Remembering you has my mind in a maze.
To the point where my vision becomes haze.
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“It’s time to go.”
“Will it hurt?”
”Leaving never hurts”
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It was the biggest lie I was told.
Leaving hurt more.
It always did.
Especially when it was “You”.
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“I’ll be here with you.”
“Through laughs, fighting, crying etc”
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You know the rest.
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We said things that we meant.
Only now it just feels empty.
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Well it’s history now.
That’s all we have.
No more memories or bonding.
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I know you’re still out there.
Still thinking of me, because I do the same thing.
Ah hell. Who knows. Maybe you don’t.
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“Hi! How are you?”
“Hey it’s been a few days!”
“Hey, I’m just checking up on you.
“Hey! I miss you!”
“Hey. I hope you’re doing okay”
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“Please answer dad.”
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“I love you!”
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I look at my hands and they are shaking.
My breathe is shuttering.
My words are stuttering.
My ease has been stirred with a blender.
Now I feel eager when I’m with you.