Your smile drew me in because it was your conception.
You lips tasted like deception.
You deceived my eyes while pouring out lies.
I saw the sky but didn't know you painted it.
I wish I could reverse time and release this curse.
A nightmare that I live everyday.
Expecting you.

Hugging and kissing in the rain is so passionate
It doesn't matter how long you're there with your loved one
Staring at each other is what you live for in that moment
Looking at each other like y'all met for the first time
Spacing out your surroundings like they don't exist
The only thing that matters is you, her and emotions
Caressing her cheek and looking in those brown eyes is all you have time for
Not leaving each other guessing whether your love is worthy or not
You and her are there for a reason, so make it count
The rain has its own time it goes by for you and her
A moment in the rain with a loved one can last a lifetime
For both loved ones that is all that matters to them
Feeling the rain drops on their heads and face make this moment worth it
Smiling and leaning into each other is the best for both
That moment they both kiss, the world no longer exist
As they pull apart from each other the words escape their mouth
"I love you."

I imagine us standing on this bridge over a stream.
I kneel down on one knee and pull out the ring.
The excitement on your face says it all.
Its crazy how all that is imagined.
Well I still loved every moment of it.

They saved you.
Little to their knowledge.

Grey clouds gather.
They said it would be scattered showers.
Some here and some there.
Later it will be severe.
High speed winds coming from my mouth.
Heavy rain from my eyes.
Flash flood warning.
Tears will sweep you away.
Wind so fierce it willl blow you away.
Not everyone has a center or an eye to stay calm.

Too many people have asked questions about you...
The most important question they asked is "Why do I care?"...
I tell them because I see the good in you...
They always tell me I'm stupid or dumb for waiting for you...
I know that your love is worth the pain...
God this is so hard to write but I need to get this out...
I've deleted so many lines and words...
All I see is you and I...
In time that may change but at this moment that's all I see...
I have been sleepless...
I have been tired...
I have cried...
I have wanted your love since I first met you...
I see this beautiful woman that stands before me...
I see how fragile she is...
I see she has battle scars from previous wars...
She is a warrior...
She deserves a purple heart...

My life is a canvas.
I'm the paintbrush.
Like Bob Ross has said.
There are no mistakes.
Only happy accidents.
"'Til next time friends."

I lay my life down but not with my soul...
I make ready my weapon of choice...
I can fit eleven in the clip and one in the chamber...
This ammo is designed to make you fear for your life...
A hollow point to make your soul vanish...
I pull the trigger and the life has ended...

I stare at the stars and wonder...
They are scattered like my thoughts...
Surrounded by darkness...
Yet have light of their own...
A star showed me something I did not see...
You make your own light...
When surrounded by darkness...

Let her voice ring in your head.
Remember she loves to sing.
If it annoys you, it shouldn't.
Thats her when she's trying to get things off her mind.
When she tells you that she's not good enough for you, remind her why you love her.
Cherish her kisses. Her hugs. Her love.
Be there 'til the end of it all.
Turquoise, Sunflower Yellow and Lavender are her colors.
Those colors make a beautiful painting.
Sunflowers, Roses and Tulips make a beautiful bokay.
Just be there for her when she falls in darkness.
Be her light when all she sees is shadows.

My mental health is not okay....
I'm just waiting patiently one day...
When the time finally comes....
I'll be on my way....
My head floats through the clouds....
Waiting for an answer....
Trying to match everything that has happened....
My life has become a typhoon....
I wreck everything in my path....
I have a center....
Thats why I'm calm....
Then it starts all over....

I lost one of my best friends.
I lost the woman I loved.
Its okay though.
Peace.

I’m still lost in my head...
I peel back the layers of thoughts...
My mind feeds on my soul...
My desire to have you is unbearable...
I’m still intrigued by you...
Please help...
I’m reaching for your hand...
Take it in hopes of me finding my way back...

Its been five months....
I still got tears in my eyes...
I wish it was dust that caused it...
These memories will be the end of me...
Next month I'll have your first letter for a year...
Silly me I guess...
There's no use for them anymore...

I should come with a warning label.
To show you what you will get.
I over love.
I ask questions.
I dont like being alone.
I hate thunder.
I love fall.
I'll love you for you.

But that's probably not good enough right.
It never will be.

Look in my eyes and see yourself...
Let me show you what I see...
All the things you can be...
I see what makes me happy...
You see what bothers people...
I see what turns my day into not being ******...
You see a ****** person with a ***** mirror...
Let me clean that because not all mirrors need to be *****...
Look in my eyes and see yourself with my soul...
Just feel what I'm feeling and tell me it's not a mistake...
Think about it...

Roses are something beautiful.
They bloom with perfection.
Roses also have thorns.
To attack.
To defend.
I love the color of roses.
Pink and Red is what I see.

If I bought you a necklace with a ring on it, would you wear it.
If I learned to say I love you in different languages, would you listen to me.
If I scribed your name on my bones, does that make it everlasting.
If I etch your soul on my brain stem, does that mean my heart rate will increase.
If your fingerprints were left on my heart, does that mean you can unlock it.

The waves crash on the shore...
It buries everything under it...
The sand becomes soft...
Leave behind your footprints...
In time the wave will clear your path...
Look clear across the water at the horizon...
That warm glow behind the clouds...
Let it fuel your heart...
Lean towards it my sunflower...
In time everything will fall in place...

Poetry is how I escape my mind...
I’m finding it hard to write this...
I kept deleting each sentence...
I wanted to make sure it was perfect...
Like you...
I want to repress my memories of you...
My mind plays jokes and laughs at me...
It seduces my heart and pulls on the strings...
I lost the key to my soul then you showed up...
You were the skeleton key...
You opened everything in me...
Now all I have is a loose door with squeaky hinges...
Thank you for changing my light when it was out...
Thank you for jump starting my heart...
It was slowly fading away...
Now it pumps because of you...
Thank you for everything...

These dreams are kicking my ***.
These demons feed on my soul.
I ask god for forgiveness and he said he was out.
I looked to my left and saw no one.
I looked to my right and saw no one.
I face these demons with little faith.
Here I come to the depths.

Rest is for the wicked.
So I lay my head down in hopes of being at peace.