She’s happier when she’s self-harmed.
At least, that’s what she thinks.
She’s more confident when scars are hiding on her body.
Until she looks in a mirror
And realizes what she has done to herself.
She hates herself when she looks in the mirror.
Until that feeling goes away
When someone says, something mean, without knowing her story
That’s when self-hatred comes out and captures her mind.
She’s happier when she’s self-harmed.
All her issues are better when expressed on her skin.
Crashing back when the high of self-harming is gone.
And it ends up causing her more pain, then she had before.
She likes the world more when she has self-harmed.
It’s filled with so much good
Until something sets her off and feels the need to self-harm again
And she hates it all more than she should once again.
Her mind feels calm, when she self-harms.
Terrified of losing that feeling
She soon wants to self-harm again.
But she can stop any time she wants
She has herself trying to believe this.
Because self-harm takes the pain away.
That is, until all her friends leave.
Because her life revolves around the next time she self-harms again.