Its as if
A solemn oath
To reminiscence
Had memories
Had dreams
Are you tired of me yet?
It just seems
A luxury given
Fluffed pillows
Explaining the simplicity of slumber
Had a memory
Your a dream
Are you gone from me yet?
It was fact
Actuality
Nirvana upon purple hills
Had memories
Haunted dreams
Are you done with me yet?
It was peaceful
A gloomy rainy day
A solemn oath
A luxury given
Fluffed pillows
Nirvana upon purple hills
Delicious night
Filled by yellow pills
Are you high off me yet?
Its as if
You were a memory
Within a dream
A haunted nightmare
So it seemed
Stuck in limbo
Or purgatory
No longer deserving your glory
Naive
Gentle
Kisses
Sweet and simple
Sent me flying high
Are you tired of me yet?
Leave me to runaway
I'm Wilson
Castaway
I am gone from you yet..
Nirvana on purple hills
Fought the fray
Are you done with me yet?
Roaming
To home im phoning
Airplanes
Night walkers
Street and sweet talkers
Getting high off me yet?

Universal love
Corresponding hearts
Beating tandem
In tune
In tune
Ohh if I was sure
Id let it be known
Cause we've been here
Taken me there
High upon high
Laying beneath soil
Touching skies
Flowers
In bloom
In bloom
Tell me of something
Has poison ever ***'d lips
Making it unreasonable
To mistake this
Tune in bloom
Mary
Mary
Sweet David and Joseph
Blasted hits
Beyond stars
You've dragged me closer
Still so far
In tune
In bloom
Vile bitter taste
****** from a tip
Drank slowly
Drunken sips
I've dreamed
Excuse nightmares
Visions of you
Mary
Mary
Sweet you and I
Revelry
One hell of a guy
The face that kills
Murderer of the night
In tune
In bloom
Given up fight
Ohh Mary
Mary
Martha too
It wasn't I
But demons
That chased you
Sweet David
Dance your jig
With a fiddle mans tune
In bloom
In bloom
Only by the day
Has the end come clear
Mary
Holds Martha
Out of fear
David clutch his hand
Beg for mercy
On our behalf
Once again
Universal love
Corresponding hearts
Adam loved Eve
As the time starts
Ohh what a lovely garden
Hidden between thighs
Cause we've been there
High upon high
Laying beneath you
Scratching skies
Sweet David and Joseph
Has poison ever ***'d your lips
****** from a tip
Mary
Mary visions of you
Revelry
Murderer of the night
The face that kills
Mary
Mary
Martha too
Dance your jig
Forget the demons
That chase you

The runner

Far from my reach
Listen to me
Paradise up yonder
Don;t have to ponder
Answers up high
Far from my grasp
Speechless gasp
Paradise from afar
Heavens know
Where i
Are
Lord oh Lord
You've blessed my soul
Sent a paradise
Only i know
Lighters ready
Ready
Set
Blow
Paradise
Paradise
Melted mixture
Needle
Spoon
Paradise
Im coming
Soon
Close to my hands
Running through my veins
Paradise
Sweet home of mine
Time flies
Laying on my spine
Gardens of lilies
Daffodils
Purple valleys
Yellow pills
Paradise
Sounding surrender
Lovely vice
Shooting stars
Paradise
Where
I
Becomes
Our
Glorious place
To meet again
Paradise
You are sin

Murray

Crooked road
Dragging down
Satanic dimensions
Twirling
Spinning
Unfocused camera
Snap shot
Tapping nails
Scraping walls
Harlot in the corner
Creeping out
Freaky ways
Strapped
Tapped
White room
Yellow bed
Bleeding limbs
Chambers
Of horror
Demonic town
Take away
Death around
***
Kills the body
Helas the mind
Treated
Insane
Cured
Refrain
Cuts on hand
Bit a man
NIce jacket
I go
Little house on the prairie
Hell no
Crooked road
Haunted down
Satanic dimensions
Twirling
Demonic town
Creeping out
Freaky ways
White room
Where i stay

Murray

Yes we held hands
Sure we kissed
{The weekend we were in love}
Simple gazes
Moment filled bliss
{The weekend we were in love}
Soft lips turned to smile
Strong arms held me for a while
{The weekend we were in love}
Weak laughs covered
Sensitive conversations of the night
{The weekend we were in love}
Playful feet comforted icy ones
{The weekend we were in love}
Discussed serious matters
Talked about everything and nothing
{The weekend we were in love}
Never said never
Thought we'd live forever
One another is also two people put together
{Whenever you fall in love}
Murray

Yes Sandi is my name
Im the player in her game
Chess is
Checkers times two
Had fun toying
With you
My friend
My friend
Mandi mentioned you
As I laid
Fingers splayed
Teasing her sin
Sandi
She moaned
Playful lusted tone
He's a great young man
Thoughts of you
Interrupted
She begged
Grabbing hands
Mandi
Mandi
What a woman you are
Kept a young man falling
Free like comets
From stars
Oh Mandi
You knew
That you had a lover
Who looked just like you
Mandi I assumed you didn't lie
Notice shock
Looking up
On you
Going down
On that guy
Sandi
Baby you called out
What the hell was that about
Mandi i thought you cared
Somehow the exhausting
******* we shared
Couldn't satisfy you
Mandi go to hell
Take your man
Downtown with you

My poem
Murray

Lets talk now
Hold my hand
I've only known one kind of touch
You sat down to listen...
In you I trust
Lets value each other
Look at my heart
I've never known my worth
You stood
Calming my nerves
I choked on *****
I hadn't realized was there
Lets flow together
Like the long locks
Of your curly hair
Grow with me
'Cause I'm bald to the roots
Metaphorically speaking
Lets talk now
You hold me like silk
I melt to you
I've only known one type of touch
You swiftly kiss my forehead
I never felt trapped laying in your bed
"Relax my love" is what you said
"Look at my heart...it knows your worth"
I heard the pounding of my heart
I hadn't realized was there
Lets flow together
Like a river to the stream
Being together and
Being one
Are two different things
Lets be one
Connect
Your veins will run through me
Hold my hand
In you I trust
I melt to you
You stood and said "I do"
And I knew
I would never love anyone
But you

If it is true
You had loved me
As I love you
Your lips had touched skin
Flushed red
Shades of splattered pink shown within
Yes I know
The moon hugs the sun
Never let's go
As stars are children
They multiply in number
We've hidden for far to long
Under blankets of night
Loving the embrace
Grass to epidermis
Holding minds
Filled with fog
Confusion
Pacing
Let it be true
Tell me there's a me
That meets I
Standing next to you
If it be real
I shall reach
For a star
Loosing what hasn't been claimed
My Achilles heel
You had loved me
As I love you
Poseidon in an ocean
Sailing a sea of blue
Bring thoughts to mind
Adventurous endeavors of memories
Lips curved upward to smile
Loved you once I'd known
You loved me for awhile

The Knowing:

Locker 36
Brought about much bliss
How you twisted my **** and made me free
You were locker 38
Just two spaces down from me
I'd stare at you from a far
In the lunch room
Just hoping one day you would see
The hair you had spiked to the t
With hands gentle
And a smile so soft
You said your name was Stacy
But that I could take to calling you Jack
You loved when I called you Jack
You also enjoyed football,wrestling and tickle fights
I adored things like that
I bet I could pin you down in three seconds flat
I was to weak to flip you over
Your head you'd rest on my breast
You said they fit better on my body anyways
Locker 38
Where we discussed our first date
You swallowed spit to say
"I know it might be weird...ya know being seen out with me"
I pulled you close and embraced you
Feel my love my dear?
Heaven knows I had my fears...but none of them had to do with being seen with you.
I whispered hummingbird in your ear
'Cause the nights I couldn't sleep you would hum the sweetest tune
I unraveled the moment the testosterone bloomed
Hearing depth in your voice for the first time
You asked how could I love someone like you, the day I called you mine.
Locker 38
You leaned against with eyes unsure
I knew the question was pure
So my answer would always be genuine
I explained that I had fallen
I was never to get up
Jack I said
Stacy is just your long forgotten twin...I except who you were and what you've become simply my dear because you are my love...
My only one...
Locker 38
Where my life begun.

Do you ever wonder
About the moon
The tide it brings
Do you ever
See in the darkness
Storm after hurricane
Battle before war
Do you ever wonder
About the stars
Shooting for the planets
Cutting through the galaxy
That armor
It held together
You and me
But the moon
Twas a friend
A being
Wrapped and warped
In femininity
She's a cold cruel spirit
With eyes that shimmer
And brighten the heavens
Do you ever wonder
About the sun
Her kind sister
Who entertains
The thought that the days begun
With her gentle soul
Arms stretching
About east and west
The moon knew the father
But the sun
He loved best
Do you ever wonder
About the wind
It's a touch
Kind lover
Bones taken from skin
That armor
Held together
Piece by piece
Do you ever wonder
About the moon
Sure the sun fades
Pain comes soon
When crops died
Because of a harvest
Not in bloom
But the wind
Knew the earth
He knew that the son of man
Gave water
As a gift
And a curse
Storm after hurricane
Ocean and tide
A tide the moon brought about
With much pride
Do you ever see
In darkness?
War and catastrophe
That armor
That gave out
On you and me
But the moon
'twas a friend
A lover like the wind
Who knew the earth
Whom heard of the waters
Of hate
You know
A gift and curse
The sun and her
Femininity
That hugged a father
From east to west
A father who knew the moon
But cherished the sun best
Do you ever wonder
About the moon??

The unspoken..

Creamy purple
Red
Steamy bed
Silver hugs your bones
Lungs blackened
Triple blue tones
**** yellow green
Legs wrapped
Inbetween
Canvas lain down
Work of art
Abstract
Wood carved
Circles
Amber brown
Luscious lips
Painted frown
Orange ***
Tastes of grey
This is art
Hushed cries
You came
Creamy purple red
Whitish mixture
Stained bed...
This is art

Murray

I can see your face
It's those hands I can't quite remember
I know the exact day we met
The 15 of 1946
I just can't put my finger on
If it were November or December
I can feel your veins
And I've wondered why our heart beats the same tune
I know where we had our first kiss
It was in June and the flowers bloomed
Whilst some wilted to die
I know your lips
But I've completely forgotten the twinkle in your eye
The soft honey brown
I had a dream
About a boy
The one with the eyes like you
I pressed him from my very womb
My vision faded by morning
I couldn't much arrange his birthday
Oh but I knew his birth place
Oklahoma Oklahoma
He gave me a memory
And I'd loan it out to you
I know he knows your eyes too
I can see your face
It's that touch I can't quite place
It's comforting
And uncomfortable
But it brings awkward joy to you
Honestly I feel it surge through me too
I know the exact day we met
I just can't put my finger on
If it were April or May
We would take our handsome son
Out to play
Oh he had a smile
sweet as honey dew
Oklahoma Oklahoma
He gave me a memory
A memory that fades...like you

The Boy Named Oklahoma

Beyond recall
Shaky knees
I fall
Judgement surrounds
My God
His son
Tears cruise
Drowning ships at sea
This battle i've lost
Fornication
Lust
Conquered me
Wooed my existence
Addressed my mind
Betrothed this body
Took me down
Laid me cross
Nails in his side
My God
Your son
They've laughed at me
Picked fun
Bruised lips
Quivering hands
Jesus please
Cocked gun
Alone
Captured by demons
Devil at the door
Quickly sprinting
Hospital floor
Room 342
I stared at you
Kissed your lips
Last breath you drew
They cant accept this
Me inside you
Farewell to goodbyes
Hello to hell
You've been slain
My heat has died

Murray

London roses
German daffodils
Man and wild
A beast quickly tamed
A name
Refrained
Japanese blossoms
Sweet herbs
Brewing
A mixture
Tainted
Sought out vengeance
On a curse given
Stoking
Fire
Flame
A name
Refrained
Held against will
Power to fill
Empty chest
Man and wild
London daffodils
German roses
Put on display
Left a tamed beast
In dismay
Confused from
Very thought
Caught lust
Fought what it brought
For love
Soon to come
Brewing a mixture
Stoking
Dire
Fire
Flame
Potent potions
Key component
To figure out
A name
Japanese flower blossom
With stories so sweet
Wild man
Beating carcass
In streets
Forgetting the already lost
Sought out vengeance
For a curse given
A beastman tamed
Surely his heart
Fair gain
Although tainted
Potent potions
Power to fill
Empty chest
Man plus beast
Ruined nest
A bird
Didnt fly
Oh but a woman cried
Absent body mind
A wild beastman
One of a kind

Finally
Award moments passed
Bound in the future
Free of the past
Illiterate
Unable to read minds
Tell what your thinking
Crossed lines
Thin
Translucent
Visions crystal clear
Clawing out
Drawing near
Closets open
Step through
Experience
Passion
Pleasure
Emotions of your soul
I wont tell
No one knows
Friendly flirtation
Sticky situations
Tip of your tongue
Searching for explanations
Just having fun
Put in a box
Categories aren't me
Touch my heart
Little black sheep
Big lion roar
Spread your wings
Soar
Air breezing round
Sulking cross town
Tell that you feel
Kiss sof
Unreal
Dreaming up a lifetime
Seems laying here
Smell of ammonia
White everywhere
Your my lifeline
Broken pieces beating as one
They wont accept our love


Murray

The answer to your question is yes...
I will love you.
Now until you’re grey as ash.
I will love you into the future and beyond your past.
Even when passion, pleasure, and pain do not last...our love will be everlasting as the sun and moon.
I'll rise to any occasion and spread warmth within your soul, whilst being dark as the nights sky.
I'll be the knight in your eye.
As the sun and moon...
I will love you as I have since I noticed it first bloom.
The feeling was unnatural to me...but hands against hands, hearts connected and tangled like vines quickly changed my mind in no time.
I will love you even if you aren't mine.
Yes if someone can love you better, they are welcome to try, but I have loved you without bounds or lies.
I will love you with happiness or tears within my eyes.
I will love you because loving you comes as easy as my breath...I do it and do not notice or wonder why.
I will love you now and forever...until the day i die.

Closed heart
Closeted mind
Apart as one
Closely fine
Stitched seams
Loosely tight
Everything's great
And not alright
Fighting internally
External bruises inflicted
Carrying burdens
Heavy
Even oxen
Wont
Bear
Spooky night
Haunting chills
Souls taken
Upon thrills
Oh closeted heart
Closed eyes
Gouged
A sight
To devious to view
Do you think of me.
For i dream of you
A love
So lustful
Sexually taunting
Welcome sensual spirit
Goodbye wanting
Shoveling fears
6ft under
Lightening
Shocks of thunder
Pul me down
Closely fine
TO far from  me
Near being mine
To hell i go
For i truly know
Demons stich me down
Loosely tight
Moments right
Shoveling fear
Laying burdens
Hard to care
The end is here

Murray

Finally
Award moments passed
Bound in the future
Free of the past
Illiterate
Unable to read minds
Tell what your thinking
Crossed lines
Thin
Translucent
Visions crystal clear
Clawing out
Drawing near
Closets open
Step through
Experience
Passion
Pleasure
Emotions of your soul
I wont tell
No one knows
Friendly flirtation
Sticky situations
Tip of your tongue
Searching for explanations
Just having fun
Put in a box
Categories aren't me
Touch my heart
Little black sheep
Big lion roar
Spread your wings
Soar
Air breezing round
Sulking cross town
Tell that you feel
Kiss sof
Unreal
Dreaming up a lifetime
Seems laying here
Smell of ammonia
White everywhere
Your my lifeline
Broken pieces beating as one
They wont accept our love


Murray

Positively negative
Innocently devilish
Living on edge
Far away
Yet way to close
Dont approach
Fear for my walls shatter
Guard collapsed
Malignant thorns appear
Defense mechanism breached
Negatively positive
Innocence burned
Bridges turn to ash
To far to approach
Fear to be turned down
Falling first love
Standing strong man
Taking offense
MInd my manners
Rude gestures  awake inside
If i said id never fall in love
Then i surely must've lied
Lying down my pride
Gasping at nails in his side
My lord you've seen it all
Saw a good man rise
After the devil
Commanded him to fall
Cheeks pressed
Gainst erratic beating heart
Breath on *****
Love mother
Love child
Said you'd come back
You left awhile


Murray

I would have taken Medusa
Held her in my palms
Freezing you from delicate feet
To high strung arms
I would have knelt to Athena
With a smirk
To deflower a goddess
But you were too wise for that
My flirts would be accompanied with a smack
I would have carried Zeus upon my back
Walking  88,729 miles from the sun
In a race
Where being fifth place
Lets me know I've won
Yes i would have been your reason
Your brown leaves bringing about a new season
I would have brought with me
A silver bow
And golden lyre
Bringing about songs of Apollo
As embers from the fire
Hollow trees
The holes in my heart
I have filled with wine
Dionysus in true of his time
I would have called you mine
I would have loved your beauty
Touched your desires
As i admired
Aphrodite in blue
The color i witnessed
As i kissed you
I would have been clever
As i pulled the levers to your mind
Quick as lightening
To put out the thunders of our fighting
Yes I'd be your Hermes
And I would have named you ****
When your lust for youth was taken
I would have awakened as Aries
Prepared for war
When you had battles within
I would have been a god
To slay your demons

I live in the town
Where kids sip champagne
To forget pain
And chug hennessy
With their enemies
Simply licking down *****
And eating their frienemies
Life's a bottle of tanqueray
Have a seat, listen, stay
The worlds a shot of tequila rose
Complex as a stiffened pose
I live in a town
Where the kids
Lush
In a hush

The night will **** us
Days haunt
Coffin open
What more could slaves want
The waters will lead us
Wade wade
As the songs say
Drug my feet
I swung
Tiptoed over oak
Couldn't catch ground
The runaway
They've found
John told Annabelle
Who whispered truths to Sally
Shovel heavy
Hand
Pouring sand over
Covering man
Coffin open
How often slaves taunt
Spoke
To an essence
Molded from clay
Adam told Eve
Gardens where all should have stayed
Haulted
Feet fell to earth
Simply rethinking life
Death births
I swung
Couldn't catch ground
Tiptoed over oak
Wade wade
Rivers flowed
To heavens gates
Waited till sun down
Till the soul escaped

This is where I learn how to stand
When the lilies have died and I'm holding your hand
We connect through the breeze
Here is when I know you’re hurting
'Cause the soils gotten cold
The warmth under me no longer exist
This is where I learn how to hush
To listen as the forest whispers around us
We transform through the grass
Here is how I know I love you
'Cause the separation has killed us
But you've kept getting stronger
This is where I learn how to speak
When the silence hasn't helped
An communication was key
The air around me you've always breathed
We transcend beyond the grave
Here is how I see
When the redish tips of your hair
Turn grey
The warmth surrounding me no longer exist
This is where I learn how to stand
When the roses have died an you’re in Gods hands...

How to Stand

Hit at dusk
Awaiting dawn
New moon approaching
To you I'm drawn
Lit cigarettes
Smoke stained teeth
Remembering moments
When you remembered me
Goodmorning darling
Watched you sleeping
Laid across
Crest moon
Silently weeping
Crying about the light
Images from the night
We made love till afternoon
Afterwards got dressed
Left soon
Closed eyes
Facade of a peaceful rest
Outside your window
Throwing words like pebbles
Spewings spits
Of i knew you best
THen the sun rises
I hush the lies
Quiet my spirit
Free from the moon and stars
Apologize for a tortured soul
Because everyone realizes
You truly know
Your grass
Beneath my soles
The breeze
Drifting my love away
Tide to my sea
I'll love you everyday
Hit at dusk
Awaiting mid day
Full moon creeps upon us
Your mouth opens just to say
We made love till midnight
When everyone realized
You already knew
Treated my tortured soul
Laid across
Crest moon
Silently sleeping
Remembering moments
In dreams
Crazy feelings
To you in drawn
Sinking teeth in
Just first bite
Imagined it all
Happening
This twilight

Murray

They said she was saved
Sanctified
Oh but she's a hell raiser
the pages in her Bible don't flip
but her hips shake
faster than a ***** turns tricks
they say she was baptized
by John the Baptist himself
but she came out to her mother
in a christian book store
her cheeks blushed
pink red
They say she flew with the angels
but seduces demons at night
Gods her captain
but she missed the flight
she didn't wanna fly to close to the heavens
But she kissed her rosary
as she clutched the book of Mormon
the star of David tatted across her shoulder
A hell raiser in the true
saved
Sanctified
But she seduces Satan himself
with the holy water sprinkled over her lip gloss
because her kisses are heavenly divine
The scriptures in her Bible
Have no name
unrecognizable from her pain
Shes just Rose Marie
the daunting seductress
dressed in nuns clothes
Flying in religion
to hide her shame

In the bedroom our love comes down
My screams can be heard from all around
In the bedroom you hold me so tight
I never dream or consider
One day i might leave you
In the bedroom bad things occur
I breakout in cold sweats just thinking of you and her
In the bedroom the fight begins
The screams don't stop till someone wins
In the bedroom bloods on the floor
You look at your feet awaiting your fate
In the bedroom there i was
My breathing is no more
In the bedroom your love went away screams can be heard to this day

Murray

Hit at dusk
Awaiting dawn
New moon approaching
To you I'm drawn
Lit cigarettes
Smoke stained teeth
Remembering moments
When you remembered me
Goodmorning darling
Watched you sleeping
Laid across
Crest moon
Silently weeping
Crying about the light
Images from the night
We made love till afternoon
Afterwards got dressed
Left soon
Closed eyes
Facade of a peaceful rest
Outside your window
Throwing words like pebbles
Spewings spits
Of i knew you best
THen the sun rises
I hush the lies
Quiet my spirit
Free from the moon and stars
Apologize for a tortured soul
Because everyone realizes
You truly know
Your grass
Beneath my soles
The breeze
Drifting my love away
Tide to my sea
I'll love you everyday
Hit at dusk
Awaiting mid day
Full moon creeps upon us
Your mouth opens just to say
We made love till midnight
When everyone realized
You already knew
Treated my tortured soul
Laid across
Crest moon
Silently sleeping
Remembering moments
In dreams
Crazy feelings
To you in drawn
Sinking teeth in
Just first bite
Imagined it all
Happening
This twilight

Murray

Its been awhile
Far to long
So we met
By a tree
(the one carved for you and me)
It was a promise
A pact of sorts
I was beautiful
Someone you'd court
(the date of eternity)
Yes it last forever
Yes it left to soon
Waters rushed
Monsoon
(You wept i cried)
Said you loved me
I lied
It's been awhile
Far far to long
Closed the door
On our love
Welcomed me home
In your arms i lay
Hurtful words i say
Tried to leave
(The night of eternity)
To the hall i went
You turned me
Bitten lips so
Pure
Infected with lust
You've been my cure
Yes it's been awhile
Since we've made love by the tree
(The one carved for you and me)

Murray

Cause darling you were born here
You were raised to grow like the wheat
Golden brown
The tips of your hair and teeth
Tell me if I over step my boundaries
I've been walking too far
Cause baby you were conceived here
Bred to be strong like the roots
Supporting the tree
The bending of your bones
Never weak
Tell me if I cross the line
They are painted red and white
Oh the stripes the stripes
Cause honey they tell you whom you are
Right below the blanket of Earth
Left are the stars
Background of blue
Cause darling you were born here
So America is you
Bred to be strong like the roots
Supporting the tree
Cause sweet pea you were forced here
Grabbed from the confines
Of mothers loving cave
Forgive me if I trip over my feet
I was pushed into being brave
Given a number
Lost my name
The bending of my bones
Never leak
Stitched are the wounds
Internal bleeding
Bled red white and blue
Cause darling we were born here
So America is we
We were launched in wars
With the purpose to maintain our free
So America is we
Yes you
Yes me
Tell me if I over step my boundaries
I've been walking to far
The ugliness of this world
Won't leave us scars
No our beauty shall never be marred

Grass before flowers
Blooming in spring
Awaiting the moment
To be king
To be king
Flowers after soil
Growing in dirt
Gasping for air
As if it hurt
To be king
To be king
Kneeling before God
After slaying demons
Claiming crown
To be king
To be king
Spat up
Swallowed down
Swimming pond
Drowning man
To be king
To be king
Time and time again
Brothers betrayed
Sisters sacrificed
Went against mine own judgement
Took a queens advice
To be king
Take everything
Gave hell back
Rivers filled fire
Satanic attacks
To be king
To be king
Guest in a house
Of mine
Of mine
Whispers among friends
Woven lies
Sipped on
Like wine
Like wine
To be king
To take everything
Giving hell back
Awaiting my downfall
Upon knees i crawl
And lie
Gasping for air
If only God heard
My prayers
From a king to a king

My detective father
told me my identity
was in my finger prints
so i gazed  upon my finger tips
with no explanation
I pointed to a friend
who said he knew
me
like the back of  his hand
as he caressed my palm
tracing the lines of the future
I asked if he could tell me something
about my finger tips
he said they were stubby
and dropped my hand
I collected this information
without taking a stand
He doesn't know me at all
My detective father
told me lies
conceal the truth
so why bother?
I lied for twenty seven days
I figured
no one would pay attention
did I mention
I carved the mayan  calendar
yes
my fingers
shaped the future
my essence
On display
tapping my fingers
against the pavement
corrupted Earth
no one knows me from a hand shake
tho they've touched my identity
so when looking at your finger tips
remember it takes so much more
to know who your gonna be

My dear your clothes out grow you
Heavy they are upon your back
The life of you they lack
Colorless
Black and grey
My love your face betrays you
Your legs sway
Leading you down a helpless road
Gravel can't feel any rougher
Your ribs can't get any tougher
Yet they have concealed your backbone
My darling your lies
Reveal you
Your stares make me weak
We had lunch and tea
You spoke but never munched
Your words fed me the sweetest honey treats
My dear your clothes out grow you
Tell me may I walk in your shoes?
You step on my feet as we dance
You tip-toed around soft subjects
Rejecting me a chance
My pet your knee's bend away from me
They uphold the legs too petrified to walk away
You hold me close as we sway
With clothes to big for the body I feel so near
Oh my dear my dear
Eat a bit just to stay
A word mentioned
I'd never say
But I've noticed the things others may
Heavy they are upon your back
The life of you they lack
The soul our good God has taken back....

Hello dear
Beautiful day
Feeling free
Let's get away
Take a trip
We'll go far
Have no clue
Where you are
May 30th
Days date
Found attraction
To you
Don't now your fate
Flying through skies
See me from above?
Casting out emotions
Lust
Never conquers love
Longing to draw you near
Not seeing your face
Brings me fear
Where are you now
New place
New town
Memories haunt my dreams
Emailing you
As unattached as it seems
I feel close
Not the greatest man
Still better than most
Goodmorning baby
Long day?
Write me a letter
All the things
You can't say
Wanted to let know
Wherever you are
Im willing to go
I've waited this long
Miles up ahead
Still be waiting
Till i feel your warmth
In my bed

Murray

Darkness surrounds
Slowly creeping
Speaking radiant sounds
Hiding in tonight
Another sparkle
Gleaming
Beaming into blue
Who's the blanketed boy
Pretending to be
A man
Such as you
Speaking gibberish noise
Little women of poise
Beaming ***** whom posses hue
Splattered paint
Walls grey
Saddend cheeks stained red
Blanketed boy
Have you heard all i said
Promises to catch every tear i shed
Together we cry
Living life as if a lie
Blanketed boy
Who are you
What am i
Walls grey
Shivering hands stained red
Darkness surrounds
feet finally touch ground
I look just to say
Blanketed boy
Your the man that
Took my love away

Murray

Im not an alcoholic
I just like to drink
Sometimes morning
Noon and night
When i remember moments
I've forgotten i think
But it's the amber
Colored cool
An essence up under
The senses
Dipping beneath wounds
Molding into
As Mr.Daniels
Shapes itself gainst ice
I've drank once before
Much
So much i doubled over...
Twice
But it moves
Shakes n shivers
Caressing heated blood
Sexing blueish veins
Im not an alcoholic
It's just
Beautiful Brandy
Coos n calls
My name
I've barely known
I've continuously shook
From dreams
Taking another hit
Brutal punch
Stroking the skin
Call me fein
No im not an alcoholic
But Brandy made me do
Yes my lips
Kissed Mr.Daniels
Brandy too
They are lovers
Of the sickest kind
Tantalizing flesh
Taking time
Glass is full
Cup runneth over
Turning corners
Lucky me
Four leaf clover
I said im not an alcoholic
Sipping elixir
What a d..n shame
I've brought champagne fame
Im not an alcoholic
Must I say it
Once again??

Murray

Rain pours
Kissing sidewalks
Making love to green grass
Crawling upon hands
Trickling blood abusing lips
Cursing words of the past
Why!?
How could!!
Who the hell??
Rolling over
Feeling of rose pedals
Smells of perfume
Chanel
Is it gone?
Legs tremble
Muscular frame
Violently crushed
Handled
Time and time again
Thunder clashes
Cigarette ashes
Cancer fills lungs
Grabbing dirt
Just a taste
As if soil
Could erase
Pains of the night before
Crawling upon hands
Legs tremble
Won't walk
No more
Lightening scraps
Reminders ****
Your thoughts
Clenching fist together
It was a summer day
She was Heather
Love songs play
Sweet warm whether
Smells of perfume
Chanel
You breathe in
Waiting to exhale
Hands touch
Smokey glance
Lost in lust
True romance
Rain pours
Slapping sidewalks
Roar
Only she knew
What was in store
Making love to thick grass
Spread cheeks
Forced smiles
Thrown down
Dogged for a while
Crawling upon hands
Legs tremble
Trickling blood abusing grace
Is it gone..?
Slain innocence
Forgotten face
Rolling over
Violently crushed
Lies hidden
Words hushed
She was Heather
Waiting to exhale
Nathan's scent
Odor
Smell
Feeling of lilies
Pedals rotten upon grave
Moments replayed
If only the trap
Was set to save

Breathe again:

Oh you were small
But a heart did swell for the
Yes hands reached up
Grasping away at me
With eyes
Obscure and wide
I felt my cheeks burn with pride
Something like a summer day
When the fresh smell of rain
Whisked us away
And the brilliant blessing from God
Was to blame
It was hectic as I approached the fray
Ohh battle
War
Love grenades
Bursting around the doors
Eroding in my soul
Forcing the walls
To fall
It was hectic
The fray
But it was a beautiful day
Cries were heard
And love was made
Callings of God
Were prayed
As a push
And a shove
Brought about an angel from above
Oh you were small
Tiny infant
Who knew it all
As my heart swelled for the
Yes hands reached up
Grasping away
Hands awkward and free
With hair
Soft as deer skin
Your mother slept heavily
After caressing you out
From within

Little joy

Gallery of broken stars
Heaven starts today
Artist of moon songs
Breeze cooled from palms
Paint brushes
Filled lies
Water mixed
Making silence pour
Streams of harmless mess
Gallery of eighteen walls
Colliding in bloom
Canvas washed upon shores
Pictures without frames
Pointed fingers
Taken blame
Glorious purple gowns
Your blue meshed with my stained legs
Wobbling shaking
Hells opening
Skies breaking
Ohh a fallen star
Crawling to a gallery door
Every evening poured
To a cracked glass
Golden mixture
Stirred brush
Brought the screams
To hush
Back for another day
If i remember correct
Artist of moon and stars
Songs slow
Seductive
Meant to ******
Plans erupted
Canvas burned
Orange yellow
Harmful mixture
Running down legs
One missed equation
Me plus you
Drunken *******
Conversation forceful
He was too


Murray

First touch
Difficult glance
Romantic movement
Second chance
Yes night is young
Soft kiss
Sprinkled mist
Spread like butter
Yes perfect one
Forsaken once
Tried again
Adoring chuckle
Love within
Yes beyond skin
Deep ocean
Crashing waves
Broken calm
Sea sways
Yes moments here
Trembling thighs
Quivering lips
Buckling knees
Bucking hips
Yes night is young
Yes perfect one
Yes beyond our skin
Deep to souls within
Yes moments here
Palms clutching
Drawing near
Adoring chuckle
Love within
Drawn together
Sprinkled mist
Spread like butter
Sea swayed
As we kissed

Murray

Just a moment
Held me close
I won't tell
If no one knows
Clear as day
Cold as night
Owls turn heads
To catch sight
Vultures pick at prey
Calm down
Be happy
Gay
I won't tell
If they don't see
How your dress hides
Them from me
Femininity warped
Chiseled down
While a breast
Warm in touch
Cant be found
I won't tell
If they dont ask
You've transitioned
A thing in the past
Left behind lips
Gaining beard
Judgement
Disapproval
You feared
Ohh but I accept you
Connected as one
Though I'm a single
With two
Curved and abstract
Satisfied by the things I do
Tell me something...
Can I tell her
If she loves you
As I do

Hidden View

The body has spoken
The words it shall be
With a mind quiet
Limbs of peace
The ears have witnessed
The abdomen saw
With pointed hairs
Sticking straight foward
The legs have held
The feet kept still
With water as reflextion
Captured possession
Fishing net
Little boy
Man child
The body has spoken
The sunrise it shall see
With Earth quiet
Quiet as if free
The teeth have mentioned
The gums chattered ease
With phrases
Filled mazes
Circling round
Garden tiles
The body has spoken
The feet drifted miles
The ears whispered memories
With wind beating drums
The abdomen clinched
The legs trembled
The teeth strained
The gums
Gums
Gums
With numbing echoes
Waters reflection
Simple complextion
Love is possesion
Quiet
Free
Your body has spoken
Spoken
To me...

What is love
Simple kiss
Funky souls
Enjoying laughs
Reminisce
Vibrant shades
**** black
Brown
What is love
Thoughtful words
Vivacious sounds
Beautiful amber
Remember
What is love
Apathetic tongue
Lackadaisical licks
Sensual moments
Bliss
Whats is love
Man without owner
Claimed my heart
Long road
Cruising start
What is love
Created
Made
Shipped
Sold
Came
Stayed
Yes alluring tints
Pigmented perfection
This is love
Questions to the all knowing
Praised night
Answers
left lips
Sacrificed your name
This is us
You and i
I and you
Sat by myself
Getting close to you
No screen play
Lines be rehearsed
This is love
Sailed on sea
Ship to ship
They auctioned me
I stand proud
Turned my back to you
Turned my life around
This is love
Sent a dove to the sky
Flew beside me when you weren't by
This is love
It dwells between heaven you and I

Murray

Soft as cotton
Hard as rocks
Sweet  honey
Prowling fox
Tight  clothes
Messy  hair
A game played unfair
Biting like bats
Bruising like fights
Cold days for the warm nights
Cursing sailors
Your boat in my sea
Crazy things
Behind closed doors
Just you and me


Murray

You,me, and I
I,me and you
Perfect pair
Triplets in two
Combined for one
A hell
For a son of a gun
Shot of suicide
Downed on ice
Me
Compared to you and I
Slap to the face
You left me
I came crawling back
You laughed
Fearful heart attack
I stand on my knees
Listen to me plead
Oh baby please
What happened to you
Did I not do
Everything you asked me to
I,me where the hell were you
I guess ones company
Two's a few
Hard to remember
An I without you
Think of me
Staring at you
Hoping I am
Who you choose to do
Oh
Me,you and I
Grazing angels in the sky
Unfortunately for you
I and me left
Leaving you right
Where the three of us
Merged into two


Murray

Im in love....
Right?
By the light of the morning
I'll remember tonight

This is ****.....
True
Every where i touch
Myself
I think of you

How can i get better...
You
Hug me so tight
Kisses feather light
A smile placed upon a face

Will you hold me.....
Sure
As if lustful venom
Struck
Turned warm embrace
Chilly blue

I can be in like with him....
Love her too
Friend to friend
Has a ****** adventure
Come to end

Im in love...
Right?
***** straight
Forgetful of curved flashes
Abstract limbs
(I touching her)
(Her touching him)

By the light of the morning
I'll erase tonight
Scrub demanding kisses
Lipstick cheek
Cologne black

Colors help procrastinate....
True?
To busy lost in lust
Forgot the color blue


Murray

Oh and her compass
Seemed to lead me everywhere
As her body swam around the dance floor
Story of a hypnotic girl
Should i say more?

Oh the waves of the water rocked
Floating in the sea
I was drownin
Drownin
I was a fool
Clownin
Clownin
A painted face for thee

Oh north, south, east, west
Id follow a gypsies magic
If it lead me best
Her body dived into the mosh pit
Should I quit?

Oh the waves of the water rocked
Floating in the sea
I was drownin
Drownin
I was a fool
Clownin
Clownin
A painted face for thee

Oh and her compass
Never points north
Im going down
Down
Lavish laughs
Smiles all around

Oh the waves of the water rocked
Floating in the sea
I was drownin
Drownin
I was a fool
Clownin
Clownin
A painted face for thee