Can't really explain the past.
I'll help you understand how it felt.
Been in a relationship with my mental hell
Toxic but who gives a ****, I'm under a spell.
In love with disappointment should I purpose?
I'm in between regrets and depression.
Lied & cheated is something I've done, that's something i should mention.
I put time into change.
Guess whose about to disappear again?
I can be that better person,  but it's always for nothing.
Go ahead Nel, you're not going to have anything but wasted time.
Won't even be a delay.
Might as well isolate for the day.
I've always ignored my writing sessions for love. Guess my feelings went to waste.
I've started and put out flames to be replaced.
I use to think my heart was pure as gold,
But reality ******* me, put me on "hold"
Ashes filling the air. I'm burning in the cold and now I'm reconizing this isn't fair.
(Wait Nel, you think lifes fair?)
Sky got way to dark,I'm falling apart. Even gold can deteriorate Guess that's what I have to expect whenever i hear the word "break"