Living the city
love isn't pretty
I hope the light
that blinks in the sky
is a star
but I know it's
an airplane
not to far
cold houses
dark rooms
I hide in my closet
from you
smells like pine trees
in my bed
you want to
change everything
about me

I don't like me

Living in the city
I can't breathe
I can't sleep

Waking up early
leave to have a few hours of being free

It's raining black rain
I guess we're all in pain

lost in nostalgia
now I'm wondering
what you're hiding
lost in my bed
can't ever reach the edge
hoping you'll find me
I hear footsteps
I hear whispers
don't come any closer
going up
coming down
ready set no
tell me
you're all I need
we are meant for each other
thinking maybe he's a nice boy
but I'm a bad girl
I have to go
I'm so annoyed
leaving you blue
trust issues
I'm done
but you're ready now
thinking maybe he's the one
but I just wanted some fun

He probably pretends to live in Europe

Buzzing in my room
feels like you're here

When are you coming
back home

hours away
time zones
in the way

He probably pretends it's snowing
that it's morning

When are you going to call

Climb up the stairs
Open my eyes

Every time you come around
Leave me empty and a little broken

Do you know if you're coming back

I've fallen
there's no way up

So close
I can hear your
breathing
Heart beating

He probably pretends
Like I do all the time
I'm fine
Saying goodbye
It's fine
I do it all the time

I wish you loved me
the way I love you

hidden veins
you've hurt me enough
turn off
all the lights
staring out
I don't know myself
wish me well

warm fingertips
tangled hair
messy feelings
scattered on the floor
don't you know
I don't want to play this game no more

hug me tightly
move slowly
turn off
the lights
kissed your neck

sleeping silently
hear the train tracks
hear the train passing

my eyes are falling
but my mind is racing
I might be dreaming

No one really likes me
I'm a mess
Spilled ink
On a white dress
The stain on your shirt
That never goes away
A broken window
invisible star
So I stay away

Keeping distance

Worlds within a room
I have to resist

They'll never know
How much love I hold
I could give

I'm a new moon
Standing behind
The shadows

I don't shine
I only reflect

I'm just here
I don't know why

No really likes me


I do

Hand around my neck
Oh it's such a bliss
Kiss around my lips
So imperfect
Feels so perfect
I forget all
About my hurting
I'm wondering
Where you left the money
I'm wondering
How lucky we are
To smoke early in
The morning
I'm wondering
When you'll leave
Walk out
Hands in
Your hair
It all started
As a dare
Smoke smells
In his shirt
Painted hair
Whispering
It'll last
I'll be just
Fine

It's still cold
Fingers going numb
Maybe my heart too
Flowers aren't blooming
Trees aren't growing
It's snowing

Sun down
Hide out

I'm freezing
Walking around

we don't know how you got here
you're just there
you have no light
no sound
waiting for the sun to come around
pale grey
cold form
tides away
wish you well
see you again
27 more days
our one & only
dark seas
waiting for the sun to come around
she's the only one that makes you feel warm

you want to play
in this first day of spring
flower heads
I remember this exact day
years ago
I no longer hear
your voice in my head
soft windows
slow curtains
dim stars
new moon
I no longer
feel hurt
the pain in thinking of you
walking along
this stormy path
hit by lightning twice
I can almost reach sunlight
wind keeps trying to pull me back
today I grow taller
today I'll grow fonder
stronger
I'll no longer
frown
at the thought of us
simply smile
I've cried enough tears
leaves started to
sprout on my face
it's okay to say
goodbye

If we were to meet again
Would you say hi
Like the star you see
When the sun is going down
And it hasn't washed the sky
In its darkness
Would you stay
To talk
Maybe forgive
Am I asking to much

I just want to know
What if we were to see each other again
Would you stay
Leave like I did
I've been wondering

Cold air
heavy breathing
it's passing slowly
yet fast

I realize
my pain has died
I don't want to
cry about you anymore


So I fall asleep
I've had no dreams
I'll wake up fine

My veins are stronger
I'm no longer small
Not the flower you'll pick
and take
Leave me to die

My roots are everywhere now
There's no death

The sun glows
I see Venus
He is smiling

Wish you would fall with me
But I'm alone falling
I can hear the snoring
Sleeping with music
One day rain
One day sun
It's confusing us all
One day stars
One day clouds
Let's fall into the trees
I'm in a pause
I can't move
All I remember is your
Hands under my skirt
Making me feel lovesick
Butterflies in my stomach
Coming out of my mouth
Let's be lovesick
I'm falling
Need you to fall with me

The trees are starting to grow
why don't you love me anymore
Flowers are blooming
please call me
times ahead
can we meet
All I want to say
please stay
tomorrow
today
You don't want to hear my voice
I can not delete you from my phone
If this wasn't so hard
Sky clear
Clouds near
Wish you were here
love me here
love me now
love me spring is coming

it's been too long
staying here
don't want to go insane
everyone wants my eyes
my mouth
leave me alone
sometimes
the sun is flying around
moons are tired
how many more steps
you're too serious
I want a cloud to keep
sleep away
I want all the flowers
on earth
in my house
everyone is making choke
I can't breathe
anymore
pulling at my head
falling so hard
looks like the sky
is closer
skin burning
I see starlight

I wonder if you're faking it
You asked me what my poem meant
I had forgotten it
You're all so focused on the person
On the screen
That you haven't even bothered
To look at the one behind it
The sky is clear
The air is clear
The stars are brighter
They look closer not higher
I wished we lived in darkness
We shouldn't be so afraid
We put light everywhere we step
Soon we'll glow the whole planet

Oh how it burns to remember
how cold
you are
how you don't care about no one
the bittersweet
feeling
that maybe you really do love me
is not everlasting
I'm no fool
why pretend
I know you'll never be interested
how it hurts
to know
that you really don't want to know
pains me to see you lie
with a fake smile
perhaps I will learn from this
some other day

Blue house
blue face
didn't call me
didn't answer me
ask me questions
tell me what you think
blue sky
blue eyes
drive by
leaving at night
city lights
pick a house
you either love
us or them
blue smoke
blue stars
left alone
I was told
to follow
every rule
empty casket
where did you go
leaving me in this
empty house
underground
I can see nothing
waiting for you
to find me
waiting for your love
underwater
everything is blue

We'll eventually run out of words
Stop making lines
We won't rhyme
Will not be able to make a poem
Since it will only be a replica
Us poets will die
One day
Until then
We keep on writing
Till the world ends

so far away
it takes to say  
when will you come again
I wait
I remember
so far away
for you to come say
once again
leaving
not caring to tell me
this dream isn't so sweet
so far away
a life of you and me
I keep wishing
whispering to the stars
to keep you close
so far away
you look so close
a light so distant
blinking out
when will we meet again
feels like one of these days

so far away
a love so warm
distant
I'll never reach it

In the earliest mornings
where the sun is still rising
the moon is saying goodbye
I see a slight glimpse of dust
in the corner of my eye

I feel you beside me
snoring slightly
curled up with a pillow
between your feet

I ask myself
Am I dreaming

In the darkest nights
where I reach my hand towards the sky
and it's camouflaged with the pitch black
I hear your breathing
the blankets shifting

I ask myself
Am I dreaming

In the silent afternoons
when birds chirp
and the clouds fly away
to somewhere it might rain
I smell your perfume
from across the room

tell me
Am I dreaming?

Is this love
Or is it another passing temporary
Feeling
I don't want to deal with it
I wish I could just get rid of it
It is late
Faked my name
Only to be played by my own game
Called me at 2 in the morning
Was it only because you wanted me
Is this love that I'm feeling
Or just another let down
Broken hearts coming
Is this love
Was it love
Could you love
I would love
You so much
Is this love that I'm feeling
Or is it just another sad song
Crying in the bathtub
Days to come
Felt ashamed
Was to blame
Couldn't gain
Your trust
All the sake
Of being paranoid
Lost your presence

Is this love that I'm feeling
Or just another passing by feeling
I'll never know
I won't ask
Too afraid it may (not) last

Wish you were gone
wish I didn't remember you at all
curious what you're thinking about right now
if today isn't so great
tomorrow will be a big waste
if you ruin the mood
all you have to do is look at the moon
watch the sunset
go stargazing
life isn't all about
the past
even though I want to go back
if I were asked to pick one day
to live again
there's no certain decision
I would stay in the present

mirror mirror
on the wall
I forgot I have it all
mirror mirror
tell me
remind me
why this
pain is here

strange feelings
skies glimmering
friends are slowly
leaving

mirror mirror
tell me why no one understands

I haven't been able to write anything
or look at any poetry
I'm not feeling it
I feel like time is going to fast
and I'm just getting dragged past these months
without even knowing what is going on
I haven't been able to rhyme
nor write one stanza
be compassionate
with others
trees are coming back alive
I know life is constantly moving
but where am I
I have no place
feel like a big waste of space
I haven't been able
to break the bottle
filled with puzzled feelings
I've let things go
secretly holding on
I haven't been able to write
in a while
time will pass by
I'll get inspiration
when I start to cry
I'll read a few poems
in the day
another blue moon
I have to choose
whether to stray away
from the earth
or grow closer
to where it most hurts

White curtains
Suns coming
I see a thousand
Specks of dust floating
I thought maybe
There's more than this
Than we thought

Sparkling specks
Of dust

The dead tree
Is living again
Slowly turning green

We are starting
To come back to life

the curtains moving
breathing in
let it out

clear view ahead
the mountains
can be seen
down


It's the time
to grow warm
It's time to let go

ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ᵈᵒ
ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵒ
ᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᶦⁿ ʷʰᵉʳᵉ
ᵗʰᵉ ˡᶦᵍʰᵗ ˢʰᶦⁿᵉˢ ᵇᵉˢᵗ
ᴵ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ
ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵒ
ᵈᵒᵉˢ ᶦᵗ ᵐᵃᵗᵗᵉʳ
ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᶦᵗ
ᴵ ᵐᵃᵈᵉ ᵃ ᵐᶦˢᵗᵃᵏᵉ
ⁿᵒʷ ᴵ'ᵐ ˡᶦᵛᶦⁿᵍ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵒⁿˢᵉᑫᵘᵉⁿᶜᵉˢ
ᵇᵘᵗ ⁿᵒ ᵒⁿᵉ ˢᵉᵉˢ ᶦᵗ
ᴵ'ˡˡ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖ ˢᵒᵒⁿ
ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵗᵒᵒ
ᴵ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵒ

I swallow my tears back in
Doesn't matter
I want to see you
It doesn't matter
Tears falling
Dust off
Coughing
Laughing darling
Won't you call me
Hold my hand
Your hair so soft
Your eyes shine
Your smile kills me
I can't hold back
Let me touch you honey

I want to breathe in your air
I want to see what you see
I want to be with you please

If only we had each other
we could be forever

We try and look for the words
to describe how hurt
the love
our hate
the rare happiness

we feel

but let's be honest
we'll never find it
you'll keep writing

sometimes I get the feeling
the don't deserve you
that I never return what you give
my love doesn't compare to yours
you would sacrifice your life
without thinking it twice

I can't leave you anymore
I've become glued to your heart

I can't sleep without you
ok maybe I can

I'm afraid
one day you'll realize
I am pointless

that I deserve nothing

she muttered
out loud
I don't want to live in oblivion
she doesn't know
where the origin
begins or ends
attracted to the moon and clouds
the stars wish she wasn't down here
there's a void in space
she wants to go away
doesn't want to live in oblivion

she mumbled out loud
wonder where the sky ends
if the universe keeps expanding
I'm also growing
this life is one
others are to come

my soul hasn't lived enough
I should have stayed at mars

the rain
an illusion
it comes and goes away
how do I believe
in something I can't see
I feel love
no one had ever shown me how

it's time to let her out

There was a time
you and I were something in disguise
shadows that aren't mine
follow me into my home
living alone
without your laugh
seems cold
no matter how many blankets
I sleep with or hold

you kept me hidden
between white bed sheets
If we ever saw each other in public
I didn't know you
nor did you know me

Invited me into your home
became then my own
surviving and playing games
during thunderstorms
turned into
silent nights
suffocating within the walls

I didn't know you
did you ever find out who I was

strangers in disguise
the look in your eyes
held a sorry gaze
trying to tell me just wait

it began to snow in your home
our love became frozen
somewhere inside one of the rooms

we really did become unknown

I wish I could stand up for something
I believe in nothing

she writes
out flowers
throws and picks out
the petals
everyone loves her

not me
I let them die
in between pages
no one really cares

I was waiting for you come
the sky was changing
I waited for you to call

I kept hearing my friends
say don't believe him anymore

I refuse to let go
I don't really want to know

If this isn't love
should I let go

glass filled with wine
drunk for another night

it's alright

I'll wait

for you answer me
I want to believe

that maybe you really want something too
this might be a feeling or two
I hope that you notice it
within the distance of our bodies
trying to connect

getting drunk once again
to forget that you close off
your heart
and ignore what I say

please just stay
please don't go

the smile and look on your face
tells me different
then what you want to say

Is this just all make believe
all just a stupid fantasy
that I created myself

I wonder if you'll ever
really know

  A glass of wine
for the time
you ignored my feelings
showed you my heart
torn apart

I deny all the signs

maybe get drunk
again to forget

that you'll never admit
the true emotions
flowing within
our hearts

you'll have to tell me no
don't go

I'm drunk on this illusion
of your loving
and saying yes

even if they tell to let go
it's going to work
I suffer continue to ignore

believe that you do
and maybe that you want to

I'm telling you
please don't go

I watch you
walk so calmly
breathe so slowly deeply
I envy you

there goes my youth
wasted on you

remember those years
spent on rooftops
beside you
shoulder to shoulder

every raindrop seemed to glow
from the city

I was to busy staring at you

wasted youth
cold swimming pools
first tattoos

does it matter now?
do you still hear me whisper goodnight

whenever I see you pass by
another new piercing

I dyed my hair
the first time we ever talked

you always had some special power
whenever I'm falling
you catch on
falling together

new adventures
every cloud burns
I was too busy staring somewhere else
to not notice your gaze

come alive
all because of you
in your eyes

having you by my side
I might as well die
reach out
hold your brain
so softly
never want to hurt you

my wasted youth
is not ruined

one-Mississippi
two-Mississippi
lightning traveling faster
than thunder
hurry

It's outpouring
sideways rain

the clouds running away

where are you going

not cold
I'm not cold
I'm used to this bitter feeling

bending backward to see the sky leaving

I should have a good day tomorrow
I say as I fall asleep
I should be productive
I think as I lay in bed in the morning

Nothing really gets to me
I'm also dissatisfied
Nothing is interesting
I crave everyone's attention

I say things that I'll never do
I try and be someone better
It just never works out

Blue rain
we were stuck in a daze
once out
we forgot all about it

Grey rain
the loved we carried
evaporated
it'll always be living

Pink rain
when I first saw a new pair of eyes
I thought maybe this time

Orange rain
it fell apart
landed at my feet
thousands of possibilities
draining

Green rain
this evil sensation
is different
it's my turn to destroy
someone

white rain
my feet reach the end of his bed
his innocence is slowly leaving
out the door

black rain
it's a shame
several colors
gone to waste
wait another year
another blue moon

red rain will fall soon

Looking for you
In this field
Of dead flowers
I could never find you
If you were here with me
I would probably leave

If only you could see

It doesn't matter

Yellow flowers with bees

Your such a sting

It doesn't matter I'm just dead weeds

Growing within my lungs

I planted seeds

Waiting for them to bloom

I'll grow into a tree

So I can look for you
Because no matter
What happened
Or happens
I still miss
And love you

If it's not you

I'm trying to hold you closer
Since you've slipped away

If I could do

Something that would make you stay
Forget all the things I said

It's on you
For never trying
To talk to me again

I never liked to lose

After I lost you
Life seemed so cruel

A black moon
In the black sky
Doesn't make sense

If I can't see
It's reflection
On my face

If I can't see light
Shine in bed

If I can't ever be your friend

I never knew you at all
I don't like this feeling so much

I'm trying to hold on
this lost love
false promises

I need to feel your skin
see your eyes
open with the sun

when I see you with someone else
I figure you'll fall

I'm drowning in high waters

I never really want to let go
I need to caress your hair
one more time
hold on tight
to these pretty lies

look in your eyes
glimmering in the moonlight

I never know what you're thinking of
I don't like it at all

You said
I said

I want to make it

Could we stop faking this

I was staring off into the sunset

Whispering into the clouds

I walked around
Until darkness fell

I found my friends
The brightest constellations

The soft grass
Against my back

A soft melody track

I'm alone

So alone

Just with myself

                                                  I will find you
                                                    In pink skies
                                                       Bitter Lies

I almost forgot the
Dangerous weather
Thunder crashing
Against the window

                     Would you believe me if I said I've changed?

Maybe I'm not so empty

I know
You're there for me to hug at night

But when you fall to the floor
I wake up
and cry

I'm going crazy trying to find the light
Holding the same line
That electrocutes my mind

Down the rabbit hole
One last time

Instead of wonderland
I end up
In the nothingness
Of my head

I'm tired of seeking
The wrong things
That mess up my whole day

I sleep so ready for tomorrow
The morning comes
I feel like I'm repeating a cycle

you're never gonna get my heart
today in the morning you told me you don't really know me
I would be sorry
if I ever led you on
you're never gonna catch me
I'll hold you close
you're never gonna see me grow
today you told me you'll never understand me
I'll be sorry
if you leave me
I'll be sorry
when you're gone
I'll hold myself close
you're never gonna get my heart

She has flowers on her cheeks
the stars shine within her teeth
The waves to the ocean stop moving
When she speaks
I couldn't explain why the universe
gave up in growing
When she was awake

She's not an angel
Hard to figure out

She belongs in
The Depths
Of matter

That we don't know about

She's talked to all the stars
is friends with the faintest
Constellations

She whispers to the wind
laughs
I can't help but smile
With temptation

Could she be an alien

It's hard to figure out

She's a light
Yet a shadow

She'll find you
In the blackest
Day
Hiding in the corner

Her hair is gold
eyes like diamonds

The galaxy flows
With her high words

Awake night and day
The sun and moon
Owe their lives
And souls

To her pretty laugh
That casts
Joy
To anyone around her

She's no human

She's always wandering

It's been two days
feels like a whole century passed

I wonder when will you answer
the question

amaryllis blooming full

will you also grow up
tell me the truth

It's been 48 hours
feels like you're gone

waiting for a reply

I haven't even lost my mind
proud of myself

I'm waiting for fulfillment
never a commitment

I'll find you
anticipating
a response

give you my heart to break

Only in my world
Do you hear the birds sing at night

the moon comes out
in the daytime
You can see a galaxy around five

Only in my eyes can you
See a red sky
Flames are the clouds
it's raining
Ashes

Beneath the walls
Under the harden paint
There's an alien