To your can't, I say won't,
and that's fine, love. That's fine.
To your try, I say don't,
and that's fine, love. That's fine.
To each failed attempt,
I say wasted ambition.
To your look of confusion,
I say you wouldn't listen.
To your heartfelt regret,
I say no need, it's fine.
I felt loved for a while
and that's mine, love. That's mine.

I went to bed with a Ghost tonight,
he slid in by my side--
all gentle-like,
all lovely hands,
that held me, long and tight.

I went to sleep with a Ghost tonight,
I lay here in his arms--
a wisp of a kiss,
a loving caress--
his touch so warm and right.

I fell in love with a Ghost tonight-
he says nothing at all-
just holds me close,
my lovely Ghost,
and wards away the sky.

I left my Ghost alone tonight,
away from his touch.
He leaves me, too-
at dawn, too soon.
Alone, I face this petty light.

we spend our whole lives
with one goal in mind
in pursuit of something far too hard to find
every minute we give to intangible ideals
we grasp for air
               as we fall
                           behind

a police man
a priest
a dancer on a pole
we’re all just the same
we’re all searching for souls
for our own – or another
for one of a kind
to be different
and the same
but we’re too **** blind

to see what’s infront of us or even look around
to see what’s going down
around
and if we don’t take a minute to look around
                 …we’re all going down
we’re all going
       d
           o
              w
                  n

you scream,
WE’RE IMPRISONED
to a society numbed
eyes still forward
in a line
ten-hut!
sit, stand, come

while the evening news informs us
the media involves us
the remote control controls us
and the grocery store consoles us
I have to think,
            well, I must ask…
                               what do we work for
                                anymore?

Bridges burned,
no turning back.
The night --
our sanctuary --
claimed its toll.
Sense or senseless?
The choice was
   ours --
risks were weighed
on whatever scale
our conscience
   held;
and so too was weighed
the value of our sin...
Rain fell hard
against a scene
black as our souls --
a lonely light
glowed: ghostly
   as our fate.
Whispers sealed
our pact in hell.
What we did
would bind us tight --
no guilt...and no
   redemption.

"In the days of the monkeys,
I ate their brains,"
he turned to me and laughed,
that hollow sound
which could never fill our void,
nor turn back time --
not even erase the mockeries
we made of feigned virtue,
   faded glory --
devout adornment of the false gods
   of fate.
No murderer can lay claim
to a moniker graced with deity,
laced with the untruths
   of the human soul,
(a condition born of
pre-ordained expediency).
The human condition
creates a killer --
defines the scope of ******,
   of murderer.

I looked at him --
my voice distant and low,
"In the days of the monkeys,
we may not have been
   the same."

It’s fragile and fleeting and filled with fear
Tentative, uncertain, uncomfortably near

Loss

The losing of you; horrifying, insane
Picking and tearing, hurting my brain

Loss

Of you is foreign, extreme
Never considered even in wildest dream

Loss

It hangs on nothing though intrinsically tied
To my life and your life, it waits as it hides

Loss

Of your breath will suffocate mine
Turn me inwards and upwards and over the line

Loss

It’s fragile and fleeting and filled with fear
Tentative, uncertain, uncomfortably near

yeah.
u are prettier without me.
i'm cancer.
i'm ****.
i'm a plaster cast of ur ideal man.
i'm empty.
i'm far gone.
i'm ****** music.
i'm death.
u r purity.
innocence.
kindness.
love.
i'm death over and over again.

i won't live much longer.

u deserve a family,
someone who u can pass ur love to.

i'm gone.
i'm gone.
i'm gone.

i loved you more than anyone,
but i started ******* u over and couldn't stand it,
because u were the sweetest person
i ever met.

be happy.
              find someone kind,
                                         someone that is handsome.

let me fall into the shadows
like i was destined to.
   let me dissolve into nothing.
let me die alone.
    
                  whether
rope                or             bullet,

                  whether
alcohol            or             smoke,

let my self loathing conquer.

go on.
keep moving.
ever forward.

i hope u find heaven,
                     i hope u find picket fences.
ur pure.
ur perfect.

i miss u, but can't have u.

because i'm the antichrist.


i'm the apocalypse.


the nails in the crucifix.



the cancer u can't eat.

keep moving.
keep moving.
keep moving.

i love u more than anything and thats why i can't have u,
because i'm satan, and u deserve bliss.

i can't be selfish.

kiss those other boys,
                       they won't let u down.

i will self destruct
                      and worship the memory of u.

Whenever I'm with you,
I don't hear our clothing fall.
nor the change in our breath,
or the neighbors down the hall.

There is no sound in between us
the heat then speaks instead
it dances with us, back and forth
leaving sentences in sweat.

I have never heard hesitance,
or shame when we are close.
I hear nothing but the sweet nothings
that we already know

So to me we lay in silence,
which is strange to all but us
but our true love is deafening
if you listen hard enough.

Everyday I wake up a lil more crazy then the day before
having a hard time dealing I'm about to walk out the door.
Can't deny myself no longer this pain I keep inside
put in so many years, can't say I haven't tried.
No longer feel the joys I once had when I was young
my anger flows so freely now, my weapon is my tongue.
Wake up with so much pain, I cannot feel a thing
looking for an out something only death can bring.
Been sittin on the devil's lap while he whispers n my ear,
tellin me "It's ok now, just do it, there is nothing left to fear."
In a world of all these people and alone I carry it all
I use to walk so self- assured now I stumble and I fall.
Can't go back to where I was no matter how I try
reaching out to emptiness and all the while I cry.
I never meant to hurt noone and most of all myself
but life is such a lonely place when you cannot be yourself.
Oh my god I hope you forgive me for what I'm about to do
nevermind, forget all that, for you weren't there when I needed you.