Pressure building
Shaking fizzy drinks
In an air tight bottle
It's bound to blow one day
The lid is ******* on too tight
You can't let air out
So it keeps building
Getting harder to hold it in
BAM
There's the explosion
The angry words
Pour out of my mouth
Screaming and yelling
Throat getting sore
No energy left to fight
I fall to tears
Crying and sobbing
Letting everything out

Late at night I think of you
Your eyes
Your voice
Your smile
And these words
Pour from my pens
You my darling
Are my midnight inspiration
The thoughts that pop up
As I'm trying to sleep
The ones that make me
Turn the lights back on
Repeating the words so I don't forget
The ones I write twelve times
Twelve different ways
Just to find the right combination
You're the ideas I scribble
As they drift in one by one
The bits and pieces I think of
Every now and again
The reason I can write again
And you don't have a clue
That you my dear
Are my midnight inspiration

On second thought...

Tell me why
I shouldn't try
I shouldn't fight
Tell me why
I should disappear
I should give up
Tell me why
I shouldn't hold on
I shouldn't trust you
Tell me why
I should die
I should let go
Give me one reason
I'm dying to die

A dance with a friend
He asked me
I asked him
I don't recall
But we danced
It was a slow dance
I looked at my best friend
Dancing with her boyfriend
I ran to the bathroom
To pull myself together
Don't cry
The makeup will run
I think in that moment
That I looked and saw them
I knew in my heart
I'd never find the one

Tell me why
I should fight
I should try
Tell me why
I shouldn't give up
I shouldn't disappear
Tell me why
I should trust you
I should hold on
Tell me why
I shouldn't let go
I shouldn't die
Give me one reason

I don't know
And that scares me
I had a plan
I knew
Who I was
What I was doing
Where I was going
But that's gone now
I'm stumbling through
Barely staying alive
Feeling like
I'll never make it
Everything pulls me down
I'm fighting just to crawl
But I don't know
Where I'm going
Who I am
What I'm doing
Why I'm here
I'm struggling
To understand
And all that does
Is confuse me more
I just don't know anymore
I'm lost

It's been so long
But I did it again
There are little red lines
Hiding on my body
I was clean so long
But I've broken again
My skin no longer solid
Broken in places unseen
I feel the burn
And I love it
Help me please
I can't stop crying
I swear I didn't mean to
But I did it again