All the hidden thoughts of anyone I ever knew
Are now
Revealed

Winding down green roads
Toward ethereal suns
An infinity of flowers show their colors at last
I smell them one by one
I have time for that now

All the evils that stripped me of sanity
Are now
Understood

You didn't have to
Tell me you know
What do you think you know
Anyway
Certainty is illusive yet we were together
This was real and I can't bear the thought that it wasn't.
Shuffling next to me in the hallway
Not responding to my questions but listening to me intently
Fighting my brother when I asked you to
Quick, kiss me behind the garage before
I switch schools before
I lose myself

On the painting of my face that you made
Which took you 30 hours
In the corner, in tiny handwriting
"Hey, I like you."
You didn't have to
Tell me you know
You were always so obvious without saying a thing.

I’m writing these lines instead of distracting myself from you
So that I may finish what needs to end and begin what needs to start
Sweet, sweet anticipation
Dripping, all glitter and gold
Down from my ceiling onto my pillowcase
Deep into my dreams
Descending a spiral staircase
Heavy, patient footsteps
Be patient as the light pours through the window!
creating a warm aura on the angel fluffs
that float by the river, little travelers, fairies if you will
Now I’ve sunk so deep into distraction that I ask
what fraction of my life has occurred
inside and outside of my mind

I’m too far gone to hold anything against you
I want you pressed heavy on me
so that I may feel small in the best way
so that I may feel
someone is truly looking at me
and not through me

It’s you, again
Painting my nails in your room
Dark greens and reds
though you are pink and orange to me, sweeter than cookies and juice
Sweeter than Tetris sound effects
Sitting close and looking away from your eyes
wishing now that I hadn’t so I could see you again in my head