Right knots
Filling up my stomach
Low throbs
From within my chest
Dizzy spells, drifting sideways
Feeling tense, head is pounding
When I think of her with you
This is what my body decides to do

It's been so hard
Erasing you from my brain
Why can't I just get over you?
I have it so badly, don't you see?
No matter how much you try to ignore me
We tried to be friends, but that hardly worked out
And you don't want more
But I want more
I want a good chance
To show my affection and care for you
I can treat you ten time better than she can
Make you laugh better than she can
Talk to you better than she can
Listen better than she can
Kiss better than she can
And maybe, just maybe, if given enough time,
I could love you.
I don't, but I could
I haven't kissed you, but I could
I haven't touched you sweetly, but I could
I haven't shown you all of me, but I could.
I haven't loved you, but I would.

Now, where has my inspiration gone?
I'm afraid it's left for awhile
The objects that gave my words meaning
Are lost to me now

I'm at a loss, a total loss
I've completely lost my drive
My poetry revives me
It's what I love to write

Look through what I have written
Mostly of a current disappointment
So how to move forward, I'm uncertain
I just can't put words to it

I've lost my love for poetry
I've lost the passion and drive
I'm stuck here with no subject
Even this feels contrived

I'm done for now
Maybe I'll return
You just keep ruining things for me
I'll take my break
And then I'll learn
What deep, meaningful words mean to **me

Why did I think you were different?
You're no different than the others
Who gave me half-hearted words
When I give you all of mine.

I simply cannot forgive myself
For believing you were unique
I can tell you can hardly stand me
Why can't you just tell me point blank?

I strain to even speak to you
I used to enjoy my talks with you
It's apparent you want to forget me
When I didn't want to forget you

You know you hurt me badly
You know you broke my heart
So man up and just tell me
Why we should be apart

I gave you words and words of truth
That truly came from within my heart
You gave me, what, two sentences?
Now that'swhat tore me apart

I don't want an explanation
Considering you wouldn't give it
Our lack of communication
Is reality. I should just admit it.

I'm sorry I kept on trying
I'm sorry I wasted your time
I'm just deeply disappointed
My sweetness couldn't save me this time

I gave my whole heart to you
Which was obviously a mistake
Your another one for the books my 'friend'
I just hate to call you a mistake.

I don't know why I thought you were different
Its so cliche, you were never mine.
I won't waste your time any longer
Just spare me the kindness this time.

You never forget your first love
So I'll never forget you.
I still haven't told you this
But, I have a feeling you never knew
how deeply I felt
Those months and months ago
How can I even face you?
In person, I still shake and quake when I get near you
When we talk, and we laugh, my smile fades
I still know you don't see me any other way
I know you think I'm sweet
You tell me that I'm brave
For revealing the feelings I had
Basically to your face
I still recall the few sweet times that we had
I can still smile at that.
I just want to hear your voice again
Stare at your perfect face again
Do you even want to see me again?
I cry if I think about that... again.
You remain a perfect memory in my mind
Your rejection has forever imprinted in my gentle mind
I can't ever forget you
Even if I wanted to
Often I wish I could, but I can't, I just can't
Just don't ever shut me out, please hear me out
I will always care about you, even if you don't see me that way too.

If I fell
Who would you tell?
I fell for you
And you never even knew
Feelings compromised?
I'm quite surprised
That you never even knew
That I fell head over heels for you
I always looked right at you
Made sure to smile wide too
The things I said were well thought out
I was cautious, flaked with doubt
Was I sweet, does he think I'm nice?
I began ignoring my friends advice
Months later I still write about you
And it's because I wish that
You had fallen for me too