You
Why did you do it
Kiss me and tell me you like me
Spend so much time with me
Make me like you so much
Just to turn around
And I don't know
I saw her
The girl you called babe
I would have waited
As long as you needed
Been here as your friend
Regardless of what happened
But I feel betrayed
You said you liked me
But called her babe
WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT

This body of mine can't take it
For very much longer
My bones ache
Muscles are sore and worn
Bags under my eyes
I look tired
Well, I am
My heart grows weaker
Beating sporadically
Lost feeling in my hand now
Gripping dreams too tightly
Time to open my hand
Stretch the muscles
Relax and let go
Let my weary soul be free

Let me tell you about my bad days
They pop up out of nowhere
In the middle of a laugh
Or maybe a joke
In the middle of an adventure
It just hits
Like running into a brick wall full force
Leaving me breathless
Gasping for just an ounce of oxygen
And it feels like running into a brick wall
Would hurt less
I lose all motivation to do anything
Wishing I could just lay back
And pretend I don't exist
Maybe have a plane fall out of the sky
Putting me out of my misery
Thinking every thought that has run
Through my head millions of times before
Every thought of death and pain
Every daydream of dying over and over
Sixty different ways
Sometimes with no idea why
All of this pain out of nowhere
For absolutely no reason
Hoping someone might see it and recognize
Pull me away from depression's cold grip
These are bad days
They are not beautiful they are dark
Cold, bleak, filled with pain
Don't romanticize it or wish for it
I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

I sit here numb
Take a drink of water
Look back at the camera
No one knows I'm back here
Almost on the verge of tears
Been this way all day
No idea why
It just took over
I thought I was better
What went wrong

I thought I was better
Laughing and smiling
It didn't feel like I had to pretend
It was all real
I was happy again
For the first time in years
I didn't have any worries
I looked forward to so many things
But here I am
Sitting alone and crying
What happened to me
I thought I was better
But here I am
Wishing I didn't feel because
Being numb is better than pain
Better than sorrow and tears
Better than this depression

There's a storm raging in my eyes
And with it comes a force so strong
It'll knock you off your feet
So be careful
I'll destroy you if you aren't
Don't get too close
It might blow you away
My misty gale

This is it
It feels like the end
Everything changes now
It's the last chance I'll have
To see you
The last goodbye
Let's make it last
Dance under the stars
By the fireside
Just once more
Hold each other closely
Feel your heartbeat against my chest
Pounding like it always does
This is the last night we have
Let's make it count
Count the stars illuminating the sky
Lay on the roof of my car
Wrapped together in a blanket
Be together in silence
This is it
It's almost over now
Putting out the fire
Gathering the blankets
Packing up my car
Here it goes
The last hug I'll ever get from you
I'm beginning to shake
I'm sobbing too hard
You can't seem to get me in your arms
Quite fast enough
Pulling me in tight
Holding me like you always do
Oh how I'll miss this
More than anything
This is it
Time to go now
I don't want to leave your warm embrace
You don't want me to go anywhere
But it has to be done
I have to go
It's the end of our time together
The last time I'll look into your eyes
And tell you that
I love you forever and always
We're both crying now
And we go our separate ways
I look back and see you doing the same
And we stand there for a while
Admiring each other
Memorizing every detail of the other
Holding on as long as we can
The sun starts to rise and I turn away
Not looking back again
This has to be the end
And I leave the parking lot
Speeding away so you can't catch me
All the way home
Our last night will always be my favorite
And I thought of you as I drifted to sleep
Knowing I wouldn't wake up again