My heart is filled with joy
My mind aches out of exhaustion
I bubble in my last answer with unnecessary quickness
I throw everything into my backpack and throw my test at my professor
Lunging for the door I start to run for the exit
I reach out into the openness and smell the sweet breeze in the air
Even though it will only be for a little while I am overjoyed because....
I am finally free!!!!

A heart made of glass
A mind made of steel
Love is a dream until you find out its real
Hugging in the winter
Dreaming in the summer
Filling my heart while melting my mind
Loving everything I am and all that I will be
Forming the shape of just you and me

Danger of the night
Secrets in the day
Cowering in the dark
Hiding from the sun
Whispers in my ear
Footsteps following me
Wishing it was twilight so I would have no fear.

Loving what I could be
Hating who I am
Wishing I could be somebody that doesn't give a ****
Helping other people, while I die inside
Nobody to hold, only people who hide
Living day by day telling myself lies
Trying to make myself believe who I could be while hiding who I am on the inside.

You hurt me all the time
It makes my heart cry
My mind is yelling at me to just give up
Knowing that I am dieing on the inside
With all this pain it is hard to stay sane
When I think our friendship has taken flight
You rip off our wings and we get into a fight
So how can we fly or should we even try when we have no feathers?

In this early morning hour
I wish my day will not be soured
By this early morning tear shedding hour.

I wish I had a flower for every hour I think about you
Then I would never have to worry
about you sending me flowers.

If I were free to live my life as I pleased
I would break my chains of ******* and spread my wings wide
I would soar through the sky
Not worrying about if the world will accept me
Or the rules I will not follow
To just be happy knowing that
I will die later rather than tomorrow
That I will never have to look back on my yesterdays
and look forward to tomorrow.

Blue eyes as deep as the sea
Left unclouded by the darkness of the world
Living a life that has not yet been foreseen
With a heart made of love that beats like the wings of a beautiful dove
She breathes life into the young and old
Trying to discover what her life might hold
Nothing can be said because her eyes show us everything
In a world where darkness breathes all we know is that she will change everything.

Keep me in your heart
Don't let your feelings hide in the dark
I will love you like the sunrise
As long as you love me through the night
So everything can be left unsaid
As long as our love will never say good bye

The blood red flowers are imprinted in my mind
Nothing can escape there vibrant colors
Nothing to soften there unnatural glow
It makes you want to stare

I write on shards of broken glass.
The scratches and cuts only make me write faster
The more I scribble the less it makes sense
My thoughts become useless as I look at my deformed reflection
My heart and mind are shattered like these shards of glass I write on.

Wings of scribbled parchment
Eyes the color of ink
Flying in the minds of  children and adults
Gliding on the gust of hatred, love, and dreams
A heart made of hope and faith trying not to be shredded
by the senseless thoughts of humanity

Your as strong as an oak
With a heart made of steel
Pride and valor is not a worthy title for you
You never falter or hesitate with what you have to do
But you will never be a king or a hero
Maybe a savior but your not worth a euro
Without love you are just a joke

My works shoes decided to take a detour
They ended up being my dogs chew toy
Ripped and torn
I stare in forlorn
There is no time to fix them so I slide them on with considerable care
This work day is not going to be fair
I walk into work with a nervous glance
Afraid of the eyes and comments
A pound of duck tape later my co-workers stare at my deformed feet
I smile up at them and say "It adds character"
They stare back at me with a bewildered  expression
I stand up and smile and go on with my work day.

Coming back to reality is like
swimming in an ocean
knowing that your going to drown
A slap in the face without anyone to comfort you
or having the will to fight back
Having friends but only in pieces of your life
Enjoying there time with you but you know it never last
as long as you want it to
Holding on to them until there time is up
Then
all you want to do is climb back into your dreams
and keep swimming in your ocean
knowing that you will be saved
some day
Being able to fly  
knowing that they will be there flying beside you
Stopping time
and filling the cracks in your life that keep breaking
your happiness apart
But in the end
reality is always calling whether we want it to
or
not

My pages keep falling out
I glue
and
glue
and
glue
but every time I try they keep falling out
I need to rethink this scheme of mine
A book is an experience
Well my experience is sticky
My thoughts are expressed in its pages but whats a book
without a binding?
A bunch of thoughts with page numbers
oh
wait
mine don't have any
I will keep gluing
but without the cover
it will never  
be finished
but
who knows
maybe
it
doesn't
have to
be

Paint splatter on my walls
There is nothing but the drips that fall
My mind races to see its colors
but there is nothing but the wet coatings
No trivial guess
or awesome gloating
can be found from my walls
only desperate wondering
and empty spots
needing to be filled
once its done
all I can do is
hope one day
that I can see the colors

The blind see that love is eternal.

I wish I could fly
like my favorite
blue butterfly.

Everyone says I have so much promise
That I will do great in whatever I choose to be
But in my mind all I see is a huge world
A world where I can choose any path I wish
Where some paths my lead to ruin and others to happiness
If only I could dream what I want to be
Because right now all I am going on is what others want me to be
I have no dream... it is like this huge world has engulfed me
What should I do?
Where should I go?
Who should I be?
It all makes me just want to go to sleep
To leave this reality
Only to wake up and realize that I have no dreams

I wish my heart was made out of LEGO's
So I can take a piece off and slip it into the pockets
of everyone I meet
So they will never forget me.

Refreshed
Invigorated
Inspired
I would like to thank all my friends on HP!
For reminding me that even on the most terrifying days
That I need to breathe and be brave!

The sun shining on my face
Music dancing all around
Nothing  is going to put me down
On a day such as this I will give my heart out
For strangers to take
For everyone deserves love
on
Valentines Day!

How can you say goodbye and not cry?
All through life there are hellos and goodbyes
but know one ever tells you what happens after
Do they live?
Do they die?
Do they go home and slam the door or just move on and live a lie?
Life is unpredictable until it turns on its side and opens up another world
A world where life has meaning
Where everyone you meet gives you a new perspective and makes you grow and become inspired in awesome and sometimes in slightly weird and unexpected ways.
So lets go on living day by day
where we might have to say goodbyes but hopefully never cry.

Thunder roars across the sky
Rain spatters on the glass
Looking out in a storm
Hoping it last
See the glisten on the grass
Everything becomes magical
In the darkest of night to the cloudy day
I love storms that wash the grime away

As your heart runs its steady course I hide from you
While you leer at me through malicious eyes my fear starts to grow
Your footsteps become louder and louder
I dare to look behind me and cringe in fear
My heart begins to race pounding louder and louder but I can still hear your voice
My shadow disappears and your breath is on my neck
My eyes start to tear knowing that my death is near.

Feeling sick
Missing school
My mind rejects
My body obeys

I'm tired of this
I'm tired of it all
I just want to know if I am going to fall
Fall into this darkened depression
Instead of staying in this gray world
Where nobody cares whether I am able to stand or fall

I call to you my dear
For you are my anchor in this restless sea
The overwhelming tides have come to devour
what is left of me
So hopefully you will hear my call
and stop these waves from consuming me

In the light of day the shadows hide away
With a chilly breeze and the wind in my hair I can barely see there ugly glares
I know they are there, hiding in the dark, watching my every move
As the day wears on I try not to think of when the sun will go down
I love the feeling of watching the sunset and the dread of knowing what comes after
The shadows are done stalking and decide to move in.

What I see everyday I can not put into words
I see clouds move fast or slow across the sky
Rising to see the sunrise knowing that it is true beauty, is nothing I can put into words
Words cannot describe how much I feel to be alive
On the most boring days the sky can make your mind go on adventures
The sky shows how much beauty can really be alive in the world because even in the darkest hours there is still beauty in the stars or when the moon shines bright.
Even on your worst days the rain can wash your troubles away
All you have to do is look up.

Love is like a bunch of flower blossoms
It starts out small
and then begins to grow
When the first buds appear love begins to ripen
Then in a short time the world begins to brighten
Colors become brighter love reaches out
With millions of petals
Love grows in small unexpected ways
Love is colorful, beautiful,
and blooms every year.

When you say goodbye I might cry.
Knowing that it might be our last is
Terrifying
But on the inside deep in my heart I will never forget out journeys
On the inside your not really gone
Your still here reliving our memories
From our first hello's to our last goodbyes.

As I'm crying you never came
As my heart begins to swell because of the pain
I am soaking wet because it started to rain
Still you never came
I stayed there all day waiting...and waiting
I tried to make an excuse for why you left but nothing came to mind
When I drifted to sleep my nightmares made everything clear
For why you deserted me.

As I lay in my own asylum I keep thinking of him.
The only person that has ever touched my heart
The only person that has stolen my dreams and will forever own my soul.
He is the only one that I will never love, because he stole my heart when he left
Now in place of my heart is a locket that holds a picture of him
The locket is a symbol of good and bad
For when he returns
my heart will be back.
When he leaves it will close and become only a memory
that withers away every second he is gone.

As I lay in my own asylum I keep thinking of him
The person that is withering in my dreams waiting for me
He is tearing through my heart wanting me to feel the pain he is going through
The man that left me in a horrible state that instead of amazing dreams
they turn into horrifying nightmares of what our memories could be.

As I keep on crying my heart is still dying
Even though I hate lying to myself
I just need to endure the pain
When ever I think of him my memory regenerates as my heart begs to make it real again
The locket in my chest will break whenever I finally forget
So far my locket is still stowed in the place it will stay forever.

As the time keeps ticking the locket stays still
As the pain intensifies and his  picture is burning in my mind
As my tears fade away and my mind races for a reason that made him leave
As I wait by the phone to hear his voice
While my memory goes away
And the locket begins to crack

As the black oblivion creeps closer.
As the moon explodes and the stars collide
While my heart sputters its sporadic rhythm
I think of you
I see you in my blind eyes
I wait for you in this forgotten world
I am immune to my own stupidity
Even though our lives will probably never entwine
I will love you all the same

Life is like a puzzle
Having to move them around in every direction
Trying to fit the pieces just right but you mess up every day
Although sometimes pieces become lost and the puzzle isn't full
As long as you never do your puzzle alone, you won't have to worry about living life and not being whole

Looking up at the unending sky.
Clouds puffy and white like little cotton *****.
Everyone of them is different no matter how big or small
They change for your liking and shift with your mind
They help you imagination grow with each minute of the day
Shifting and forming into monsters and epic battles.
The less clouds there are the more we fear reality
That is why cloudy days are my favorite.

Petals rain down upon our feet while we walk in a beautiful park
Wrapped together in our own little bubble
Unaware of the dangers of the world
Time does not matter, there are no deadlines or daily chores
All that matters is the quiet conversations and the soft music of nature
As we savour our time together

I am tired of waking up cold at night
I know your little heart wants all the warmth and joy I can give
in return for the joy you give me each day
but
I really get tired of you stealing all the covers
when you are just a small thirteen year old puppy.

The swirls in my mind just won't rest
They turn until they are worn and rusted
Nothing will will stop them until I learn to rest my poor troubled mind
I wish there was something to ease this burden
Something warm and kind
But the world has nothing left for me
Because my love is dead and gone

I wish I had wings so I could fly
I would be free to say good bye
Its hard to live without you by my side
So I will just have to learn how to fly
You were not here to see how the world changed
But soon it won't matter because
I'll have wings

A note is played and then a song
Everything is great but the notes sound wrong
My heart aches but the crowd applauds
I stand up to bow and nearly faint
There is nothing wrong except your late
Now I know why I ache
It is because I play with my heart but it is just to late

Looking in the past
Flying toward the future
Trying to see what's wrong
Trying to see what's right
Always battling the odds
And trying not to pick fights
All I can do is keep flying
Towards my unknown dreams
Towards my unknown future
Waiting for that person who will light up my life
That will keep the battles at bay
That will make all my wrongs seem okay
I'll wait and soar through my blue sky while my mind and body wait
for mister right

So its been awhile
It feels like my mental journey is finally returning home
To wonder and laughter
Sadness and feelings
Stories and adventures
To my everyday life and to the magical places
With friends that are great and amaze me everyday
To my home at Hello Poetry
Where I am going to stay

A flower that blooms only at night
It will close within the mornings light
Blooming only once a year the buds close when there time is up
The flower is white like the moon
Its beauty unrefined
The plant was given to us by a relative
It never blooms until her untimely death
Now we cherish each bloom like a reminder that she is still here
We always see her every year