My love ill meet you  at your emotional two left feet and  i won’t ask you to dance …

i’ll just sit on your eyelashes till you ask me to slow dance with your memories…. till eternity or  glass slipper.……............------women-------

Love of my Love… my life… my very breathe.. Please show me where to meet you…at the place where i claimed to love You…where i said nothing was above You…a place beyond fairytales……..-----God-----  

i struggle, i struggle between prayers and cuddles im troubled how much more i long for one over the other………………..Father Guide me to Your acceptance

Our hungry world eats humanity like roasted delicacies… ooo how it loves the chase of its wild dreams especially when it smokes it’s passions in the furnace of a wild mouth…

O dear Father my lips have spoken....spoken in shame…in haste…. in pride….in fear….in lies….all from the throat of my demise.

i didn’t love You as i claimed… have mercy for i could not bite my tongue with my own tooth…
Or tame life and death on the edge of it’s blade… at what age can i raise its sword from the stone of pride?

OOO great magician of my jaw make my lies disappear and may I be deaf to worldly cheers, only drinking the tears of humility so to truly  cry a pure Halleluiah.

A picture says a 1000 words but poems speak where senses fail. I can’t remember or recall my awaked dreams scribbled with scattered penmanship.

Before ink dries I cry in the passionate silence of inner groaning till I exploded into the unknown. I don’t know my poems but they new me….
1 year later on the date I read them for the first time and saw the faces of yesterday’s fear in full ignorance. ….

OO poem you waited in my timid soul so to face my yesterday right now.
I wish to kiss you but you’ve passed on….leaving a poetic obituary of the human journey,, where present words fail…. Holy Spirit  guided me from death into life……..”seek and you will find” ……..

O Lord i don't know anything!
I know nothing of nothing----which is the something of my everything----It is my every being as a creature called man----
Yet all is dust for dust-----leaving me with a world of nothing.....
i think there for i am but i know nothing....yet i think nothing is everything----
i am therefore a living nothing doing nothing and everything dust could do----futile

i have masks that hide me in plain sight! Masks….upon….. masks….. upon…. masks… woven in my flesh in a habitual binge of pain and pleasure….
i'm stripping down to reality…… a reality covered in lies!!  O how i’m living a lie!
i’m falling deeper into confusion and deeper into understanding….
How clever a coward like me to justify hypocrisy ...i can’t bare to know anymore and i cant bare or afford not to listen.. .. OOO Why can't i discard the mask that sings my name?!!  O Lord please make me invisible to the sight of yesterdays lies in those eyes that are envious and  jealous.....may i sing i was blind and now i see……..fill me with true identity

O God tell me if my tears are crazy or if my memory has gone mad…

Ive tried to deny--- to argue--- to ignore my deepest longings for love…

I am ripping at the seams and now it seems I am eaten away by the patience I once denied…but where do I turn?

O mysterious wind of Thy Spirit you have me right where You need me……Helpless…….

Quiet… still…. Speechless…. Alone…. confused with Christmas carols…only 2000 miles off from where I once heard them… …I cry…I sigh…..i try… I try….i sigh….i cry… longing to be held, to touch… to kiss….OOOO how I tried to the extreme of frenzy and frigid…in ignorance and pride…oooo I tired….. ive cried…. ive died 1000 times…and time never slows….its just like yesterday only 10 years older…..wiser but ignorant…..OOO if I could only fade into the imagination of what I tried to attain…… drifting into what cannot be explained…… forever forgetting bad habits like bad dreams……..yet id never trade this lonely night for if I did I would have never met you……………..Faith, Hope and Love………..Jesus