- - Hello Poetry

- Sep 2013

I fantasize about you
It's so twisted though
Because you broke me
But I let you do so
Didn't feel the need
To ever let go?

Everything is still here
Except yourself
I think I'd fall apart
Watching you love
Someone else
Or watching you
Act as if I don't exist
Or that there was once
An ''us''

- Sep 2013

Bitter Pill

Your love was sweet
I was hooked
From the first taste
I was addicted
Didn't want it
To go to waste

It was a bitter pill
That I wanted to swallow
But now, I regret
Ever taking that risk
Because now, I feel sick
The pain won't go away today
Or even tomorrow.

- Sep 2013

Poetic Sext

Lipstick smeared,
wine bottle emptied,
I just need you,
to get me hot,
& bothered.

- Sep 2013

Waiting For Nothing

I check my phone,
all the time,
hoping for a text,
from the one who left,
the one who owns my heart,
but as usual, nothing from you,
like, girl, I ******* love you so strongly,
I know I was a fool but I want you near me,
I can't sleep or eat when we're apart,
I fall asleep in the dark, tears making my eyes hurt,
I stay up every night, waiting for a text,
an 'I miss you' text that I'll never get.

- Sep 2013

Spend The Night

A smile hides a lot
Don't you think?
It can hide utter despair
As you stare into
That broken mirror

Reflecting upon broken love
And wishing it could mend
You still fit me like a glove
Can't we at least pretend?
I don't want it all to end

You are always on my mind
**** the misery out of my body
At least spend the night in my bed
Without you, I feel incomplete, baby

You heal me, break me, know me
Can't get you out of my head
Release me, set my body free
Just one night without regret
In the bed where we fell in love

- Sep 2013

Come Back Please

I am such an emotional mess
Just so **** ******* sad
Feels like my heart is
Drowning in un-cried tears
I feel so bad, sickened by myself
I ****** up so much
I lost my best friend
She was my everything
Feels like I have nothing
I spend my nights crying
Feeling so bad these days
I miss that girl so much
I owe her my life
She was always there
But I was an idiot towards her
Sitting here guilt tripping
So many emotions
My heart and brain
Is almost exploding
Honestly wish I had a gun
I'd have so much fun
Pointing it to my head
Ending my horrendous pain
I lost the love of my life
Again and again and again
I had the best person alive
But I messed everything up
And now I just wanna die.

- Sep 2013

Painful Flashback

there are times I think of
those times we used to kiss
there are moments I think back
wishing I was still in your arms

but you're gone and done
now I'm trying to pick up
the pieces but I can't move on

I tried to let it go, for sure
but I can't lie to myself anymore
you're the one I want

I can't pretend to just breathe in
loving you was my worst sin
you were my deadliest addiction