I want to do something with you
She said
I should be spending time with you
Instead of them

Oh I'm getting caught up
With all these thoughts she cried

I have already drowned
With a horrid mind

And no one saved me

So to save someone else
Is quite complicated

I'm choking

°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°

We stare eachother
Eating out our appearances
It stays this way for a while

Till finally
You give me to drink
I felt something down my throat
Trying to fly away
Now in my stomach

We touch eachother
Doesn't get better

Side effects
Came through

I'm choking
With all the butterflies
Stuck in body

You stare at me
Nothing helping

Wow
I felt good
A moment ago

Why didn't you help me
Why didn't you choke

Is okay
i'll remember
what's this new posion

When we see something new
We think it's cool

We waste our money
Now look who's broke

They sell their products
To get rich

And they fool
Us again & again

And we keeping
Buying ****

That messes up
Our brains

should've never fallen in love with a musician
he was going to leave
to tour the world
oh poor girl

I hope your soul gets rest

fingertips bleeding

barely breathing

now I turn in my sleep

wearing all black

twisting my back

piece all the words

probably hurt

avoiding the blur

closing my eyes

losing sight

I can't believe you don't love me anymore

she so scared
she doesn't watch horror movies

Won't stay in a room alone

  Can't defend herself

I'm the complete opposite

I can't comprehend

Must be a world
Of silent pain

CLOSED

V

__

Look at me

-------------
I hate it when you look
Don't stare at me
I hate it
_

Choke the air out your lungs
Your hair keeps changing
I'm confused
____

Open your eyes
Have you seen mine
I'm telling you a story

Midnight
She saw an alien
It looked just like herself

----------------
V

You keep thinking like someone else

Moving things at night

Sleepwalker

You've become Someone else

Lost in the dream world

____

Open your eyes

//////////////////////////////////////////////////

Nevermind
Don't come back

I sleep with coins under my pillow
so I'll have rich dreams

when I wake up I wish you weren't beside me
this is to be taken seriously
something so deadly
and delicate

I don't love you anymore
once you know
you'll turn dangerous

my heart no longer
lives underwater
it's floating
up the surface

you were trying to drown it

I wanted to fly
from the highest floor
i cried

I know I'm going deaf
but I can still my heart beat
hers too

she tells me
she'll stay
wakes up
and tells me to go away

Tear apart
paper hearts

sunny rain
****** rainbows
and blue haze

stuck in box
can't push me out

sleeping
for months
waking up in October


nice talk
now we're back to ignoring each other

sensitive
lost my bottle of tears
I cared for myself
I never noticed you were here

sometimes you can catch
me in front of my computer
daydreaming

things i'll never do
but i do in my brain

usually my feet dance
to the music in my ears

my hands are always shaking
can barely type sometimes

i don't feel bad
for just picking off skin
with my teeth
just now

it's so hot

the summer is still filled
with life

It's hard to accept
Someone doesn't love you
Process declined

Hard to realize that
My lungs
Keep me breathing

Oh and i still got my wrists veins

I have to digest
Sad thoughts
Into my brain

I know i exist
Now

Your only ten miles away
Feels like your farther away

I went up north
Where we could touch the sky

Back
In town
The clouds
Are higher now

Everyone's up in going
Am i doing nothing
Caught up in the music

Everyone's up and going
What am i doing

Feel the rush come in
Gonna change
Myself again

the strangers who live in my house
want to stay there forever

the ghost that lived there
even said goodbye

the grass is growing
and the pond gets dry

when will i go there
to live back inside

there's even glass
from the explosion

i can't drive away
so i stay

Inconsiderate
Disappointment

I thought we had
Somethin

The butterflies
In my stomach
Died

Don't call
If I'm gonna have to
Listen to your
Talks
Without giving me
A part

I'm left out
Left behind

Left you
To see you
Again soon

Don't sound so sad

Am i scared
I can't hear my heart beat

Only the thunder rumbling

It's been raining all week
Finally some inner peace

I see things from my peripheral vision
That aren't in front of me

Sleep late
Check
Wake up
Follow the same routine
Again

i remember when we got high
we were giggling
and kissing half of the time
you said
i never do this with someone
and that you like to be alone
it was stuck on my mind

was i suppose to feel
special ?

you never mentioned it again
since you kept
trying to follow me

I can hear the music
To the bottom of my feet
I have the lights off
Why don't you come and turn them on
I haven't even put clothes on
From the shower i took
Hair dripping wet and I'm cold
Where did you go
So far away
Why did you runaway
I don't see the positive
I can only see the rain
You told me I've been acting grey
Why does matter
Couldn't have you waited
I hear strange voice at night
Only to realize it's ours
In my dream
I can almost feel your presence
Behind me
Almost

i have a block
in my brain

it's hard to push away
when i try to
write away

Well you told me
Do you wanna stay

I'm so sorry
It was all game

Can we go back to the cold drive
And the comfortable silence
Inside

Well he told that
He loves me
That's so disappointing

I wanted to hold hands
And drive away
With nothing in our hearts
Just like friends

And he told me
That if I loved him

Well I'm sorry

I don't want to

I dont1 want to

I can't say  why

you do not  care

i won't  say

you don't  care

i feel like your   pathetic

you think the  best

i hate surprises

you like to try and control me

i never make it happen

you aren't so powerful

i make sure

i wasn't really looking for
concern

i can't sleep before
3 AM

never at ten
at least i feel alive

i use to love driving
through the city lights
with the windows down
favorite song playing

i can't sleep
but i can't even stay up
till sunrise

Empty stomach
crying your name
I wished upon a star
for a cloudy day

I lied
I lie
I never find the right moment

They expect the best
I have the worst inside me

The roses left behind

I never want to look back

There's a little window
In my bathroom
That lets me see a piece of
The sky
Cloudy or the starry night
It permits air to flow in
Giving me the fresh scent
Of the trees

While taking a bath
I stare at the sky
The blue is fading
Clouds taking it away

Reminds me there's bigger things than my head

it's pouring outside
but it won't last

unless it's that one time
in april

where it rained everyday
at 8 AM

raining sideways

windows open

the thunder
we hear

and i feel alive

my eyes are burning
when the lights reach them

i went shopping
got lots of stuff

he has his
city family

never picks up
the phone
for his own blood
children

yeah i know he
doesn't care
and i wish i could
spit out fire words
to the phone

i crawl into
a shell once
i hear his voice

i'm probably traumatized
it doesn't matter to
anyone though

because i should
learn to get up
on depressing days
and practice fake happy

no one takes anything
personal

if i was on the verge of death
we would forget about it
in a few weeks

go on with life
not even bothering
with what's going on
in our heads

pick up the phone
and hear the haunting voices
that talk problems

while having a nightmare
around 7 o clock

cracked telephone

doesn't even call me
anymore

I hope you find someone who loves you more than me

I remember
The sad days

Now I'm
Living dead

i dislike
how good of an actress
i am

no one can
tell the
fake happiness

and fake crying
laugh

it's all prepared

your probably hiding
behind my ear

whispering to go back

you like
to push my head
into the water

and i'm starting
to wonder

were you the
one threw me underwater?

keep me away
always saying i'm
a tough case

I find it so satisfying

I can form a poem

In my head

Then i come on here

And the ideas erase

The feeling goes away

oh oh
hope you see now

got soap in my eyes
why is everything so bright

you were maimed
could it have been me
oh please

so much money
are you just going to throw
it up in the air

I miss it
miss hearing through both ears
sick
sick of it

woke up by an explosion
scared by my own heartbeat
realized I was only dreaming

out to attack
not to protect
got to take a break
all this hammering
will fade away

got to take a deep breath
so many things going on
I can't focus

inhale
to realize
you failed

exhale
why didn't you stay here

white dots
in the dark
I felt like improving myself

just a man
I do what I can

We try and look for the words
to describe how hurt
the love
our hate
the rare happiness

we feel

but let's be honest
we'll never find it
you'll keep writing

I feel someone's love

Hm
Someone loves me

Can you feel the world spinning
No
Me neither

I can feel it

When
She comes around
And he sits down

Like if something's wrong

But with you

With you

Things feel different

I can feel

The love

Warm and gentle

So sad
So mad
I can't hear the rain
Aganist my window

Why am i falling apart
The gods
They hate me now

Let's take a deep breath
Admit we don't feel the same

I'll live in a better city
Some day

Serenity when it's raining
But i can't hear the
Raindrops falling

The gods
Haunt me
Now

At least
I'm powerful

Girl
I'm tired of you

Being your sun
Drowning me out

You like to hold my head
Underwater

Girly little girl
I'm tired
Of you

Smoking cigarettes
To look cool

Drinking
To end up
A fool

Why
Try so hard

You don't have to act dark

I'm tired of you
Stealing away
My sunshine

For your dark vibes

Babe we can be
Better than this

But you out
Partying with
Fake friends

I forgive
I'll forgive


I'm so tired of you
The rebellious girl

Using me
To burn

Acting so cool

With your smoke

Whiskey throat