My
Heart
Aches
For
You.

You want space
Or time
That what he said
So I gave him space and time
He took that time and space
And found someone else
I never know what do when someone ask for space from me
How long to wait
Before I accept the hint
If during this time its worth only speaking to you
Only thinking of you
And only dreaming of you
Cause it been only a day and I've cried enough tears to drown myself in a tub
I slept enough hours to call it a coma
And I've been out my room twice all day
I keep thinking of the last time we hugged is it going to be the last time I see your perfect face
If the last time I spent the night Is the last time i'll be able to kiss you
And that night was perfect to me
I was just so happy to be there with you
We drank and watched tangled
We smoked ****
I remember how good you look when smoke comes out your mouth
You taught me how to play pool and let me win twice
Then you let me fall asleep in your arms and sleep past 6
You are absolutely perfect to me
In everyway
I hope we can do that again
I hope we can kiss again
I hope you wont forget about the way i feel about you with all this space
Goodnight my love

This one hurt
More than I thought
I think because you played me so well
You really had me feeling like you could be the one
The one that deserved to feel my love
I even wrote you a poem explaining how one day
I could feel about the gaps in your teeth that I find adorable
Or the height of your stance
That was slightly intimidating but endearing
The way that you kissed me
On My forehead
On my right thigh
And on my mouth
We could have been extraordinary
We were a bull and a ******
A Taurus and a Virgo
A girl and a boy
We talked about tattoos and how we wanted the same ones
We debated soul eater and stars
We quizzed eachother on one direction and Canadian rock bands
I went home and watched videos about how compatible we are
I was invested in you
And you said all the right things to make me believe you were invested in me
I told my bestfriend, cousin, and closes friends about you
How you are sweet, handsome, goofy, and everything I had been searching for
But i guess I spoke to soon
I fell way to soon
I cried way too soon
And I'm done
Just on time.

There is alot of things i dont know
Like how to spell synonym
How to change a spark plug
How i feel about you
And how you feel about me

Ive change alot since December
Been through alot since December
And you really dont even know any of that
Even though you were sorta apart of it
In the fall and winter i was deeply invested in you
I hurt myself thinking too much about you

Five months passed since we last talked
And i dont know why we talked again
I dont know why i responded to you
I think there will alway be a miniscule part of me
That likes you
Theres a reason i get nervous when we talk
Why when i see your snapchat name show up at the top of my phone screen
I get so happy
But when i think about it
I feel like throwing up
Like i dont want to feel this way
Just the thought of it makes me sick  
And i think it because im not sure how i really feel cause i dont know how you really feel
Part of me scared to ask
Part of me knows the answer
Part of me get a touch sad
All of me gets disappointed in myself

I want nothing to ******* do with you

Hey how are you
Are you good
How's work
Oh yeah I love you
Can you tell me something
I look in between the pages
The past for clues like a puzzle
Its 2019
How's yours going
Oh that's good
I hope you're doing well at work
But I kind of hate your job
Why does it feel as of you're leaving me in 2018
Have you gave up
If so just tell me
I would love to see you
But I cant because I'm last years news
Just text me please
Please
Erasto
Please dont give up on me
Please
Please don't break my heart
Please  
I never stopped trying
To keep you
I never stopped loving you
Please dont hurt me
Please erasto please
Dont do this