ripped the skin off my lips
I thought it was bliss
the way you mistreated me
in so many ways
all different days
couldn't have stayed
another minute with you
making me feel so small and cynical
now all my feelings are amusing
when you fall for someone deranged
love is so confusing
killed my breathing for you
starting to overthink
spiraling down
was I wrong to love you


loved the wrong person
or was it
loving at the wrong time

bleeding lips
unrequited love
love so unknown
for someone like me
I will never know
so hard to reach
it slipped through my fingers so fast

I have more to say
none of it matters anymore
anyways

where do we go
where did everyone disappear to

stuck inside our heads
we forget to look outside

I'm slowly forgetting the way
I used to smile in spring

winter is coming
don't let my heart go cold

I don't want to lose everything
to know

don't leave
don't go

if I was nicer
would you stay

tell me all the ways I hurt you
don't lie

honesty sounds like criticism
they're not sensitive
they just don't want to change

hiding inside a wall
you can hear us all

hate me
love me

I don't care
I'm getting there

alone
with or without you

I'll get there

god save me
i never get better
if you hear me
show me the way
why is it so hard to live
you created the perfect world
why did you ruin it
all these pessimistic feelings
wasted thoughts
lost and delusional
greed and guilt
running through our veins
let me see through your eyes
I want to look at myself entirely
show me the ways you adore us all
could you call my name
will it sound the same
I didn't need to suffer
all so I can learn
a painful lesson
I don't hate the creation
I hate the creator

\ heaven is a dream \

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/ hell is our reality /

does anyone know

to feel so insignificant
to feel so tiny
useless
so unknown

are you waiting for me
are you thinking of me

no
no
I know

if I disappear
my name will fade away

I'm tired
of knowing
I mean nothing

loneliness will be the death of me

you say my name
when I'm not around

oversharing, overbearing
don't act like you're so special
you're like everyone else

she's so nice
it's suspicious

I don't want to hear it
you're not my friend

keep my name
out of your mouth

I never thought I'd meet the moon
I can see you in my dreams
you change everyday
somehow you stay the same

I might cry if you ever come back
I might cry if you don't

why did you push me away
all it did
was make me stay

my stomach in knots
you should take the blame

you faded away
slowly
slowly

I can admit

I don't love you anymore
I don't miss you anymore

I just remember you
I remember

now I see
we're so uneven

said you love me

but you didn't

string of lies
the cobwebs are glued to my skin
can't wash you off

I'm still there

don't look back
one more time

there was room for us to grow
I had to jump out the window

don't ever forget my name
carry it with you

I guess you never liked me

did you not want to learn
something you would forget