fascinated
with things I can't have
things that don't last

I hate it
I hate myself for all the pain I caused

I'm going crazy in my bedroom
still dreaming about you

deleted all the messages
but you're still haunting me

cursed with your absence
addicted to the faded memories

in the theater
on a map
when I look out a window
all I do
reminding me of you

better off dead
than to live forever
in your ghostly shadow

I'm sorry I didn't spend time with you
the days by the lake we had a few

if the hope inside us hadn't died
all we needed
was the happiness missing

take out your guitar
I've got a song or two

there's not enough time
the endless sunset can follow us home

it never does
scared away
home was full of darkness

I want to go some place with you
I'll read a book
and hear you play all afternoon

our time together
long gone

so strange
we never knew
how fast the moment would pass

laying in the grass
staring into the water

let's stay there
a while longer

is it so
crazy
to ask
someone
please
love me
even if
it's
a lie
my
lowest
place
I'm just
seeking
company
it feels
like I
live
with a
ghost
I see her
do everything
while I
sit back and
watch
waiting for
someone
this can't
be right
there
must
be
someone

love me
I beg
is it
too
much
to ask
don't
leave me
here
don't
let
me go
I'll turn
off my
morning
alarms
stay with me
is it a
possibility
I'll be loved
in this
lifetime
or am I
destined
to be
lonely
and miserable
every monday
starting the week
wishing for
silly romance

pathetic
it seems
I let pride
get the best of me
if I keeping
saying one day
maybe I'll
just forget
about today
trying
to forget
another
wasted
valentines day
I hope
you're not
reading this
go on
be happy
I bet you
have someone
to be so
lonely
like me
I wouldn't
wish it
on my
enemies
no more
crying
for me
I take
my tiny
heart
with
no hope
it will
survive
it's last
breath
on
the
lost love
I'll never have

I'm not mad it's not me
I'm sad
I know it will never be me
with anyone at all

go on and be happy
with someone else

we're not friends
since our ending

I was so confused
when I saw the picture

the necklace around her neck

heart stopped beating
I guess it will never be me

not with you
never with anyone

I think I'll stay in bed
longer today

go on
go as a dream

drifting away
so swiftly
when I wake up

you're lucky
and I just feel empty
like always

this is what is supposed to be

I think I clench my teeth
when I'm half asleep

does it always hurt this much
when you leave somebody

I hope
I'm loveable

I'm scared I'll forever
eat my breakfast, lunch, dinner alone

if I stretch both of my arms
I cover my entire bed
a spot no one ever lays

I always have a song stuck in my head
in the morning
at five thirty

I don't want to be happy alone
laughing all by myself

I'll love again
days I'll open my heart

glitter down the sink
you saw me screaming at my mom
was I wrong
I just wanted for us to get along

even if this love washes away
you left a memory inside me

fireworks
are exploding
in my heart

but you only see them up
in the sky

our smiles
so wide
disappeared
like a camera's flash

you'll know soon

how bright my heart
glows when you're around

happy new year's

I've got to check my pulse
to check if my heart still beats for you

I didn't know how to answer
to my dead name

I wish you'd call me
by your name

I always wanted to ask you
why you're awake so early

and to know
why you still message me

I still get surprised
when I see your name

I never know what to respond
only distant regards

I try not to be sad
I'll try to be happy

because it's okay now
what happened to us

..

I took the bandaid off
on my heart

it's healed