I'm nothing but a sad boy
miserable, brooding, misleading

thinking about you when I'm all alone
when I have you I want to go

never satisfied
still curious

can I change
can I change
can I

can't focus
I wanted to find a heart

you're gone
I'm leaving now

trying to cry
terrified

loveless and lost
there's no where to go


what if tomorrow
what if today
my thoughts and memories drown
down the sink

you're online

I found a paperclip in my bathroom
strange place I'll never know

it's disheartening
sadly I won't message you anymore

I won't speak to you anytime soon

if this is a mistake
then I'll regret it later
for now I will try

can't say goodbye
confrontation is my weakness

another night I wash my feet in acid
stop myself from walking back to you

lately
I need to squint

closer the closer I get
I should go

I'm starting to see all my flaws
so I take my glasses off

I've been up and down
you pull me back
I'm trying to leave

lately
I'm start to realize
everything that's wrong
will I change or stay the same

I know we were friends
this distance is killing me
I have no patience to wait for you

I liked him
he was so transparent
could never hide away
I would always find him

all these pretty faces
I can't fake it
if I give you my name
will you take it

lately
in my timeless bedroom
the silence feels peaceful
I'm alone I'm okay

I don't want to wake up alone
for the rest of my life

if someone could hold me

there's things I want to say
will you listen

will anyone listen

my hands and feet are cold
open me up
I want you to see my bones

sadly I just wanted to be your friend
nothing more
but we are less

I wish I wish
all my wishes would come true

I could have you
you can have me too

how long can you try
before all of it
becomes a goodbye

open and closed
I should go
I should go

I torture myself a little more

is it a little better or worse
you were never mine

how many more days will pass till you ask me
if I'm okay

I'll pretend
everything is perfectly fine

I should stay
I should stay

he was right
the silence is loud

all the loud noises
I took for granted

the time we called
at 6 am
is too far away to remember now

I love too quiet
when I love
I tiptoe
I don't want your heart to know

one day
I'll be loud
one day I'll say it

invisible love

tell me you have invisible love for me

I'm asking for a miracle

I really liked you

I have the worst luck ever

forget about me
please remember me
there's no in between

I'm selfish
I want you all to myself

you were everything I had
I'm hearing all your favorite songs

I know I'm losing you
losing every chance

it's all my fault

no matter what happens
I never want to let you go
you're forever mine now

sometimes I let the demons write
for me

they take countless pages
I don't remember anything they said

that wasn't me
that wasn't me

out of proportion
to an extreme

have they corrupted
my entire mind

the pen is fading
when did I start to cry