Automatic heat, attraction, I am smitten by the love, it's become an addiction, such a religion and a powerful drug. I adore you and I love you, it is what I cling to, I'm your baby, little lady, you're my lover and forever, all I ever asked for.

Turning 22 this month
In eight days
To be exact
Not really in
The party mood as such
People wreck it
In more ways than one
I'd rather just get drunk
And fall asleep on my own
I don't care about parties
Not even birthday shots
All I want is white wine
To have a good time

All I knew is that he made me feel safe
I'm usually under lock and key
but he makes my heart weak
just from declaring his love for me

it's sweet as hell when a guy
wants nothing more
than your beating heart
and precious soul

when you find the one for you
your heart will know
just from the electric chemistry
and the way you lose your mind
to love's insanity whenever he speaks
how he can make you feel alive
just from a simple sentence
then you know
the chemistry
is electric

you've been let down so many times in the past
you nearly forgot what true passion was
until that man came and changed
your mind about love

Temporary feelings
Developed
Into something
Extreme

It developed
Into love
A strong kind too
I can feel the electric connection
Every time we touch
Can you see the sparks?
When it's just me and you
I can seem them
But mostly
I see you

Struck up a conversation
Fell into a live situation
Complicated equation

There's this girl I know
Her name is Elise
and she's cute

People made me feel so empty
People made me feel so lost

People made me feel ugly
They filled me with self hate

And now I cry when I hear a song on the radio
That reminds me of the love that I lost long ago

And now I cry when I see friends holding hands
Reminding me of the ones I have loved and lost

I have never felt like I belonged anywhere
People called me names and pushed me away
Made me feel like I was to blame...

I have never felt any true love
Neither physical or emotional

No one ever made me feel fine
No one ever made me feel like
I had someone to call my own
No one ever truly stayed here
So now I drown my sorrows in
My tears that I've been savin'
Here

you were meant to be the armor
instead you're the one
pulling the trigger

how unfortunate
that you turned out like that
such a waste of a life
all the words I guess
you didn't mean any of it
I didn't expect anything less
all you ever did
was talk *******

au revoir though
I'll be gone
before
you have a chance
to feel any sorrow

your words are pointless
they have no value
they lost all that
because of you

Touch is electric
Aftermath is epic

Ain't got no watch
But I know it's time
To make a stand
For your rights
I believe in love
Nothing else

once had a dream
never knew
what it meant
until I met him

then I realized
we were connected
all this entire time
the puzzle piece
fitted just right
found a match

his existence
makes me feel
so much joy
my best friend
and soulmate
until the end

I love him so.

I think you're amazing
I think you're kind
I think you're caring
You're always on my mind

Your name makes me smile
When it shows up on my phone
It makes me appreciate
Every moment of life

You're breathing art
Every moment
Is in tact
Wrapped up
In sweet love
You, I dreamt of
And got to hold
Who cares
About
American dreams
Love is above
And beyond all
For you
I'd take the fall
Because I know
You would too
Spent my life
Looking for bliss
I found happiness
In your eyes
In your touch
In your arms
In your I love you's
And electric charm

Sober thoughts spill out
Every time I drink
Endless silence
When I smoke
Deep moments
of thought
And of us

your love takes me places
I never knew I wanted to go
the reason my heart races
when you and I lose control
whether in bed or the floor
I will never stop
wanting more

we burned bridges
then made amends
swore never to think
negative thoughts again
about ourselves or our love

we made a promise
to stay through
thick and thin
until the world
came crashing down
until the stars exploded
in the midnight sky
until the day
it breaks
you & I

people told me it was wrong
to love a man so strong
told me to leave
while I could
but the love
I have for you
is too intense
unlike a small fire
it can't burn out
being without you
would be like
being stuck
in the dark

your heart is my treasure
your touch is my desire
without you here with me
I'd sink like an anchor

my heart could explode
from love gone overboard
the intensity of it all
is so difficult to ignore
I fall harder than I did
the day I saw you
standing by that door
constantly falling
harder than I ever did
before and after

every time we kiss
I feel my heart ignite
I can feel the butterflies
I can feel those sparks
fly into the air
when you're near

when I hear your name
I scribble it on notebooks
when I see your face
I almost lose my senses
everything falls into place
when you're next to me
I love seeing you every night
when you're wide awake
when you're sound asleep
I feel like I live in a dream
seems too good to be real
but it is, truly is
the man of my dreams
is here in person
not just in my mind
or in my thoughts

fanbases are competitive
their insults are repetitive
hatred never stops
compassion doesn't seem to exist
music doesn't seem to matter
as long as fans of artists
are battling each other
music is supposed
to bring peace
not start pathetic wars
what has become of us?
we're not music lovers
we are hatred followers

spread love, not hate
it's not too much to ask

It's been a journey
Of ups and downs
A rollercoaster ride
I never want
To be on
Ever again

Despite that
I'm blessed
For my friends
For my parents
For the love of my life
For my beautiful dog
For all the memories
We have shared
And captured
Throughout
This year

Have a good 2014
May the year
Be a blessed one

I always feel so down
knowing she's not here
helping me smile again
and wiping away my tears
she was my favorite poet
such a beautiful heart
makes me
want
to
be
put
to rest
with
the one
who made
me smile
the brightest

I could never forget her face
or her infectious laugh
the way the room would shine
when she walked in
her personality shined
like the sun
her hugs
are what
I miss
the
most

it's been three years
and I'm still grieving the loss
of my favorite poet
the one who
gave my heart
warmth
enough
strength to
re-start
re-activate

her death changed the way
I looked at life
she taught me that
life can easily begin
but also
very easily
end

That legacy of hers will never fade
Even though she's far away
Up in those clouds
Those clouds of white
She's the most beautiful star
In this entire, darling sky

Her face, I haven't seen in years
The girl who left a hole in our hearts
Sidonie was a blessing to know
My love continues to grow
The poet with a mind of gold
Her poems brought out the best
In people, young and old

I miss her constantly
And I lost myself
A thousand times
She truly was
The shining light
But when she died
I seemed to fall apart
Got lost in my sadness
And fell in love with the dark
I miss my favorite poet so much.

Birthday next month
Which is why
I am Miss March
Born on the tenth
Of the third month
Of every year
I'm not liking
The thought of
Getting older
Makes me more
Insecure
Than I was
The year before
It reminds me
That I'm not a kid
I am a young adult
I am a young woman
Who is maturing
And growing
And changing
More mood swings
More diet failures
College graduation
My hands are shaking
I'm lost in translation
My mind is spinning

I gave you permission to hold my heart
You held it in the palm of your hands
Promised not to break it apart
It was a risk and I took the chance
Soon it was clear that you were the one
I felt like my heart had won
the winning prize
But soon it was clear
That he fooled my eyes
with filthy lies
and broken promises

This man had my happiness
in the palm of his hands
He knew that I was weak
so he used it to his advantage
as I loosened my defence

His mouth talked *******
but his body meant business
I can tell by the way he said my name
as we walked during our dates

He was a liar but honest about his past
Gave you a one-way ticket to paradise
made you weak as you fell for the eyes
who ultimately deceived you not once
but oh so many **wicked times

Lips like sugar, you taste so sweet
your touch makes me feel complete
you cause my heart to skip a beat
every time you pull me close
when we kiss and hug

I can't help but, to stare and smile
every time you hold me down
to our couch of love
it's not my fault I fell so hard
you're so hot and perfect
like the finest piece of art

It's the sensation
Of someone
Tracing
Love hearts
On your skin
The ecstasy
When you're
In the heaven
Of which is
Pure passion
The kind of feeling
Like no other
That gives healing
Makes you crave
That bliss
Forever

When I lay in bed, I think of you
I wanna cry my eyes out
When I'm awake, I think of us
I wanna tear your heart up
Not for lying, but for saying
That you loved me and ****
And for playing with my emotions
Like I was losing myself
No more venom in my system
But I'm still not over your presence
You are haunting and consuming
Sometimes I hate my own existence
You were amazing, ******* amazing
But it was all an illusion
Now I'm smashing
All the mirrors
Because I no longer
Feel safe behind closed doors
You were a liar but I fooled myself
Into thinking you were your true self
My heart keeps beating for someone
Who was lying to keep me in their bed
As if I didn't suffer enough
You filled my head
With thoughts of forever
Really thought we'd be together

Fell
into a deep hole
that I had dug up
with my bare hands
That dark hole
was called *Love

In your words
I *found comfort
In your eyes
I found clarity
In your heart
I found trust
In you
I found security

gaze so strong
I nearly fainted
a kiss so powerful
I felt sedated
a spark so wicked
left me feeling electric

you are the stars
to my sky
I see heaven
in your eyes
every night

I see your smile
and I come alive

no fool
could take me
away from you

Officially a week
Feeling weak
As a stick
People shoot
People aim
Yet, I'm to blame
Don't worry
I'm used to it

Go ahead, leave me behind
watch as my heart breaks
and my soul loses it's light
as you destroy me
and my mind

poison my heart with lies
feed my brain empty promises
and remember my face
as you watch me die inside
with tears filling my eyes
and a smile covering up the pain

leave me behind, but remember
I'll always cherish your love
as it was raw and tender*
even though you left me broke
feels like someone put my heart in a blender*
and left me with a glass of pain
which tasted bitter

It's been a while since I've written
Not as creative when I'm not ridden
Ridden with emotion, feeling explosion
Not as creative when my eyes are open
Open by clarity, love and insanity
I'm pretty sure this poem *****
But oh well, gold will soon emerge
From the ruins of creativity
The little glow inside of me

You don't love me
Yet, you call me hot
Is it bad
That I liked hearing
You say it?

Got it bad
For the greatest person
That I'll never have
As my own precious love