I'm full of anxiety,
doubts filling my thoughts now I'm full of
"PTSD"
I've got no personal space.
Always anxious for the worse, I've been doubting my worth.
I'm damaged inside and out.
Emotionally in danger, I smile at a stranger.
The way they hurt me....
makes me feel like everyone's after me
The way I was left, the way everyone laughed and mocked me.
I'm sick of the hurt, with every beautiful promises lied away some discomfort.
***** the difference? Why do I owe you? **** everyone and ******* too!
Ope, I'm sorry I'm impulsively bipolar, I'm full of disorders.
Detachment issues too.
I hate change but I don't want some things to go away. At the same time I miss the old days.
I flinch, I struggle, I cry, and I'm angry.
I'm emotionally damaged.

I love to be left on read.
I think I'd rather be left alone instead.
It's not like life is going anywhere in a hurry.
I'll drink till visions blurred, eat till I fall asleep, and laugh until I cry.
I am my own man, I'm my own consequences.
Until I approve of one other to take over my personal well being and authority..... I will remain happily independent.

I'll miss the conversations about life on the slow hours, I'll miss the smiles with coffee in hand.
A fresh ***.
DELTA 14, Will you please rest easy?
I'll mark you down
(DELTA 14 - 10-25)
I know we didn't have much in this small town.
But you sure always knew how to fix a smile.
Dispatch to Delta 14 Rest easy bub I'll be sure there is a *** of coffee ready every chance given to me.

I have learned
healing takes it's own time
you can't over power
you can't rush
you can't demand
you can only give yourself time.
Distractions not always the key, but your emotions will still be on lockdown.
you've got to allow yourself to want to feel better.

A beautiful sky, a beautiful view of the light.
Cup of coffee and breakfast full of delight.
There's just something special of the world saying hello, trees and plants still strong and beautiful.
A beautiful scene, a beautiful feeling.
It is a good morning