went through it all

I loved you
You loved me
That's how it should be
But now, it's different
We're no longer equal
Now, our love is on the pavement
Seems like we had a downfall

The love is there
But not like before
Before it was passion
Now, there's nothin'
Except our hearts
Aching to re-start
Reunite
But we're too stubborn
To make this work

I miss how it used to be
You and me

You cut through my feelings
like scissors cut through paper
and with every false promise
I feel my blood getting thinner
as my heart grows weaker
can't you see through my smile?
the anguish in my sunken eyes
or the way I lose control of
my inner thoughts
as soon as you go

my heart can beat without you
but it can't feel love
it can only feel pain
because you left it broken
as you can clearly see
I am Human**.

Text message made me hyper
Especially when it's from her

Hate.

You.

You left my heart for dead, stuck the voices in my head. Wired me to believe, that love wasn't for me to keep. You kept me playing the wicked game, until I couldn't take the pain. I was broken, bruised, over you, I didn't know what to do. I was lied to, pleased, quite used to the hatred in sight, the one I thought was love. Memories held me up, kept me from drowning. The love was tough, broke me up, it was overpowering. People say, pay your dues, give a little part of you. Hopefully it will be enough, to sustain a practical love, the one you've been dreaming of. Maybe it will make sense, all the times he broke your heart, shaded your existence. All the times he kissed your lips, the kisses that left you smitten, that left you addicted. All the times he held you tight, and made you feel alright. All the times you fell for the same lies as before. All the times he walked out of that door, left you wanting more.

every time we ****
you can just feel
the passion
underneath
those sheets

I usually never
speak of this
but I'll be
honest

he's amazing
not just in bed
but in general
love is healing
love is thrilling
love is exciting

the chemistry
behind two lovers
as they ****
the misery
out of
each other

love can't be censored
it's meant to be explicit

Bricks lay upon you when
You try to love again
It's never easy
To pretend
Like you
Never
Cared

You gave your heart
You gave your heart
Only to be crushed
Burned into ashes

Never did you meet
Such a person
Of interest

You tried to see
The good in love
All you got was
Memories
Heartbreak
And a whole lot
Of pain, so discreet
Yet, it left you weak
Love can be
A beast
Death in
Disguise

Used to think we'd be nothing more than innocent friends, now I gaze in your eyes when I wanna take a trip to the stars, and when I need a fix, I dial your digits and you give me it, the butterflies flutter and I wonder, how would life be if you weren't soothing me to sleep, or hugging me tightly until my sadness didn't seem to exist?

Give me your time and
I'll give mine
I love you so *much

sometimes I want discipline
sometimes I want affection
sometimes I crave structure
sometimes I crave pleasure
sometimes I need isolation
sometimes I need protection

sometimes..

I want to be yours
sometimes I don't

terrible at making decisions
making choices
is something I can
but cannot do
I really can't

I sound like a player
but I'm really not
I just love too much

I love multiple people
which causes trouble
and creates chaos
my feelings run havoc
as I'm busy
trying to deny it

People* say
Don't clog up your brain
with too much information

I kissed you
In the rain
As our love
Became
True

Baby
I'm in love
With you

You're the fire
Heating up my heart
Kiss me until
I'm love drunk

Sugar and spice
Isn't needed
To describe
How much
I love
Your face
And your eyes
And the passion
From all the loving
Embraces and more
This is the cure
For all sadness
For sure

you took my innocence
during that one night of lust
we were both seventeen
the night we made love
and it felt so right
I thought you
were my
soulmate
but I guess
we're all wrong
sometimes in life

Insecurities are out to play.

They break me to an extent.

drives me to the edge most days,
it's not something that I can't figure out,
just leaves me speechless.

the amount of doubt,
in my head and heart,
my blood veins feel like,
they're going to,
explode.

Just the thought of you
sends chills down my spine
reminds me of the one
who used to be mine
the one I adored
who then left
as my heart
lost it's glow

I'm still heavily drunk
on my intense thoughts
as I pour wine into my glass
taking sips as I think of the past
reminding myself of your eyes
the way they glanced at my face
thinking of your hands
how you explored my skin
with your fingertips

A flame that is now burnt out
but I'm still here
drunk on intense thoughts

he spoke to me
on the phone
last night

it gave me a fright
the anxiety was back
you sounded so calm
left me feeling numb

I heard your lips say
ever so gently
that you missed me

we spoke for hours
then I heard her voice
you said you had to go
and we'd talk tomorrow
I replied a short goodbye
and today at 9
you sent me a text
I guess I smiled

kiss me right there
wipe away my tears
watch a movie
or two with me
before the end
interrupt
with a kiss

Nothing but positive vibes
Happiness in the air
That, it seems

Intrigued how people
Fall victim to deceit
And greed
What makes
A person
Want to seek
Levels in which
They cannot reach?

There is no need
For reverse
Psychology
All you need
Is to think
Like the one
Who you are
Intrigued by

Maybe it's their intelligence
Or their lack of remorse
Maybe the way they act
And are well spoken
With their words

It's those simple things
That tell the tale
Of how this man
Or this woman
Made you feel
Intrigued.

heal, release, set free
never hold a flame
unless you want
it to burn
your hand
keep it close
but far away
in your heart
it will always remain