The music of our love has been muted
The bright colors of our promises have faded away
The calm winds of our kisses turned to dry desert sandstorms
The warm gentle rays of our laughter turned to scorching heat waves

Soft kitten purrs have become screeching screams
Once sinless souls now sinking to the darkest depths of damnation
Daydreams demolished and in their place are dungeons
Serpents slithering in the once stainless snow

Sandwiched between my blankets
I can hear the low rumble of thunder outside
The skies are darker than usual
Dim light is coming through my window

Am half drunk, half bored
Am half naked but not cold
Am half way through this new love song I just discovered
Am lost in my thoughts tryna stay optimistic, that glass half full mentality

I should get out of this place soon
Its the tenth time am having this thought in the last ten minutes
Can't keep it off my mind
Cant leave even if I use all my might

Chained down by all the good memories
Slowed down by that beautiful girl who promised she'd kiss me
Tryna take my first step but am paralysed
Tryna be brave but am terrified

Am alive, i dug my way out of that grave
its in moments like these that i know i need to be brave
Although i'll never be the same again
i know the struggle wasn't in vain
I've probably never been more afraid
searching for answers, i kneeled and prayed
When i was young i thought lightning was just god taking pictures of the beautiful moments down below
so maybe he's watching over me, i never give in even if i face a thousand blows

There's no one like you around
I still can't get you
Same difference
Red is for danger
Green is good, good to go
Am color blind, same difference
He's got too much to see
And he's hopelessly blind
I wanna say same difference
He's selfish and we were made in his image
He never answers when I pray
Same difference
She can't samba
I have two left feet
Same difference
Call it euthanasia
And I have no reason to live
Same difference

Love is like when a base meets an acid
The deterioration is quite rapid
Love is crazy, a majestic hound gone rabid
Your arrow finally hit me, nice shot cupid

Am scared to die so I wear a face mask
Can't help but think of all the questions I never asked
I can't breathe like am stuck in a vacuum flask
Thank God for this liquid aged in casks

Am standing where the roads meet
Am hoping the road ahead is longer than what's behind me
Or maybe am just not long for this world
Feels like time is against me
Am it's opponent
My time is running out
That's the reason I can't sleep at night
Coz every remaining minute I want to spend with you
Every second I want to see your face
And maybe memorize every single feature
Treasure every imperfection
Coz baby am not long for this world
I try but ultimately I fail
I tremble every time we touch
And am hypnotized every time we kiss
Am brave but in this moment am afraid I might lose you
My eyes will never see you again