I'm so sorry
That I did not treat you better
And that
I let my anxieties
Ruin the moment

There is something seductive about your words
Your ideas and thoughts
Your confidence
Are more seducing than
Anything you could wear

Your shadow may weigh
the same,
As if you weren't there
At all.

But your actions
Today,
are
paramount.

Have you ever stayed up
Wondering?
If they truly
Love you back?

Why would I run through the gale for you?
When all you do is make me cry?
After all that you have put me through
Sometimes I wonder if you try

Why would I soak myself?
Through the sheets of rain
As you put my heart up on the shelf
You stay dry while I'm damp with pain

There was a time I would run after you
When the harsh winds and showers mattered not
Long ago when your character was true
Before my heart began to rot

Before the mold ate away what was once there
Now sour tastes and bitter tang
Back when we were warm and fair
Now from the rafters my heart does hang

I do not think I would step outside today
While maelstroms crash and strain
I choke on these words but I must say
I would not run after you through that soaking rain.

Puzzle pieces of fumbled assortment
A smell of cardboard chips
Bedlam ensues
When scattered and afraid

But a piece thinks it unselfish
To join hands with another neighbor
A myriad of frightened fragments
Can surely make for a beautiful picture