I know you'd buy me the whole world if you could
but you can't afford it

I'm stuck with you
miles away or face to face
you'll always haunt me
you act nice to get what you want

I can't forget you're all I had
really felt like I had no one

you were there
still you were no one

you didn't know how to care for me
how was I supposed to care about you

it's harder these days
we pretend
I didn't hear you say
all those things

you wanted to die
I wanted to **** myself

you loved a psychotic man
I'm scared of men coming close to me

what happened
did we make those things happen
did I watch it all happen

silent
you were always on the phone
I'd drink all alone

I wanted to cry
in the mornings when you were so depressed
you couldn't talk or move

I was so tired
of seeing you hate our home

I was hateful
we never had a home

I don't think I'll ever see you again
stop asking me

you messed me up in more ways than I can count

I'm not regretful
I'm not angry
anymore

I still love you
it's the worst part

it's the most painful

to love you
after all the **** we went through

you control me
manipulate me

I'll love you
like a fool

bleeding on the floor
it was your
it was my fault

I haven't seen you months
do you still hide the beer at the bottom of the fridge

how does it feel

is it lonely
is it quiet

so oblivious
people like you will never know

overworking myself
no one notices it at all

I hate the way my back hurts
so much when I lay down I can't rest anymore

my nails are soft
my lips are bleeding

all this money
wish I could buy myself some love

I hate waiting for tomorrow
all I want is what I had yesterday

it's late
I want to cry for a bit
then fall asleep

I want to make a wise choice
a small wish I know will come true

sometimes you're in my brain
can't say I don't remember
I still have the bitter taste
wonder if you remember my teary eyes
and weak fingers

I hate everyone who still talks about you
like you're some old friend

I wish I could **** you
it'd really give me a good rest

miss I can't understand
I can't hear between the lines

it's fair
I'm giving you nothing

I'm the villain
stabbing you in the back

I walk in and out
I crawl ups and downs

no
you're not in love
you don't know me

please return your feelings
I can't accept them

I'm not hard to find
you will meet someone else

like me
there's plenty

I'm consumed with the thoughts of regret
I might regret all of my decisions

I'm consumed with thoughts
that I'm not loving you enough

that's my waste of time
I'm selfish only thinking about myself
we don't talk or see each other

will I hate this tomorrow
did I love myself yesterday
I lost myself right now

do we ever know
can we find all the buried memories
they're like sandcastles by the beach

I'm gonna ****** me
I want to learn how to leave

am I going to hate myself later
will I seek to do better
nothing is certain

everyone misunderstands  
it's all my fault I can't make decisions

can you repeat the question
my heart is looking the other way

I wish I could look inside my heart
to know if I love you at all

any amount I can trace
to erase

you say you're going to sleep
but your lights are still on

the lights are still on

police cars are outside
we're a little scared they're here for us

I bet
he feels so smug
up in heaven

it doesn't feel right
I bet he likes that

we're avoiding eachother
I don't tell you anything

just give me nothing
like always

I have to do everything
I used to love you so so much

I don't know you anymore
where's the nice guy I met years ago