Reaching out in darkness
Only to find I'm grasping air
You're not there anymore
To comfort me as I awake
From the nightmares that
Make my skin crawl with
Thousands of fire ants
You're no longer there to
Hold my hand as I walk
Thrugh the fire in my mind
I can't quite reach you anymore
You've ventured just past my
Cold, shaking fingertips
I'm hopelessly in love
But I threw it away for
Something that was a waste
I'd give anything at all
To have you back in my life
And call you mine
For as long as you'll have me
To love you like I should have before

Cigarette butts
Dropped carelessly
Left all over
They remind me of you
The way you smoked
Almost a pack a day
Maybe it was half
I can't remember
It's been too long
I miss you
I hope you know
That I did love you

Everyone is alone
Everyone is empty
People no longer need others
There's always a replacement
A back up plan
Relationships have a Plan B
And I'm bored
Of the world this way

Red face
White knuckles
Bruised legs
Bleeding palms
Tear stained cheeks
Broken bones
Smashed mirrors
Anger taking over
Losing myself to the rage
Won't you help me
Before I destroy myself

I run through the days
Or do they run through me
How am I?
Fine. How are you?
Monotone
Going through the motions
Lifeless robot
Being controlled by someone
Outside of my own being
How long have I been like this?
Seems like I always was
And always will be
No control of anything
No control of me
Systems do it for me
I'm stuck on autopilot

What are these strange marks you left on me
Are they the remnants of what we had
Or the possibilities of what we could have been
Can you explain all the curves and lines that make them
Give them some kind of meaning for me to understand
What you did to me all those years ago

Put out that cigarette and come to bed
Kiss me so hard that I can taste lingering smoke
Breathe that fire into my lungs
**** me with the thing that kills you
Let it destroy me just like you do
Maybe then you'll love me enough to try