I cannot contain darkness when
the sun doesn’t shine.
I can barely contain it while it does.

Like a coward he will not fight me.
Instead he’s in the brush
and firing rounds from fifty yards away
while I stand here alone,
an easy target on a **** line
watching, waiting, weary of
the fire he brings yet
I never see his face.

the day will come
when I will be consumed,
the veil will fall
and what I hide will bleed,

reveal the angst beneath the guise like
a ***** king behind a mask of gold;
his kingdom knows the truth
but looks away.

A thousand masks cannot contain his pain.

How difficult it is to pretend
to have it all together,

even harder
to fight an enemy not seen.

I lost the one I love
The one I thought is for me
The one I treasured most
The one who set me free.

I looked back, thinking
What could have I done
For him to leave me,
What's left is none.

The skies these past days,
They're good to look at
With you by my side
On the grass we lay flat.

But with one nightmare
In that night I encountered
Feeling so unfair
Stabbing words delivered.

We fought with tears falling
The nightmare is indeed true
'cause we both were yelling
We didn't know what to do.

And yes it ended painfully,
The ending  we didn't want
But no matter what we do,
It's already irrelevant.

A second chance I begged
You stared blankly ahead
Expression can't be read
Like a person that's dead.

And the love just died,
Beautiful memories buried inside
Life just withered and dried
Forever in the dark I hide.

You hold the fruit of my pathways
during storms that could chill the shores
of the blackest hearts.  
Forming bracelets that encircle my soul
until I am down on my knees
knowing wherever you go I will follow
because I am your other part.

You hold in store a truth that sweeps across me
with a brilliance speaking slowly and softly
like the stars affection for the moon.  
My heart beats in solid measure with your own,
same as starlight removes
a shadows downcast of gloom.

You spill into my sleep and kiss me with understanding
behind the blossoming beauty calling from years
of not being held,
breathing life into that which never beat with love.
Until what mattered most
found it adored the kiss finally felt.

My days ripple with the finest occupation of creation,
pressing against my tongue
as a breeze of the sweetest wine.  
I hold your words on the air of eternity
and pray they always tell me
you will hold me
whenever I am looking for
all I need to find.