I am not ashamed at being needy, I use to be because I was looking at it wrong.
I am needy because Christ place me that way so that I would need him.
But I was focus on people fulfilling the needs that belong to God alone.
So after putting things into the right perspectives my attitude change.
For it was place in me to be needy so that I would need Jesus.
Every minute of every day and need to stay focus on him alone.
I focus wanting to be married to that special woman that I would need desperately.
But it was suppose to be Christ my God that I need that desperately.
I needed friends in my life to  spend time with when it was suppose to be Gods place.

When you are walking with Christ, his protection covers you.
It shall be there when the evil one tries to destroy you.
But Christ shall say no and cover you in his protective wings.
He shall catch you when you fall and gently set you down.
Life still shall be hard, but you shall not perish here.
Until God says that it is your time to pass on to heaven.
So stand firm, trust your Lord God and serve him only.
For he is getting ready to raise you up as well.
He is going to use you all in a mighty awesome way.

Dreams stream meaning anxious grieving like I'm lost in freezing frost cracking crisis vast madness condensed in a sense I wake dense heavy and weary confused and crazy restless as the fury who knows something is coming closer~closer still closer dust to dust flaming flashes my ashes to ashes until this life too passes.