A resting Child.....Asleep before the ball drops.......Sound asleep on the couch.....poor kid, when will he make it to midnight?...i can't seem to remember when i did...... but somewhere along the line time started moving faster...now it flies by....some where along the line i grew up and learned bitterness, pride and regret...i wonder what this child's dreaming over in this new years moon?...playing, candy and food i presume...he's asleep...yet i'm still awake.... pondering my chances at a clean slate........but this child doesn't need a new years kiss for he lives a new years eve each and every night..365 years to our 1 ...OOO Poor adult when will you fall asleep before midnight so to remember and reclaim what uv'e lost? ...A new year every night

Habitual hives under my skin…i don’t know where you come from…your cause pervades me even though I declared to figure you out 1,000 times….much like my emotions….

Itching and burning under my skin...waking me from deep slumber…then gone without a trace….what a gift of irritation…what a gift of understanding… my truth was but a helpless mirage….

OOO Hives thank you for showing my ignorance but yet still your only scratching the surface of my………..helplessness…carry on

I am a man that understands…
  I write…I read….but I truly do not know….i only ask questions
                       And hope for what I cannot see …
                      I wish to love in the midst of hate…..
                   Kindness and patience as my embrace…
                         Neither in pride nor strength
      For greater is He who is within my understanding…
                                The He who Knows all…
                                   I pray blind Faith……..

I don’t need reality because i can hold eternity in my TOY CAR Forever….i don’t listen to wrinkles and aged bones… why should i? i drive from death in my toy car forever…..every day I make it look better…better….and better…….my toy car forever…..i could save the world!…with my toy car forever...it needs my time and im almost there….if I just keep working..working..working…it will be ready….i’ll give it all my life in exchange for the fountain of youth….a delusion echoed from a little boy in a picture frame…. ….a frame resting in a casket……..he was old and dead….buried in the rusting fender of his toy car forever…………..toy car forever… toy car forever………………………..

Emotions can love and hate….kiss or ****... ….emotions smile and frown…..going up and down, making decisions based on how they feel…… And just like that someone is IN or OUT…and just like that forever turns to goodbye…

Emotions have absolutely no principals…no integrity…no loyalty…no longevity…no control…not even to the one who makes the choice! YES can be NO and NO can be YES in the same breathe…..

It’s emotional Anarchy!!! And O how our emotional highs are thought to be success and ours lows we detest. Yet in this ruse they are one in the same…only confusion remains….still we have emotion and a brain for good reason………. but my dear i beg in distain to refrain from decisions made from the cannibalistic emotions that shift….but instead on God’s unchanging Words and His everlasting gift……..Christ

Words…… What are WORDS in the mouth of humanity?

What are Words but sophisticated toys for grown up boys that call themselves men.... let’s not pretend… …. we’ve made a ******* of the ideas born from earthly SYMBOLS….in the face of love or hate who can pull back the reigns of it’s inconsistent passion?….

But dare i not say that we even speak words at all but are only yacking the call of loud deafness…of madness… What are words anyway in the mouths of men? If we knew…. we wouldn’t be writing or speaking at all……..We’d all just be in constant Awe of Our Creator…….

You lie and wait for me to stumble….To slip…to fall….to fail….in a face that says I love you….
you've exchanged my kindness for a plan to ruin me….my emotions rage and my mind keeps account …
O Lord settle me from variant emotions…from acting in passion….For have i not myself, once been this person?…..
Help me overcome the battle of body and spirit……OO my enemy just because your my enemy doesn’t mean i have to hate you back….Lord may your Will be done so when my enemies hate me i bless them even more……