Always busy, I keep busy. Don't need another mystery. Half broke in my pockets, will always make the best of what I have. Don't need love, don't need any help.  I'm better off by myself. I'm a work overtime, I'm a make this work worth my time. Checks half way gone but oh well, I'm ready to start a new journey as well. Two different worlds, plenty of singalongs girls.
Always got knives in my back and I've got trust hanging in the air. I'll always be ready to let this take me anywhere. Not going to search, I'm sit here and work. If someone is interested maybe give it a try. I've got nothing to hide.

I think I know why you don't remember all the good things we accomplished together.
My flaws have you chained and you trying to walk away caused my issues to drag you along the path. I know I'm not fully forgiven, but I truly am a changed man. Forget the drama and forget the petty comments. I will always live my life loving you and I will not hold on to the past. What's the past going to do for me? The past ain't going no where, it's my actions. But as long as if I'm not the man who is the "**** up"
I'm sure you'll truly see the real me, not the man who screws up everything he touches. I may still make mistakes, but what's a life without mistakes? Sounds like a nightmare to me. I'm a good man

You're going to tell me that I'm a known bad guy for eternity. All because I've cheated in the past, here's a lesson.  Younger relations are known to have knives in your back. Heartache, heartbreak, risks to take. I can't count how many relationships I've ******* up. But that's the true definition of tough love. I've got future lessons to learn. Treat everyone like it's my last one not about to burn. Cheaters learn, commitment hurts. That's the way it'll always be. For the rest of eternity.
Relationships so complete, some toxics will disagree. Others try to compete. I'm on a search and there's plenty of fish out at sea.
couples with matching sealfies. Toxic relationships filled with some counseling. What are relationships without passwords?
Lack of trust and real worth.

His nightmares belong to no privacy like here you go y'all can have it. I've trusted the wrong now I'm talking to the world it's like hate hacked it. But for real tho, I'm drunk and depressed bro. The one time I open, it's like the bottle caved on in. Hope so high, lightning struck, it's a storm but apparently it's tough love. Not much to say
"stay strong"
You've got this! Happens to the best of us, but time will bring happiness!
***** I don't wanna stay strong and wait for happiness. I just want to be me, be happy to suffer mentally. Like the real ones! one day it'll be more than enough. I bet the world fell before it rose up. Blooming like the rest of us.

I'm mentaly feeling the pain, wrong motivation drives me insane. I look at myself and see failures. No ones hates me as much as I hate myself. Always joking, sinking potential so I'm not floating. I plead, try to succeed, tempted to bleed, why is this happening to me? Felt so ugly, leave me be.
The world goes against me. I've lost confidence but gained the weight. I'm told it's never too late. But mentally I break.

Can't really explain the past.
I'll help you understand how it felt.
Been in a relationship with my mental hell
Toxic but who gives a ****, I'm under a spell.
In love with disappointment should I purpose?
I'm in between regrets and depression.
Lied & cheated is something I've done, that's something i should mention.
I put time into change.
Guess whose about to disappear again?
I can be that better person,  but it's always for nothing.
Go ahead Nel, you're not going to have anything but wasted time.
Won't even be a delay.
Might as well isolate for the day.
I've always ignored my writing sessions for love. Guess my feelings went to waste.
I've started and put out flames to be replaced.
I use to think my heart was pure as gold,
But reality ******* me, put me on "hold"
Ashes filling the air. I'm burning in the cold and now I'm reconizing this isn't fair.
(Wait Nel, you think lifes fair?)
Sky got way to dark,I'm falling apart. Even gold can deteriorate Guess that's what I have to expect whenever i hear the word "break"

Memories taking control of how I think, I'm having difficulties making a decision. There's comfort with these tears creeping down my face. Use to go to bed paranoid because I never had my own place. I guess you can call it homelessness, I always felt so homeless. Depression my number one rival. I'm fight for survival. Threw me enemies like doubt and anger. Regrets filled me with anxiety now I'm a one man army.
These insecurities won't leave me alone, I'm laying down screaming to my health! After I settle down I began counting my flaws, how could I have done this to myself?
Has anyone cried in the car with the music loud, get out and play it off? Act like everything's okay. Please tell me I'm not the only one! With this survival I'm barely holding on. Rivalry has me paranoid all the time! Give me peace because I'd like that to be mine.
Why do I have to battle the rival?
This feels so awful!
I've been the one to sit in a corner letting the silence numb my hearing. Disappointment is something Everyone's fearing.
Drop some pills or some alcohol and chill out. We're in a igloo chilling. Alcohol consumption and insecurities consuming!
How about we have a meeting and just talk about it, about to take a minute for the speech. We're all struggling and on a search for some peace.