Last haiku of an
arduous year and I will
go out with a bang

12:53 PM
22/12/21

You were somebody
who had their good heart broken-
somebody like me

12:48 PM
22/12/21

They are not thinking
about you - do yourself a
favor - go to sleep

4:49 PM
20/12/21

The universe sings its secrets
over a symphony of stars above.
We answer back with a song of our own-
songs of love and hate,
of hope and memories.
Such soul we put into our songs
and yet they are but whispers
when sung over the
eternal song of the cosmos.

The truth is I can't
be away from you for long-
I miss your smile

6:55 PM
19/12/21

I keep our love alive by
Finding you in every sunflower.
It is in them that our love blossoms-
every word, every smile, every touch
held in every petal and
every seed.

I long for
these restless nights-
it's just me, the darkness
and the echoes of all
the other lonely
souls out there.

Your smile sends sunflowers
sprouting from my soul,
destroying the dark and
leaving light in your wake.

If I lived in a
vast gingerbread house, I would
have built it with you

11:40 PM
5/12/21

Whiskey-soaked words
written in ink as dark as
the days of this year-
Another love letter
to another year.

Our lives
are tapestries
woven with memories.

You take the dirt
of this life and
turn it into
sunflowers.

You placed your heart
upon my world and
a thousand sunflowers bloomed.

Every dawn,
I plant a sunflower in your name,
so that when dusk comes,
and a million sunflowers fill the fields,
our love will blossom
for years to come.

When I laugh, I cry,
a gentle reminder of how
I cannot bring moments of joy
to your attention.
To share with you the joy,
the love, the world,
would trump these things combined.
You are not here anymore,
to share what I share,
to love what I love,
to learn what I learn.
I wonder 'what if',
what could have been,
and where we would be now-
perhaps we would be sharing the joys
we experience in this parallel existence.
But you live your own moments of joy now,
and that alone is enough,
to bring me joy.

It does not
matter to me if this love
lasts one day or a lifetime,
you will last in my heart
forever.

The love in your heart
will always be stronger than
the hurt in your heart

11:50 PM
11/11/21

Most people will never know
the burdens you carry,
all the demons,
all the sleepless nights,
and all the love and loss along the way.
They will never know
the hidden strength it took you
to get out of bed each morning,
to put on a happy face,
and to do it all again.

Dear diary;
There are some days-
days like today-
where I have no place for this world.
Other days,
I feel like perhaps this world
has no place
for me.

Your love is
like a sunflower
the way it blooms upon me
like a field throughout spring.

This sunflower can't
stand this garden it had no
choice but to grow from

8:17 PM
8/11/21

Lose yourself in the
sunshine of the summer sky.  
Let the sunflowers cradle you like
the sun cradles its children below.

I guess I wasn't
built for this whole love thing but
that's okay with me

3:48 PM
5/11/21

There is nothing
quite as magical knowing
that we look up at the same stars
that our ancestors looked up at
thousands of years ago.

The demons in me
are waiting for another
body to possess

4:17 PM
29/10/21

Stardust flows through
your veins and every touch
creates galaxies upon my skin.

I miss you.
I wait for your
sunflowers to bloom so that
I may feel your warmth once again.
Do not blossom away from me
ever again,
I have dwelled in this darkness
for far too long and
it is your light that I
held onto after all
this time.

Sometimes memories
are all we have left,
and yet they are merely a recipe
for chaos
just waiting to happen.

I will wait for you
where the sunflowers
meet the sun.

Some nights are
more unforgiving than others.
It is the thought of you that eases me
on those cold and lonely nights.
I take shelter in your twilight
until daylight returns
and do it all again
the next night.

Her body
was the sort that
inspired ancient civilizations
to sculpt goddesses into their marble.
Chiseled down to perfection,
they couldn't come close
to the goddess
that is you.

You were a sunflower
inside of my heart-
such a warm radiance
I could always use
in times of darkness.

Trapped
in between
this Heaven and Hell.
I'm in purgatory,
I fell and I fell-
so very far from glory.

I myself in
the blissful radiance of
the sunflower field
contained within your soul.
It warms me like the eternal bond
between the sun
and the flower.

If time is
a currency,
then spending it with you
was the best investment
I ever made.

I close my eyes and
my mind gives itself to you
like the a sunflower to the sun.
You planted your seeds
inside this heart,
only for a garden to grow
over this wasteland of a soul.

You grew like a
sunflower in summer
and filled my soul with warmth.
You plucked the thorns from my heart
and planted gardens instead with
love blossoming from
every petal.

I will always speak
of you kindly, but I won't
recall you that way.

12:06 AM
16/10/21

I carry you with me
wherever I go
between heart and soul,
in the extraordinary and
the ordinary moments in life.
I keep you in these eyes
that dream of a future
of you and I,
in my lips
that tell the tale of this hardship,
in my hands
that write of our wonderland,
in the mind
that never left you behind.

There you are,
never far,
never have been.
You are a part of me
and always will be
since the day you were born
until the day that I die.

Lust leaves
a bitter aftertaste-
yet the thirst for it
never wanes.

Reflections under a pale moon
her hair shimmers like neptune.
We look up at the stars with awed eyes
and watch the cosmos as time flies.
Her blue hair as blue as her heart,
yet she is still my favorite work of art.
Yes, it's true, her heart is torn,
but like the stars above, we are reborn.
So let us look to the cosmos-
to the heavens we are so close.
Magnificent are the angels up there
as is the girl with blue hair.

As you walk alone,
make sure to grow
lovely little things along the way.
Grow your pretty pathway,
your graceful garden,
and maybe one day
you will get to share it
with someone just as lovely.

I am yours,
forever,
never forget that.
We are blood, we are one,
and my heart will keep that promise.
And this distance is but a mirage,
a temporary illusion that
dissolves in our memories together.  
This heart still beats for you,
uninterruptedly
and always,
my sun,
never forget that.

Dear diary;
I'm so tired.
I am so tired of wasting energy
on those who so not reciprocate.
I am so tired of proving a point
to those who do not listen.
I am so tired of forgiving the same person
over and over again.
I am so tired of putting on a happy face
when that is not the case.
I am so tired of staying silent
for my mental health.
I am so tired.

Why do we try so
hard for those who simply just
do not care at all?

11:55 PM
7/10/21

Touch me with the
sunflower you carry in your heart
and fill me with its warmth.
Let's plant a thousand more
as we watch our dreams
grow from
that garden.

The nebulae
paint the universe
from lightyears away.
Strokes of colour and light
so majestic that I cannot help but
see a part of my soul in
those waves of gas that stretch
across our galaxy.

In our silence,
a love blossoms once again
in these two hearts.
True love's roots burrow deeper
than any absence that has
come between us.

Dear S,
I thought I
could keep this up.
Maybe I could for a while,
but not anymore-
it hurts too much.
I didn't know it would
be so difficult and I didn't
know you would turn away.
You were supposed to be here.
You were family.
I'm lost.