They tell me I need God
That Jesus is my friend
That, at the rate I'm going
I'll have no one in the end

They tell me I should pray
That my life is in His hands
That if I don't apologize
I'll never understand

How to be truly happy
Though I am, can you not see?
I do not need Jesus
And he does not need me

The night air had never made me feel so lonely

Walking this path without my one and only

Hand in hand we use to stroll so carefree

Now the quiet reminds the soul that it's only me

Cold wraps around me, seeping into my bones

Hope it would numb me so I wouldn't feel so alone

They say after your love passes you can feel them near

But I'd be warm and happy if you were here

Snow covers my loose hair, tickling my ears

The night is so quiet, awakening my fears

Giving me time to think of what use to be

Can't even take a walk to be free of your memory

Everywhere I turn something reminds me of the past

Your impacted my heart so much I'm afraid the pain will last

Snowflakes all around making the pathway to our spot a white dream

Remember how in the summer we'd run until we got to the stream

We'd strip bare and jump in

Not worrying about anything, not knowing this all would end

I lay down now letting cold surround me and closing my eyes

Spreading my arms, making a angel and pretending to fly

How I want to fly to you

I want all that we had wanted to come true

Go back in time and save you from yourself

So stubborn, you always refused help

One more weak swipe of the arms, I stop my wings

I try to listen closely to hear if the angels will sing

Sorrowful tune for the emptiness I feel inside

I need to start accepting, all I seem to do is hide

Shaky breath I stand up and tilt my head up toward the sky

With a quiet whisper I send you a goodbye

Hide away what you are

Never show the world your scars

For all they do is judge

All they know is the word love

They don't know the meaning behind the word

Don't understand that all you want is to be heard

Don't listen to find out why we're broken and confused

So why love when people are counting on you to lose

I'd rather trust what I know

A blade that is real and the blood that flows

You know what...Judge me please for I live in pain

Go on... Tell me that what I do is vain

So next time I answer the call of the blade

I'll cut straight and then I'll fade

(Must you take what they say to heart
Making any excuse to rip my world apart
Do you think you mean so little to me?
To think that I don't hurt each time I see you bleed
I need you to realize that everybody struggles with pain
Your not the only one struggling to stay sane
What is the point of our life blood?
If your going to waste it everytime you feel judged
What does it matter what other people think, it is your body, soul, your voice
At the end of the day, may it be your last or not, you have always had a choice)

Hardly enough time to write
Put down in words how I feel inside
Lonely and confused
Sore and tired of getting bruised
Not on the skin
But somewhere deep within
I have felt myself slowly withdrawing
Begging my inner voice to ignore the final calling
Saying take a deep breath and forget the girl
How can I do that if she was my world
Only concern was her for such a long time
Now she's gone and I can't seem to unwind
Myself from the tangled mess she made of my heart
I need to move on, but instead I'm falling apart