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 Nov 2013 Morgan Paige
brooke
sometimes
i feel like maybe
i was born in the
wrong body, as
if maybe something
went wrong in customs
and i'm merely a lost
item in the wrong
airport.
(c) Brooke Otto 2013
Twisted, protruding and mangled; my heart.
Life seems levitated upon my resting place,
right there at your feet.
Can I be allowed a phone call to my shattered body;
do please reassure my flesh that I still exist.

Numbness only to secure abstinence;
easier said than done, only the strong prevail.
Rubber grips and a metal frame and the smell of burnt sulphur and carbon;
the tool that drove life right out of my left temple.
I am right handed; with my own hand, my own absence of leave.
I want to live, I want to die again another time;
just not as I am now;
unfulfilled.

Through torture and pain, I am a fighter.
I am dramatically a complainer,
tools such as questions and expectations, my unbecoming.
Feather light as I float,
my expectations, again, my reason I am not me...

Dont bring me back, cry for me;
hold me hard, rock my body in your arms,
stay, don't just leave.
I have no one, no empty spaces to fill;
to fill like a cup with the chagrin of my decisions.
Let me stay, just hold me;
even more for it's the last time.

My end. Thorough yet empty.
I live inside of a life where I hide emotions
Inside of some dumb metaphors I can't finish
Because people react better when I write out
'I used my arms as another canvas'
Yet double takes result from 'I used to cut myself'
Clearly I'm still just an emo teen
A stereotypical kid who needs to find meaning
My sadness is pretentious and unwarranted
While my anger just makes me hateful
Because that feeling you deserve more than you have
Or that loneliness you feel during quiet times
It's all absurd when you're just a kid
You clearly can't be feeling all of this
They tell me to just ******* relax
I guess I could try to flip the switch
But light won't come on when it's not attached
Depression isn't just getting lost in the woods
And anxiety isn't just being shy
I just wish everyone'd lower their expectations
Of what I can accomplish over night
You act as if I'm proud I hurt myself to cope
Or that I ward off friendship to avoid emotion
And yes, I'm really beginning to rant
But frustration is really setting in
I'm getting sick of song lyrics understanding me
Even more than my own ******* friends
And while I don't really mean to curse
Politeness never gets my stupid point across
My voice, opinion, and feelings don't matter
And I wonder why I even wrote this at all
Breathe into me the December air
Do what it takes to make me remember
You could just bring us back for a moment
Seconds could hold my heart in place
And your pale eyes could pierce my soul
By brushing off the dust that's settled
Wake up and tell me what you see
The time for dreams is over
No more pain or suffering
No more joy
No more happy or sad
Good or evil
Just being
Just seeing
Just knowing
Just loving
Loving for the sake of loving
Loving for the chance of being loved
Being loved so that you can see
So now close your eyes
And tell me what you see
Now close your eyes
And wake up.
Lies stay alive as I lie alone again.
A life worth the time to win within.

No truth will live through isolation.
We face our demons with desolation.
Look without open eyes to separation.
Know why while wanting real communication.

Nothing becomes your desire with only needs.
Remember, forget failure after you deceive.

Cold Candles taunt my fears.
Paranoia has brought it near.
Accepting the whispers we hear.
My still emotion stops tears.

Better days will have to greet me.
Feelings grab a hold mocking “be.”

Freedom is slowly dying with every mark.
Blows them out with it's morbid love for dark.
Yearn to simply warm a candle
Begin to finally grab a handle.

Watch my shoes come off my feet.
This time I do not want the seat.

By all means find worth in the fight
Try to discover reasons to see light.
Fly with me throughout this night.
Sly are those who are never right.

Weakness shows you the room to grow.
Strength guides this journey to know.

Respect my Sun, but don't look directly into it's eye.
Love my Ocean, but know the infinite limits that lie.
Heal my Earth, but don't waste tears with your cry.
Find my Wind, but only ask, in the moment, why?
 Nov 2013 Morgan Paige
Andy Cave
I still love her
though I do not know why
our time together was
short lived
but made me feel
so alive
I lie awake hoping
that I can find love again
that the passion returns
and a new romance
begins.
 Nov 2013 Morgan Paige
Anonymous
It is amazing
How you never can really
Tell the simple truth
 Nov 2013 Morgan Paige
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Innocence
 Nov 2013 Morgan Paige
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you took my innocence
during that one night of lust
we were both seventeen
the night we made love
and it felt so right
I thought you
were my
soulmate
but I guess
we're all wrong
sometimes in life
© Natali Veronica 2013.

Not sure why I miss him. I guess it's because he was my first true love.
 Nov 2013 Morgan Paige
R Saba
does it make me weird
if i’m still thinking about it?
i swear it’s nothing but the good;
five or so hours later and i can still feel
your hands, running smooth lines up my back
and rough ones from my hip up to my hair,
almost desperate in their attempt
to hold on.
i was there, fully aware
of you, you and your shifting footsteps,
off-balance, while i stood and tried
to keep the cold at bay-
even though my skin was chilled,
my bones were warm and stable
and i did what i could to keep us from falling,
tumbling onto the grass
although
i may have thought about
the cold ground, and considered it
as an option.
is it strange
that i am writing about this?
tell me, is it so bad that i just want
to tell someone, to explain myself, to say
that i’m still drunk,
almost six hours later now, intoxicated
with that worn-out metaphor, but it describes this
perfectly,
this weird haze of colourful clarity
that separates me, even now
from the cold, dark wind.
i feel drunk, and i’ve felt it before
and i know that when i wake up tomorrow
there will be no headache, no regret
only a small, knowing smile on my face
as i get up, get dressed
and shove my hands in my pockets, fingers crossed
that you and i will go drinking again today.
it's been a really, really good day

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