Level with me Doll.
How is this going to go down?
When are the shots going to call?
Don’t ail me with that beautiful frown.

I might be walking to my grave
With these wounds and a bottle of ***.
Lovely one, you must be brave
But know, if I lose, you must run.

I think he said it started at ten.
This situation is already bad.
I think I will wait till nine after then.
Death is only a phase, don’t be sad.

Some might call me a coward
Others might dub me a hero
But we must always march on forward.
We burned it to the ground, just like Nero.

Pack your bags at once.
Be ready on the fly to flee.
If I am a fool, I will be a dead dunce.
If I survive, know that I will be back for thee.

Know this my darling Katherine
That this deadly roadside cult,
Even when the end didn’t begin,
This was never your fault.

Over the past few years,
I have scanned the horizon for your eyes
I have shed many tears.
Feeling like my soul would never rise.

Over the past few years,
I have craved and felt for you too.
I have shed many tears.
I swear Giovanni; I will give my life to you.

You are the only one,
For whom I will sign,
A grim pen of golden sun,
Upon a black, dotted line.

I will sell my soul,
If I can only add one request,
The room goes cold,
When I ask you for the kiss of death.

I was only a child,
When you haunted my dreams.
The sound of your voice drove me wild.
Nothing is as it seems.

I felt for you beyond my years.
Why did you leave me, Love?
You granted me all my living fears.
For you, I went beyond and above.

Why did you leave me Dear?
Was it because I asked,
For you to be truly near,
Or for your pale haunting mask.

I was only a tender age of ten,
And only a while you stayed, my love.
I remember it well, just as I did then.
My memory just needs a slight shove.

Your teeth were sharp like knives,
Your lips and skin, cold as ice.
So often you threatened our lives.
A simple explanation would have to suffice.

I still felt close to you,
Your height intimidating me so.
Together, we were never through.
Despite the pain, I never wanted you to go.

In the labyrinth of my dreams,
You pushed me through my life.
It was more than a few hours it seems.
All the memories lost in strife.

My places of inner hurt, and pain,
Healed instantly by your sweet kisses.
Your voice to me was soft like rain.
She aims, she shoots, and she misses.

But alas, I guess you had to go.
You left without a word,
After I begged you so,
But you must have not heard.

Taking my life with yours,
Would have been easy for someone like you,
The pain we both bore
Everything we knew then was nothing new.

My days seem darker and shorter.
I can already tell what’s going to happen next
You left me, and I know you will leave her.
Your raw appetite, for a ******’s neck.

My phantom of the night,
I hear the music, in which I lie,
I a most unseemly sight.
This is why I hate saying goodbye.

Drown me, in all of my misery,
I pray my darling dear.
Come back to me, my dear Giovanni.
I fear life, when you are not here.

If and when you do,
I can assuredly make you a promise.
I will get down on my knees and beg for you.
Teach me your ways, I am no longer a novice.


I can beg your forgiveness,
I can try to sate your desire.
I can do what I can do to impress,
My dear, loving insomnia sire.

A thirst for fire, deep in my soul.
But how black and red can your own soul get?
I have been almost lifeless and cold,
From the moment we met,

Feelings I have cannot be described,
You will have to come back to figure them out.
I realize you cannot be bribed,
But don’t make me shout!

I’m back and you haunt my eyes and my pen,
Why did it have to be this way?
What did I do to you? I don’t ken.
I now refuse to do exactly as you say.

I sometimes forget,
That you are a figment of my imagination.
You are me, to you I did beget.
Who was wrong to think you were my salvation.

Denial is a *****,
Because I know that you are real,
You are in the back of my mind like an itch.
I know it is my sanity that you are trying to steal.

I see you out of the corners of my eyes.
I feel your presence constantly
I know my soul is your prize.
And you insist on having it, quite belligerently.

Come back to me my love
It’s all I beg of you
Please I plead
Because I need you

It’s the burden I bear.
It’s the cross I always wear.

It’s a secret I can never tell.
It’s a feeling that only I know quite well.

It’s a black mar upon my soul.
It’s the epitome of a hopeless goal.

It’s the eternal fear I harbor.
It’s pushing me back into hell, even farther.

It’s that that thing my conscience advises me against.
But now I know I have to suffer my penance.

It’s something quite similar to a cancerous disease.
It’s the way I feel, all the pent up unease.

Its just like the cancer, there is no cure.
Well, maybe the words of a little girl so pure.

I have got to make it tomorrow.
I must know what happens next
I don't like to be out of the loop
I am always in the life of the party
And if something happens tomorrow
And I am not there, I don't know
What I will do. I might die.

Despite what people tell you,
To yourself, always be true.
Stick to yourself like glue.
And always remember to be you.

An outside influence is nothing.
Take it as it comes
No matter what is coming.

The only person you can hurt
When all you rely on is yourself,
Is the person you rely on,
For your mental and physical health.

You can be your own best friend.
But remember to step aside sometimes.
Your life’s complete joy can very quickly end,
When you exclude acquaintances from your life and times.

Love is but a fantasy
I’ve been denied of it to often
To love truly ever again
Would be to much

A single soul exists
Inside my fairly tale
I’ll gives you a hint
That will blow you away
-its not you

Darkness clouds my heart,
Because you will not be mine.
Mine so sweet as to
Not be my valentine.

Melancholy coldens your touch,
Against my lukewarm skin.
Even god will vouch
Against our sin.

You harshly deny,
Any hint of relationship,
And against the feel of you and your lips
I can tell you this is a lie.

Crushed and irate,
I feel the need to exasperate,
But honored by your need,
To feed on by hearts aching stings.

When night comes to take,
I feel a desire begin to quake,
For your body against mine,
And there you would be,
All I feel I have to do is sign
On the dotted line.


I think I understand,
Why to me you aren’t true.
But I think its time I reveal to you,
What I want and from whom.

A deadly relationship
To each of our pride.
But I have seen, and know you
Have another side.

I wish I could tell you
That this cannot go on.
But lust for your love, your touch
Has taken on my well of conscience.

True to me all
That I may not know,
The meaning of true love
I had hoped to find in you.

... To bad.

What an unseemly sight, these forests of the night.
While the wolves bay, the watchman will say,
“What an unseemly sight, these forests of the night.”

For dawn is hours to come, yes its frightening to some.
The watchman told you, he said, to check your closet before bed.
For dawn is hours to come, yes its frightening to some.

Crying out loud
******* inside
Hearing my own sound
Sanity denied

True calling made sane
Foreseeing others brutal fate
Now it’s me
True calling to be

Shrouded in white
Within a blackened haze
Only bits and pieces
Will remain

Slowly going mad
Life slipping away
Blood coming back
And I think its
Here to stay

I glare up into the darkness,
Feeling like I am going insane.
Sensations say I am losing my brain.
I am truly startled by the oblique starkness.
But when I realize my mistake,
I pull of my colorful, pitch-black hood.
Looking around, I see the morning sun is so good.
I have earned back everything I put at stake.

“Mommy, Mommy!” The little girl cried.
“Mommy, Mommy, its story time.”

“Little girl, you wish me to tell you,
All the tales of glee they say aren’t true.

I’ll tell you a tale,
About the ferocious dragons golden scale.

I’ll tell you a story,
About the princes undying glory.

I’ll tell you about a time,
When there were no nursery rhymes.

I’ll tell you about a little boy,
Playing with his shiny new toy.

I’ll tell you about a little girl,
Whose house flew away in a tornado whirl.

See for yourself,
The smallest little elf.

Ride the wind,
And let the games begin.

Surf with the whales,
By God girl, I will give you a tale.

Some people say it isn’t so,
Tell me yourself, and look out your window.”

To have and to hold you
The rest of my life
These words would only **** me
As if they were a knife

Afraid of commitment
After to many breaks
Only you could guess
The chances and the stakes

I can give you my body
But never my mind
For I’ve already
Had it taken away
For an everlasting
Hate
That would put us
Both in binds

I’m sorry to say
That I can’t say I do
For only one to me
I know will be true

-me

A man has his wife,
And a queen has her king,
But when it comes to me; Strife…
No such thing, not even a fling.

Not one person is willingly mine,
Mine so sweet as to not be my valentine.

If I am to spend a life alone,
How long should I wait?
For my heart to turn to stone.

A lover has his companion,
And a girlfriend has her boyfriend,
But I have no net to land in.
And no one to hold me until the end.

If you wished me to be prolific,
You should have been more specific.

If you wished me to be gentle with you,
You should have specifically told me what to do.

You know what they say, rules are meant to bend.
Specific instructions are the ones you should send.

Touch her here,
Touch her there,
She wants to be touched everywhere.

Slow and passionate,
Or fast with your heart in it.
Either way, you must stick with it.

You could be on top like a dove,
Or she could be the one above.
All these are ways of making love.

The birds in the sky,
Have a freedom they cannot deny.

They have been given the green light
To fly high, high from anyone’s sight.

Avian permission, a gift from Gods will.
What music they make, that melodic shrill.

Spread your wings as far as they can go,
And all of the world, they will know.

This wingspan of life ever so wide.
Only lead shot can silence this pride.

Threatened only by a shadows kiss.
This is the life that the rest of us miss.

It makes us want to grow, develop wings.
This proves the fact, we only want impossible things.

No matter, we can lead by example.
This perfect life we will never sample.

Watching for birds, we will take a walk.
Time is the only factor, hurry up. Tick Tock.

I stand corrected,
In the way of being right.
I think my ways have been edited,
So I could see the light.

Why didn’t I see it before?
I wonder, was I so blind?
The crowd around me,
They didn’t seem to mind.

But then someone named stranger
Dared to tell me I was wrong.
It just makes me wonder,
If I have been doing this for very long.

Don’t lose hope,
Just because of Shawn
Don’t lose your mind.
Just sing this happy song.

Be the gal everyone loves
You will always rise above.

Always do what you do best.
Take a deep breath
Give life’s meaning a rest
You managed to pass this test

Don’t think long on memories past.
Life is only something to outlast.
When your having trouble getting along
Just sing this happy song.

Sing this lovely Boheme.
Make it your life’s long theme.
Don’t let thoughts of that love dwell
Cause girl it wont do you well.

A sacred beauty, a true bohemian.
But a girl who brings home the bacon.
You are a woman’s woman.

Don’t let life get you down
Turn that frown upside down.
You have too much to live for
To be living life, emotionally poor.

When you down,
Sing this lovely song
It is something to help
You get along

Stop being pitiful,
You cant afford it
Especially when you are so beautiful.

Live life to the fullest.
Never let your nose touch the sky
When in doubt.
Sing this song and you will know why.

From far away, comes a distant cry
Not a cry, a song
From a maiden so sweet, and ever so sly,
Looking upon her, one would think that in the world there was no wrong.

Sweet, from high and low.
She will hum, calling, calling,
To tempt the men and fluster the boys, just for show.
To move in for the ****, she is only stalling.

In the dead of night,
Her song will entrance,
Those willing to aid her plight,
They come for a kiss and a dance.

A kiss and a dance one might receive,
But a mysterious ****** would soon occur,
However, beautiful eyes are hard to deceive,
All because of a longing to spend a night with her.

Don’t cry because you have lost something,
Be glad because you have room for something more.
Consider it, an opening of another door.

Don’t laugh because someone you dislike is hurt.
Ask yourself inside, what is their life worth,
To someone whose disposition with them isn’t as curt.

Don’t be sorrowful, because something is never coming back,
Be joyful because it’s less to pack.
There’s more space on your incredible, ***** rack.

Don’t shout to the skies,
When someone you loathe, keels over and dies.
Keep in mind, all the questions and whys.

A queen has her man beside her,
Sitting upon the throne.
But I am destined, for sure,
To spend my eternity alone.

Not a single living soul,
Is willingly mine,
All the hearts that I stole,
Mine so sweet, as to not be my valentine.

If I am to spend my life alone,
How long should I wait?
For my heart to turn to stone,
Or for my desires to satiate.

A Woman has her husband,
But what does that leave me?
Unfortunately, time has run out of sand,
An empty life, for me, as far as my eyes can see.

He speaks to me in the cold of the night
Always telling me what to do
Telling me what is right
And laughing, laughing, laughing at you, you, and you

He talks to me in the light heat of day
Whispering nothings into my ear
The right things to say
That no one else can hear

He says to me in the warmth of twilight
“I love you Kroix, you are mine.”
But gone is he to everyone but of my sight
This thread of insanity is becoming a thinner line

His voice to me in the cool of dawn
Wraps me in a cloud
I carry with me my spirits loving spawn
Waking me up with out a sound

When grandfather strikes a dozen
The light of my “friend” starts to shine
Shine so brightly, the lady in white.
When I gaze upon her, my heart begins to pine.

Sit she gently upon my bed,
I’m clueless, whether to embrace her
Or pull the covers over my head.
My dear lady in white.

Whisper a meaning of life in my ear,
Hold me tightly,
Wipe away my tears.
To some, I can imagine this being quite unsightly

The grandfather clock strikes the first,
When she fades away my soul begins to burst.
Such a shame she can’t stay.
But then again, tomorrow is another day.

Sitting’ in this green field,
And feeling the wind in my hair.
I watch the breeze sway the trees
And I watch the traffic go by.
I can hear every detail sailing
Through the clear late spring air.
The bird calls to its lover,
And the trains rumble silently by.
And I think to myself…
Wondering what kind of person
I know I could share this exact moment with.
And he felt, heard, and saw everything I did
Just with different vision.
The only thing that is the same
Is the love filling the air
Around us.

Why am I denied this,
This simple pleasure in life?
I have everything to risk.
But I would give anything to be your wife.

I watch you day by day,
You mind always perplexing me,
I know, from her side you will never stray,
But I offer myself to you, can’t you see?

Subtle signs say you notice me too,
But when will your will of iron break
Only too long, can my emotions brew?
But, we have everything at stake.

It’s not really my business,
But I know for a fact its true,
I know you will not risk ‘Us’
But, I can take so much better care of you

When I pass by a reflective glass,
I turn my gaze to the floor.
When I walk past a fateful mirror, I ask,
“Good God, please Lord, show me no more.”

But this day, I met a man,
Handling the thing I hate the most,
With kind young eyes, scarred over hands,
And a smile and a frown playing on his lips.

I think he noticed my downcast glare,
He lifted my chin,
And took mine in his own two pair.
He turned me ‘round to face my sin.

My gaze burned back,
Deep down inside my head.
My mental train losing its track.
This comely, well meaning man, to me he said,

“Sweet woman, why do you cry?
At an image so inspiring, illuminating.
You must tell me why,
When you should be smiling, yet you are weeping.

You might have tears in your eyes
And the heaviest lead in your heart,
But you have the beauty woman despise,
Ill show you what I’m talking about, just to start.

With eyes of ice blue, and sometimes emerald,
And soft full moon lips,
The hair of the angel’s herald,
Perfection in your curves, the contour of your hips.

Don’t let anyone tell you different,
For snide remarks will be plentiful,
Something as good as you can only be heaven sent,
‘Cause Lordy, good God, woman. You are BEAUTIFUL.”

Go away, I’ll hiss to you
Leave me alone and in peace, I’m ******
To curl up in my fetal corner
To fade away with father time.

Here’s to you.
Here’s to me.
I will love you forever.
Its plain to see.

Life has grown cold,
Because you’re not here.
Cant you summon up,
One final cheer.

Here’s to the life we had.
Here’s to the life still to come.
Whatever joys or sorrows we face,
We have faced worse, maybe some.

This is my life with you,
I am happy no matter what.
Just do me a favor,
And don’t close shut.

I looked forward to your class,
It made me happy when I walked through the door.
But it was like walking on shredded glass,
And I always came back for more.

You pushed my limits
When it came to my own form of art
You made me look into my heart, deep withing it.
As a whole I wanted this moment to be more than a part.

Sometimes all we did was read.
Being at my best was quite a feat
For you, I tried so hard to succeed
I only had everyone in the pod to beat.

Ogling something more than the books.
Persuasion was out of the question and moot.
But how can I help it when my teacher had such good looks.
With a perfect personality to boot.

It’s a fickle thing.
Time…

A golden glass,
Held in place by a string.
Time…

A calculation that is too
Quick to pass.
Time…

One lost it cannot be regained,
It’s all to true.
Time…

It is something that cannot be restrained.
So don’t spare seconds, minutes, and hours to waste.
Time…

Quickly now we must make haste,
There is no time to spare.
Lest we find it’s a waste.
Not other aspect can compare.

An old child once asked me
“How is your heart, my friend?”
How was I to say?
That it was broken to pieces that very day
By a secret gone away

A deadly passion
Fueled by hate
Running away to
Forget is the
Last thing on my mind

A fatal love
I have for you
Call your name
Is all I can seem to do?

A dark tunnel
One which has no end
Keeps calling me back
Again and again

Come close this time
My hearts beating faster
And faster
Touch me, hold me
Love me
It’s all I ask
And I’ll return the favor

Darkness in pain
When my darkness fails to light a new day has dawned.
As we know
It is our existence and purpose to travel to the Milky Way
And say
Darkness, darkness why do you fail to light our night
And he shall
Reply
There is pain in your time and it reflects on me.
Not until
You change your ways, shall I return to your rage infested
World.
And since then we have known yet at all.

A lover’s soul can be quiet,
A lover’s soul can be loud
A lover’s soul can be angry
A lover’s soul can rejoice
A lover’s soul can be jealous
A lover’s soul can be sad
A lover’s soul can be trusted
A lover’s soul can live.
But what most people don’t know,
Is that a lovers soul can die too.

When people look at me.
I realize they might scream.
People don’t like me.
Because I’m not like them.
Just because I’m different.
Just because I’m not a wannabe.
I’m just a gonnabe.
I have a future
And they don’t.
But why do they laugh at me so.
I know I'm not gorgeous.
Or popular or skinny either.
I don’t have those classic features.
Just don’t laugh at me.

I want to be remembered by a complete stranger, because I did something randomly and significantly that he or she witnessed or was a part of.

I want to be the person whose shoulder people know they can cry on.

I want to be somebody who made a difference in some other persons life.

I want to be the person who laughs everyday.

I want to be a blessing.

I want to be a leader.

I want to be remembered.

I want to be defined as a good, unusual, and unique person.

I want to be remembered for starting a movement that affects a lot of people in a positive way.

I want be recognized for my intelligence, among other things in relation to that.

I want to be the person that people come to for answers.

I want to be the person that someone can truly rely on.

I want to be 5'9".

I want to be irreplaceable.

There are many things that people 'want'. Money, jobs, a home, lovers, life, possessions, miracles. In this case I would say that only 50% at most would get what they wanted. But when you want something that requires a little thought or material effort on you're part...well that's when things that you want to happen start happening. Only you can change you. Only you can make a difference in that department. Respect it. It is one of the few things in life that you have absolute and awe inspiring power over.

I though I had a friend in you
And maybe one in you and you
Little did I expect?
That you’d just think me a wreck
And now im stuck with me
That shows what I know about you and me