fingertips
of gold

I just want my
feet to be cold

please don't go
please don't leave me all alone

come to me
and say hello

I've got a big heart
why does it feel empty

why am I not loving
why am I not loved

am I unlovable?
I feel so lovesick for a stranger

it hurts to
loveless

love
is it worth it?

love
can't find it

love
I'm in misery

forgive me
all the ways you love me
I can't accept

I fail to realize
you can't love the same way I do

keep a lock on my heart
I don't want to be heartbroken

all I ever said
was for you
for you
all for you
everything for you

never did I think
and me?
and for myself?
nothing
I have nothing now

are we really friends
or are we lying

lying to my face
this isn't friendly anymore

I regret not losing you
when I had the chance

all those times
why didn't I give up

it's the worst
you stay for someone
who doesn't deserve it

making me feel stupid
stayed for someone who's worthless
now we're the same

happy now

I'm chained to you

are we really friends
I think I'm starting to hate you

would you care if I left

I'll dream of leaving you

wake up in misery
you're still in my life

is it so bad to want you

midnight
thinking about you

all the things we did together

I don't want to be alone
I hate spending time without you

getting lost in my head
one of these nights
I'll message you goodnight or good morning

I have to die
I'll never know if you feel the same

would love to hear your voice again
would love to sleep with you on weekend

is it true

I don't understand

lying is so distasteful
but so easy to swallow

lying doesn't look pretty on me
I still wear it every morning till evening

you can be my little secret
let me put you somewhere
no one will see us

let me hold you in the dark
so I don't feel so ashamed
embarrassed I know you're a mistake

who am I lying for?
for you or myself?

I try not to be a hypocrite
a little deceiving

don't believe a word I say

lies so sweet to spin
keeping me warm while you stay

I wish I was innocent

I'm such a fake

what a waste

pretending to be your best friend

why am I so hateful

I hate seeing you happy

I love eating your sadness away

makes my day

why are you never happy for me

you must hate me too

are we spinning this web of lies together

I can't even try to care for you

I tried to

I'm a liar

I told you so

the mask I wear is perfectly created

I can't take it off

maybe next time you want to leave

I hope you do

cheering for your downfall

I'm your bad luck charm