I once met this little girl
meek, quiet, reserved...
But once you get past her walls
you meet a very witty,
sincere, honest
and amazing woman.

I once met this little girl
who made me smile at the littlest of things.
From animated films, pick up lines, arcade games
or just lying in cold, damp, grass
watching the stars
no need for words...
or inside a car on a parking lot
sharing stories,
whatnot's, inspirations and dreams.

I once met this little girl
who made each of my days brighter
who gave me the fondest of memories
from our everyday happenings
from firsts together
to habits we formed
like traveling
and making adventures.

I once met this little girl
and I fell in love with her.
The best thing that ever happened in my life.
She was mine, I was hers.
And nothing else mattered.

I once met this little girl
and i hurt her.
I made mistakes,
wasted away
what could have been
a lifetime.
Spending the rest of the years of my life
with the most beautiful, amazing
and wonderful woman I have known
and I have owned.

I once met this little girl
and I'm even more in love with her.
Despite all the pain, mistakes and trials
we may have gone through,
it is still this little girl that I dream of.
The same name I sometimes cry at night
when I am awoken by a sweet dream about her.
The same little girl
I would risk all I have just to have her again.
For this little girl,
will be the only one I could imagine
spending the rest of my lifetime with.

You will always be my little girl, Anne.

Yours, as always and forever,

Mims

Dear Anne,

I have been surprising myself every day. I have been in awe with how much I realized I could do for one person - things I never even imagined before, or things that I once believed were too futile are now being risked, because of that spark of hope that one day, I can call you mine again. :) (I need not say that I am hoping for that day that you can call me yours, because I already am. Always.)

For the past few days, I have been kept awake by hopes of catching a story from you, or when you post a status on Facebook that I can comment on or like. Then I find myself waking up really early because I had a very good dream about you, and I want to tell you about it (but I have to hold myself back) then I could not sleep again because I start thinking about you (and when I do, I cannot stop). It's beautiful - knowing how much one person makes up the entire of my day, making me smile, laugh or even cry all at the same time.

And yes, soon, I am making a bold move. A brave step, a firm decision. For I want you to know that I have changed, that I am willing to go through all just for you.

Counting down. Just a few more. :)

You are always loved, Anne. Please don't forget about me. I am coming for you. And yours alone.

Always here thinking about you and loving you,
Your Mims

Dear Anne,

I'm not sure if you know, or if I've told you well enough, but every time I hear about how your day went, or how you felt today... Or even just what you had for lunch or that traffic that ****** you off - it makes my heart soar. Even if I find out things that somehow bring a slight pinch of pain in my heart (just because I know I was the one doing those things for you, or should be the one doing those for you), I know I still love hearing it and it's all worth it. I walk around mindlessly downtown or at work with a big smile on my face, and everyone just notices that I emanate pure happiness. :)

Yup, that's how much you do to me. :)

You are always loved, always thought of... Always dreamed about, Anne.

Yours, and only yours always,

Mims

Dear Anne,

I am crying now. Not because of sadness, not because of anger or frustration... But because I am overwhelmed. Not a bad kind of overwhelmed, but one that is full of awe and joy.

I am overwhelmed that after all the pain both of us have gone through, after all the hurting, anger, and fears... I wake up one morning and find myself in love with you all over again. But not the same kind of love I felt when I first had you, or during our most wonderful times together - believe it or not, it was so much more. It's the kind of love that transcends through distance, through time... My heart never settles. You know that. It is never still, it always wants and you know that the way it wants something, it does its best to get it right away. But now, it is different. It has learned to be still. It has learned to endure waiting, to endure uncertainties; to endure the fear that it does not know how you feel - or if you will be willing to accept it back or not. But amidst this indefiniteness, it fights... With a smile. It fights the good fight. It wakes up every morning beating hard and loud with purpose: that is to make you happy again. To show you how much you mean to this heart... that every heart beat, every drop of blood flowing through its veins are all with beautiful intent.

This heart is beating, this heart is in joy. It skips a beat when it senses you, it speeds up when it remembers you.

The only prayer I have now is that you will listen to its every beat. :) That you will hear what it has been trying to shout, what it has been fighting for. :)

You are loved, Anne. Remember that somewhere, someone wakes up every day inspired, motivated - to be a better person for herself. With high hopes that when you get to meet her again, all the familiarities will rush and you remember this stranger who loved you with all her joyful heart.

Yours and yours alone,

Mims

When I told you
I will go the distance just to be with you
Just to prove you
that I have changed;
and that I have realized that
you are the only person
worth taking risks for...

I meant it. :)

And yes,
even if it means
miles and miles
of uncertainties
and indefiniteness
I will jump blindfoldedly
keeping my faith, trusting completely...
for I know we're worth it.

You are always loved, Anne. Always.

Yours and yours only,

Mims.

She is my light
in every pitch black evening.
Her light cuts through every angle
brightening up
each part of me.

She is my only guide
the star I follow
to a final destination
of home, of happiness
of eternal warmth and security.

She is my inspiration.
The reason I wake up everyday
with purpose, with intent
of becoming a better me.
The reason, I go to sleep
with a smile.
For every slumber,
comes another morning
which means a day closer to her.

She is my stargirl. :)

She is loved.
She is yearned for.
She is worth waiting
and risking for.

Yours and only yours, Anne.

Your Mims

Dear Anne,

They say when you found the one person that you could imagine spending the rest of your life with, you never let that person go. Even if it means going the distance, even if it means taking risks, even if it means doing things out of the rational.

And yes, I am willing to do all these for you. I will step out of my comfort zone, fight the good fight... And make you feel the sincerity, and the purity, of my heart. That it yearns for only you and you alone.

It is a risk, an action with no assurance of what the outcome. But like what I tell you always, you are worth it.

You are and will always be loved, Anne. I will be going the distance. Real soon.

Please wait for me.

Always thinking about you,
Your Mims