The discards of a
book wrote together but
never chose to read

4:03 PM
26/7/22

Dear diary;
Once again,
I am shutting myself away
to give myself a chance to heal.
I find nothing but pain and sorrow
outside these walls that
have served me well
too many times
before.

Is 'hollow' an emotion?
It is thought of as feeling nothing,
but isn't that enough to warrant an emotion?
Maybe we need a better word for
what this feeling of hollowness really is-
is it not something we can feel
deep within our gut?
Is there such thing as an
emotionless state of being or
is the only way to achieve that
in death?

Stop offering your
apologies to the knife
wedged deep in your back

10:43 AM
23/7/22

How do I get back
all of this love that I gave
to the wrong people?

7:18 AM
22/7/22

Maybe one day
I will shed the doubt
that you sowed in me
that day you turned away.

Once again,
anxiety blooms
in this mind like
black roses.